[lizbeth4]

I dealt with the rude teller today. Surprisingly, she was polite and didn’t have much to say. Yea!!

[lizbeth4]

So I’m settling in where I’m pet/house sitting. They paid me upfront plus a nice tip! It goes into the bank. I have yo vacumn a bank vault today and will have contact with that rude teller who by the way is the customer service rep for the bank. I’m going to be professional. Have to return some movies to the library and deposit my pay. It’s cold and rainy. Not lookimg forwards to going out into it tonight for work. LOL! No gambling thoughts. PS My Daughter started her first day of school!

[lizbeth4]

Vera, You are right about my Mom. It’s all about control! I’m just going to ignore her bad behavior. Yes, I have to live where I’m dog/house sitting for 4 days. I will be doing my cleaning job also. So i will be coming and going. It’s about 10 mins from my house. Hey, they have cable and internet! I’ll be in heaven. So I’m packing my bag and food stuff tomorrow. Going over in the morning.

[lizbeth4]

Today my Mom yet again has really disappointed me. I know it’s a control issue on her part. I should be used to it now but it always bothers me. It shakes my trust in her. Always 1 step forward and 2 steps backwards with her. If my Granddaughter comes to live with me, I have to put up boundaries with my Mom. She’ll try to take over and it’s not always for the good. Routine and consistency are the guidelines I used with my kids and Grandson. I will need to find a playgroup for her as she needs to interact with other kids. A lot of things to think about. My Mom is a big trigger for me but today I’m not having any gambling thoughts. My head is clear.

[lizbeth4]

It’s a cold, foggy, rainy day. A great day to stay in your pjs and vegg. I’m going to pack my bag, ect…for my housesitting gig. No gambling thoughts. Truly feeling blessed and content.

[lizbeth4]

Today I had strong gambling urges! I didn’t want to gamble. I prayed and prayed. Before work I went shopping and bought new bed pillows. I scrimp on everything but my bedding!!! I treated myself and after work the urges disappeared. I’m at home now in my PJS. Tomorrow is my day off of work. I’m staying home and relaxing as next week will be busy working and pet sitting. We are expecting rain/snow and heavy winds. Nothing like Jen has had but it will be cold!!! Got through today. Relieved!

[lizbeth4]

Hi K. Just checking to see how you are. Post when u can. Have a great weekend!

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Thanks Monica, your posts are always insightful and make me look at things differently. I’m still in my PJS. Going to make some hot tea and start my laundry. And start packing my bag for my house sitting gig. I don’t know what’s going on at the pond but the geese are making a lot of noise! Lol! Going to my Mom’s for a late lunch today. I’m a little emotionally drained. Taking deep breaths. Have a wonderful weekend everyone!

[lizbeth4]

Thanks Nick for your supportive post! Yes, we need to treat ourselves. Enjoy!

[lizbeth4]

I’m trying to stay patient and see what happens with my Daughter and her plans. If I think about it too much, I get anxious. My money will be real tight without my job. But as soon as some of these loans are paid, things will be better. I’m going to do my taxes asap. I get a good sum back from state. I can use that for new tires and save the rest for things my Granddaughter needs until my Daughter can help. I usually receive my refund in April.
It’s going to be hard having a 2 year old full time. But I can do it. It will work out. There is a park walking distance from my home. Both of my Grandchildren have their own rooms here. My Granddaughter’s is more of a playroom but I can get her a bed.
So, I’m saving every penny I can in anticipation of my Granddaughter living with me. I can’t even think of gambling.

[lizbeth4]

Thanks for your recent post on my thread. I don’t think GA is for everyone. I had the worst 1st experience with GA. It was male dominated. Thw group had been together for a long time. They actually bullied me. There were 2 other women there and at break suggested that I find another group as they didn’t really like newbies. I tore out of that parking lot and never went back there. I eventually found a group I liked. Now I live in a small town. No groups here!
I don’t think you offended anyone. You have a right to your opinion.

[lizbeth4]

All you can do is move forward. I do believe that God is a forgiving God. Stay focused.

[lizbeth4]

I’m having some tea and then jumping into the shower to get ready for my day!!!! I’ve paid bills and I will go to the bank for a cashiers check to finish off paying my property taxes. That’s a relief. I’m not quitting my job nor my May pet/house sitting gig until my Daughter is 3/4 of the way through her training. It’s a 8 week course for her Commercial License. I don’t think she realizes the classroom work she has to do. I’m praying she follows through!
I’ve gone over my finances, 3 loans will be paid of by August and my car in September. YEAH! I can live without the part time job if necessary. Things will work out the way they are supposed to.
No gambling thoughts or urges today! Feeling thankful and grateful!

[lizbeth4]

Home from work. Letting everything that happened today sink in. Taking a deep breath. One day at a time! Tomorrow I’m going to lunch with a friend. A large thrift store is opening tomorrow. I might swing by and check it out. Going to bed. Tired!

[lizbeth4]

I really feel that something miraculous happened to me today! I am thinking the same as you ladies. Having my Granddaughter with me would be awesome. I would have to quit my job but that’s ok. Now let’s see if my Daughter follows through and gets her commercial driving licence. I can see her driving a semi! She seems to not complete things when it gets tough. I’m praying for her. It’s big money. She could be able to make a good life for herself and my Granddaughter.
About 1 hour after my previous post I got a loan with another company. Good rate and no collateral. I will be able to get out of my bind. Another miracle!
No gambling thoughts or urges!!!!

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