[lizbeth4]

Vera, I get everything you’ve said. My credit cards are under a debt consolidation company. I send a monthly payment. I have a car loan and 3 personal loans that are outrageously high interest rates. I think the lack of money, what is left over is bothering me also. I can’t do extra things but there is nothing that I really need, like clothing, shoes, household items
Patience. I get it! Things will be paid and the balance of debt will lessen. Vera, I’m going to make it! I just can’t gamble anymore! I have to keep working on my RECOVERY!!

[lizbeth4]

Chat was good! Just needed to remember that I’m not alone. Looking back, I’ve never valued my worth. I come from a long line of alcoholics, drug users and gamblers. I always prided myself for not overdrinking and never using drugs. No one really talked about the gambling. I didn’t even know it was a addiction. I first started as I was introduced to it through my Mom and Step Father. I was hooked right away. I had long periods of being gamble free as all of the Indian casinos didn’t exist. I really got hooked when my Husband and I had seperated for awhile. I had 2 children (mine), no child support, and I was struggling financially. A family member suggested we go to a local casino and see if we could win. I was hooked. A great way to escape. It started a vicious cycle. I’ve been gamble free for long periods of time and relapsed. Over and over. My finances are my biggest concern now and trigger. Lack of money to cover bills, bad credit. All of this due to relapses. It has to stop! I can’t take anymore!

[lizbeth4]

I’m feeling down today. Can’t pay all of my bills next month. Can’t stop thinking about all of the money I’ve gambled away. Money that affects my financial stability. What a idiot I’ve been. Now I have to face the consequences. I know I should forget and move forward but I can’t today. I’m really mad at myself.  I will be chat this evening. I need support.

[lizbeth4]

Thank you for your supportive post! It’s interesting to see others views on my family situation. What you have said made a lot of sense. I hope you are having a good weekend. Take care.

[lizbeth4]

My Sister has been very generous to my Grandchildren. She bought my Granddaughter a winter wardrobe.

[lizbeth4]

Thank you for your supportive post. My Sister left this morning. She’s coming back soon. My Mom and her almost got into 2 arguments. My Sister talks down to our Mom like my Mom talks down to me. It was real interesting to watch. Things aren’t happy in paradise. My Sister has only been retired for 1 month and she and her boyfriend are arguing a lot. She says he is very demanding. She only talks to 1 of her 2 sons. She has 5 Grandchilden that she has no contact with. I-did-it, maybe she is jealous? UMMMMMM! Anyways, we have planned a hiking trip when she returns to a area that has raw amethysts. I’m excited about that! Anyways, I’m going to work this afternoon. Then I’m watching movies. I did my daily meditation and walk. I need to journal later. Feeling positive.

[lizbeth4]

Just finished work! I was glad that I took a break from my Mon and Sister today. That sounds bad! Anyways, dinner was nice. We ran into a friend of mine. She text me later that my Mom and Sister always look mad. LOL! My Sister is going home tomorrow so I will spend the morning with her.
I’m working on my activities tomorrow and journaling. Dave Ramsey suggests that. I’ve somehow managed to save back some money. This will cover groceries and gas next month. I’m usually broke1 week before payday. I have myself on a little bind next month. More money going out then in. So I’m juggling, ect… It will work out.
I’m going to put a few job applications in (online) this weekend. Part time day job. Would like to work it for 6 months.
Keeping busy. Not GAMBLING!

[lizbeth4]

The book is called, “The Financial Peace Planner”. You spend one week on each chapter. You have to journal and complete activities. It’s very interesting and I think it will be very beneficial. Yes, the pics of my Granddaughter made my day!

[lizbeth4]

You have a lot going on! It’s good that you will be with your Mother on surgery day. I’m wishing her all the best. It’s too bad that your colleagues aren’t helping with the workload. I’m sure it’s very overwhelming at times. Especially if there are deadlines to meet. Hopefully you can find time to relax. Maybe a nice bubble bath and movie, where you can just vegg and relax. Have a good day!

[lizbeth4]

My brain is swirling with new thoughts! I’m reading a Dave Ramsey book. Chapter 1 talks about how your financial goals can’t be fixed if you are not physically, spiritually and mentally healthy. Makes sense. Each chapter has goals you need to meet before you can move forward to the next chapter. This is exciting and I think that reaching the goals will make me think more about not gambling. It kind of ties in together.

[lizbeth4]

Are you alright? I read your last post and could relate. We never know what is going to happen in our lives. Life is precious and fragile. Our health should be our number one priority. I’ve lost many loved ones. All of them had no control over their lives as they were all very ill. Live life to the fullest!
I agree about your house, environment. I’m thinking of sprucing up my bedroom after reading your posts. Have a great day!!

[lizbeth4]

Awesome job on no alcohol. Get well soon.

[lizbeth4]

It’s never too late to stop gambling! What barriers have you put into place? Have you looked at the videos here? There are many useful tips. Have you banned or put a blocker on your computer? GA meetings? We have to be proactive in our recovery. Use all if these things to help you. Keep going and posting here. Don’t give up!!

[lizbeth4]

I’ve decided to stay home and meet my Mom and Sister for dinner this evening. I’m having sleep issues again. I woke with the worse headache. Plus yesterday totally drained me! Self preservation!

[lizbeth4]

Just checking in to see how you’re doing. Hope things are better. Take care!

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