[lizbeth4]

Finished work! Now in my jammies getting ready to watch a movie. My Daughter sent me the cutest pic of my Granddaughter! She’s getting so big.
I was thinking today of all the money I’ve blown gambling. And how I could really use that money now. But it’s gone! Keep kicking myself for being such a fool.
It’s going to be real tight when I leave my job. But I will manage and my Daughter will provide for her Daughter as soon as she can. God will see me through. I had lost my faith. It’s being restored and I’m feeling a change in my life.
I don’t want to gamble! I’ve had no urges.

[lizbeth4]

My Daughter still has a long way to go in her training but her confidence is building. I’m so proud of her. Starting tommorow, I’m organizing closets and drawers. Getting rid of items again. I feel the need to purge and minimize.

[lizbeth4]

I’m not sure of your situation or what solutions you are contemplating. Don’t do anything that you will regret. I am praying for you.

[lizbeth4]

MY DAUGHTER PASSED THE TEST! SHE NOW HAS HER CDL PERMIT! SHE CAN CONTINUE HER STUDIES AND TRAINING. I’M SO HAPPY AND PROUD OF HER. THANKS EVERYONE FOR YOUR PRAYERS!

[lizbeth4]

Your Sister is in a precarious situation! I understand you helping her but maybe it’s her Daughter’s turn. Her Husband can’t work? I remember being in a terrible marriage (1st). I had a 5 year old and a 2 month old. My Husband didn’t want to work I threw him out and divorced him. I struggled and barely made it financially but I was much happier not supporting him. Your Sister must be feeling bad as her Husband helped put her in this situation and he doesn’t seem to care. I’m sure it bothers her to ask for money. No one doesn’t want to achieve!
Just my 2 cents worth!!!! You must take care of yourself first!!!

[lizbeth4]

Scroll all the way to the bottom of the page. Login-make up a user name and password. I think from there you should be able to start a thread. If not, go to live help. Someone shpuld be able to help you.

[lizbeth4]

My taxes are done! What I’m getting back from State will offset the taxes I owe Federal! The new tax laws and tax tables. My State refund was 1/3 of what it normally is. No big refund from the State anymore. No new tire fund!!! Bummer!!!
My Daughter text me that she was taking her test this morning. I prayed for her! No news. I’m scared that she will lose her confidence and give up! I just keep praying!!!!

[lizbeth4]

Thanks Kin for the Blessings video that you shared on my thread. I really needed it!!!

[lizbeth4]

So I’ve contacted 2 creditors and made arrangements to double payments for next month. Ugh! The other creditor is experiencing high volume calls and the computer said to call back tomorrow. Good grief!! Time to really buckle down.. Pay bills on time and be responsible with my money.
Need to finish my taxes today and see where I stand. I haven’t heard from my Daughter about her test results. I’m just praying for her!!
My gambling addiction has cost me so much. It brought me to the brink of questioning my faith. I will never let it have that power over me again!

[lizbeth4]

Instead of blowing off the 3 bills I can’t pay on time, I will call them all tomorrow. They will be 2 weeks late. I will still get automated calls and late letters but it will be noted on my accounts that I did call. I will feel better about it.

[lizbeth4]

I’m getting ready to go to my Mother’s house to spend the day. I have to prepare myself as the atmosphere there is so negative. You can feel it in the air!
My Daughter is trying to study when her Daughter is napping or down for the night. I feel a little frustrated as she lives about 100 miles from me and I can’t help her. I just keep praying for her.
My finances are kind of messed up this month as I paid a large property tax bill. I didn’t want a lien on my house. I dod the right thing but can’t pay other bills. 3 bills will be 2 weeks late and will put a strain on next months budget. But somehow I will get through this.
I couldn’t gamble even if I wanted to. No money. But I was smart enough to fill my pantry. I have plenty of food and gas. I’m going to try and budget my money better.

[lizbeth4]

I’m still amazed at your progress from the terrible addiction! You did it!!!! Your strength is very admirable to me.
I know you love your Sister but at some point you need to put yourself first. Like me, you are on your own. I don’t ask anyone for financial help either.
About 4 years ago, I stopped giving to my oldest Daughter. Her hand was always out. One day I just became upset, angry, and told myself no more. I felt disrespected and used. She now relies on her boyfriend. She wortks but doesn’t contribute much. Sadly, she moved on to someone else. I lost a lot of respect for her. She wasn’t raised like that. She has done thoughtful things for me but never asks how I am. Makes me sad.
Have a good walk.

[lizbeth4]

I’m so glad to be home!! I started laundry but I’m still in my PJs. I have a lot planned for the day. Please keep my Daughter in your prayers. She really deserves this opportunity. She’s been drug free for 3 years after 16 years of addiction. Although I don’t agree with her choices, like living with my Brother. She has my respect for all that she has come through.
No gambling thoughts today. Walking to the library instead of driving. Need the exercise.

[lizbeth4]

Work kicked my butt! I’m tired. I’m managing to stay gamble free. But I need to work on other areas. I’ve gained back the 7 pounds I lost. It’s been cold here so I haven’t been exercising and I’m eating junk. Time to start getting healthy again. I can do it!!!! It’s just a matter of getting into a routine and sticking with it. Tossing out the junk food tommorow. Going to bed.

[lizbeth4]

Hi. I just wanted to tell you that you are not a lost cause. You are deserving of everthing good. Everyone’s journey/recovery is different. I’ve tried many different things and approaches to this addiction. Now I feel like outside sources are leading me, my Daughter and Granddaughter. Don’t give up. Everyday is a new day.

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