[lizbeth4]

Your health is number one. I’m glad that you had the tests. The bills from tests can be paid over time. I suffered a heart attack 10 years ago. Irregular heartbeat. I take meds and see a cardiologist once a year. I’ve had no problems since. But I stopped smoking, lessened my sugar intake. Ect…..
Are you having more testing to figure out what’s going on? I believe that my gambling stress caused my health issues. I’m glad to hear that you aren’t missing gambling. Neither am I.
Take care of yourself!

[lizbeth4]

The amount of snow is a lot more than we usually get. I’m in the Southwest. My state has been all over the news. Well, it looks like the snow has stopped. Its trying to melt. Now there’s worry about flooding. The plows were out but could only plow 1 side of the roads. No where to put all of the snow. We were lucky as we never lost power. Over 3000 homes had no power for hours.
I hired someone to shovel my steep, long driveway. He sent me a picture of the front of my house. Everything looks intact. The biggest tree (in my front yard) hadn’t lost any branches. I’m going to try and go home tomorrow but not sure I’m going to be able to.
I text my Boss to tell him that both banks were closed today and that I wouldn’t be able to get to town today and maybe tommorow. He called the banks again and said we’d talk about Saturday tomorrow. Kinda pissed me off! I’m not going to go into town if the roads are unsafe. I’ve gone above the call of duty.
It’s been raining hard in the city and is 20 degrees cooler than normal but my Daughter is learning to drive and park the semi. Very motivated.
I’m ready to go home! No gambling thoughts!

[lizbeth4]

Well, we are snowed in. 39 inches of snow and still lightly snowing. Worried about my house. Prayed! The snow plows are keeping the main streets clear. The residential streets will not be plowed for days. The whole town is shut down except emergency responders. Even the casino!!!!

[lizbeth4]

It sounds like a good plan. Finding the right balance in life is hard! I feel like I’m more in balance than I’ve been in a long time. Yes, every facet of our live is intertwined. It would be nice to have everything in sync.

[lizbeth4]

Took Mom shopping so we could get a few things for the winter storm that’s supposed to hit my state tommorow, particularly the part I live in. Anticipating electric outages, ect…. Made the decision to pack a bag and stay at my Mom’s house. I’m concerned with her recent health scare. My Boss got back with me this morning and I’m cleaning both banks instead of 1 tonight as I’m not traveling tomorrow due to the weather. Nothing else is happening. I haven’t thought of gambling. My payday is in 2 days and I had forgotten until a little while ago. It’s earmarked for bills. I’m feeling content and peaceful. It’s like my soul is at rest.

[lizbeth4]

Well, work wasn’t that bad! It started snowing a lot but I made it home and up my icy driveway! I had another weather alert on my phone for Thursday and Friday. We are expecting up to 3 feet of snow. Usually we have only a few inches, very mild. I text my boss and told him that I may not be able to get to the banks on those days and would he like me to clean both banks again tomorrow? He’s going to check with the bank tomorrow and get back to me. I’m not risking driving in a mess.
My Daughter drove a semi on the highway today! She said the instructor was impressed on how fast she is learning. I’m so happy!
Staying busy!!! No gambling thoughts!

[lizbeth4]

I have found it helpful to use my thread like a journal. That way, you can go back and re-read your posts and see your progress! How are you doing? Don’t give in. The journey may be hard but well worth the positive outcome. Keep posting!

[lizbeth4]

Take a deep breath! All of this is overwhelming. Please listen to the advice you are going to receive. Things will get better if you can implement the changes you need to recover.

[lizbeth4]

I’m feeling very positive and upbeat today! The sun is trying to break through the clouds. The snow is slightly melting. Hoping some of it melts off of my driveway. I can’t shovel because of my heart condition. My driveway is steep. Going out is no problem. But going up can be impossible. I may have to park in front of the house after work tonight. Oh well. Where there’s a will, there’s a way!!!!!
Tire replacement will happen in April. Yeah! Shopping around for best prices. Not gambling has made me respect my money a lot more. I’m always looking for sales and comparing prices.
I still have a long way to go financially but I’m getting there. Sure and steady! I finally get it. Gambling can’t be a part of my life. I have to work recovery everyday. Whether it be this site, self help books, or my number one, talking to God.
I did lose my faith for awhile. But now I realize that God never left me. I just have to look around and he is there!

[lizbeth4]

You’ve made the first step coming here. You need to put barriers in place. Blocker for online gambling, GA meetings, ect…. You shouldn’t have access to money. No money=no gambling!!!
It’s a heavy burden to carry alone. We are here to support you. Keep posting!

[lizbeth4]

Thank you for your post on my thread. It was good to see you posting. I’ve wondered how you were doing I hope everything is good with you! Take care.

[lizbeth4]

I have thought about you and have wondered how you were doing. It’s good to see you post. Yes, I need to be here. This is my only support.
I spent a few hours with my Mom and Sister. My Sister had to come pick me up in her truck because of all of the snow. We will have 2 snow free days and then 2 days of massive snow. I may not be able to get to work on those days. Something my boss needs to understand.
My Sister is going home tomorrow. She was relatively calm today and told me she was ready to go home but had to wait till tomorrow when it isn’t snowing. My Mom snapped at her a few times and I could tell that my Sister was irritated.
I’ve had no gambling thoughts or urges. I went back on my thread and it’s only been a little more than 1 month since my last slip. Why does it seem so much longer?
I have a lot to do in the next few weeks in preparation for my Granddaughter. I’m cleaning out drawers, closets, ect….purging and reorganizing! It keeps me busy and out of trouble.
Having my Granddaughter with me is going to be good! I’m looking forward to it!

[lizbeth4]

Good to see you in chat. Thanks for your ongoing support.

[lizbeth4]

It was good to meet you in group! Good to see you start a thread. See if you can get a more effective blocker for your phone. Barriers!!!!

[lizbeth4]

Couldn’t get back on chat. Good to talk Vera. Hope to see your threads Tek and Tina.

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