[lizbeth4]

I couldn’t get back on chat???? I GAMBLED again last night!!!!!
I feel terrible about It. It’s not the answer, I know that. I don’t deal with stress well. I want to inflict self destructive things upon myself. Gambling is it!! So is isolation. I reached out to my Sister of all people about my Daughter. I know she cares. I explained what was going on and she at a loss of words. She’ll be here for a visit tomorrow. She told me to hang on as there isn’t much I could do about the situation. It was nice talking to you Jen. My Daughter is a adult but she is making bad choices for her Daughter, my Granddaughter. That’s my concern. I know the vicious cycle of lying. I’ve done it with my gambling addiction. The only reasons to lie is to cover up or hide something. I do have a third party who is also looking out for the welfare of my Granddaughter. That’s my only relief. If it wasn’t gambling it would be another vice. My goal today is to be gamble free! I can do it.

[lizbeth4]

Yes, the simple things in life are great. I’ve caught my youngest Daughter in a massive lie and deception. I found out from a concerned 3rd party. I’ve called her on it. I’m hurt that she felt like she had to lie to me. I’ve always told her to be truthful. It has damaged our relationship. It will take awhile before I can trust her again. It was a major trigger for me. Thank goodness that I am mentally tired and not capable to drive. I need to ban from the latest casino soon!

[lizbeth4]

I can’t get back into chat??????

[lizbeth4]

Self care! It’s alright and healthy to spend money on ourselves. I’m sorry that you are feeling this way today. You have value and are important! Remember that. I hope to see you in chat tonight.

[lizbeth4]

The group is 5pm Mountain Standard Time, My time

[lizbeth4]

First, the birthday party was awesome. Fun and drama free! Even my Mother behaved herself and enjoyed it. I-did-it, I totally agree about what you said about our recovery. They both parallel each other! I think the Sunday night, 5pm Mountain Standard Time group is the one that works with my schedule. The one we were both in before. I think we could help each other. I Need to get rid of the worry!!! Self induced. It’s driving me nuts!! Hopefully I will see you there.

[lizbeth4]

Hi Sherrie, Your body needed the rest! You’ve had a stressful week. Telling Hubby was a big step! I think it’s always good to have support. Give him some time, he will be there for you. Getting control of your debts also is a big step. It’s easy for us to let it snowball. You are taking all the right steps to help your recovery. Keep going! Have a great weekend!

[lizbeth4]

Great on not gambling and stopping the alcohol. It’s not easy. Give yourself some praise!!! Keep doing what you’re doing. Have a great weekend!

[lizbeth4]

Hi Mow16. Welcome to GT! You need to start over again. Relapse is common for us. Do you think you can put more barriers in place? Can you seek more counseling? This is a horrible addiction that destroys everything. Keep talking to your Wife. Keep posting here and reading others threads. We are here for each other. Don’t give up!

[lizbeth4]

Going to the city this afternoon for the birthday party! I woke this morning with worry! I am a worrier. I said my prayers and gave it to God! Hope everyone has a great gamble free weekend!

[lizbeth4]

You’re right! Life goes on! Heading for work! Both of my Daughters are amazing! I did something right!!!

[lizbeth4]

It’s another cold and rainy day. Going to the store to pick up some potato salad for the barbeque tomorrow, Grandsons 13th birthday party!!! I talked to my youngest Daughter yesterday and she starts work today and my Granddaughter will be going to the babysitters. I was able to send her a little money for miscellaneous items. She seems happuer and is motivated to work, ect. She’s a strong gal. She’s drug free and cigarette free! Big, big accomplishment. Nothing new here. Just working. I did have lunch with my CG acquaintance yesterday. It was ok. She said that she’s not been gambling as much. She’s tired of losing her money. I’ve had no urges to gambling urges.

[lizbeth4]

I’m glad that you called that credit card company out for being over the statue of limitations The credit card companies are the biggest rip off! I know we should be more responsible but they shell out so many offers to people and before you know it, you’re in trouble. I’ll be glad when mine are paid off.

[lizbeth4]

I’m feeling much better about my Daughter’s decision to move. Believe it or not, my Sister was the voice of reason. She happened to text me as she is coming for a visit next week. My Daughter was unhappy where she was living and accommodations were tight. In fact, she was getting depressed. I’m hoping that this living situation is more positive. She will be working with the woman she’s livinv with and won’t have to worry about transportation. My Daughter is a very hard wotker. I hope that I haven’t given the wrong impression. Vera, I talked her into going to counseling when she lived with me. She went 2 sessions and said it wasn’t for her. She doesn’t go to support groups either. She cold turkey off of drugs. We talk everyday via texts. She knows the family is here for her. I told her that I want her to be happy and to succeed. She was wise and got rid of her Daughter’s father. He is now in prison. I’m done with work and mentally drained. Going to bed.

[lizbeth4]

Today has been quite stressful and I’ve had strong urges to gamble! My youngest Daughter and Granddaughter have moved again, in with another friend. My Daughter has only worked for 1 month the last 8 months. She’s depending on state aid and the church. Lack of transportation has been her reason though she lives in a big city witb mass transportation. I know I can’t control how my adult daughter lives but it’s concerning as my Granddaughter is involved. My Daughter is a recovering drug addict. She has been clean for 3 years and I’m very proud of her. But being addicted for 16 years, she is very naive when it comes to daily living. I’m trying to not freak out and keep the lines of communication open. I truly believe she loves her Daughter and wouldn’t put her in harms way. It’s just a caring Mothers concern. I’m praying for her and myself.

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