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Don’t give up!!!!

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Good luck on your job interview tomorrow!!

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I realized after cleaning that my living room and hallway carpets need a good professional cleaning. UGH!

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My house (cleaning) is halfway done. I’ve really purged! Everything is clean and organized. Moving forward tomorrow with the rest of the house. My neighbor across the street is back. Ugh!!! Even though I like helping people, I’m not going to be sucked in again. She has a grown Son who can drive her around town. There is going to be a hugh sale on Friday next door to me. My elderly neighbor isn’t coming home. She is in a care center. Not looking forward to the sale. People here get crazy with garage sales. The guy running it is going to put cones blocking my driveway so I don’t get blocked it. Today I thought about gambling! Big time! But I thought about getting my house together for when my Granddaughter comes to live with me. That outweighed the gambling!  I was able to help out 2 young backpackers this afternoon while I was in town   Since I limit the cash I have on hand, it wasn’t a lot but they were very thankful.   It feels good to help others.  

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The bank was real messy! I can expect it for a week as the snow is turning into slush!!!!!! I got through it.
I talked to both Daughters and Grandchildren today!! What a joy!! I’m thankful for them.
Hoping that I sleep well tonight. Good nite.

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It was good to see your post, I’m glad that things are better. You will stop the cigarettes when you are ready. Take care of yourself.

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I just finished cleaning my kitchen. Every drawer, cabinet, appliance, wall is cleaned. Going to fimish the dining room also. There is a wall of drawers and cabinets there also.
This is so much better than the alternative. I had strong gambling urges this morning! But I’ve gotten through them.

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So, today I had gambling urges! I was able to pray about it and the urges passed. I went to the store for my Mom and to the library. I shoveled some snow that was blocking the road.
Tonight I have both banks to clean. The snow salt and de-icer stuff gets tracked all over and makes a big mess! I’ve decided to try and have a positive outlook on the remainder of my job. It is serving it’s purpose.
Not sleeping well but still can’t figure out the cause. I just hate the sleeping pills so I will defer from using them.
Tomorrow I’m going to start cleaningand reorganizing my kitchen and dining room drawers and cabinets and move through the house. 3 piles: discard, thrift store and garage sale. This is freeing for me.
I hope everyone had a great gamble free day!!

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Good attitude! Every lessen brings us closer to where we should be! Hope you have a great day!

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It is always uplifting to spend time with those we love! I think it is easy for us to isolate. Our snow is over and we are heading into a little warmer weather. Time to be outside more. Always makes me feel better.
Change is good! Hard sometimes but usually for the best. Don’t cut down on your sleep too much. It has a way of catching up to you. Take care.

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Don’t beat yourself up! I’ve had many slips. You had 3 weeks gambling free time! That can’t be taken away. Nor can any lessons you’ve learned along the way. You’ve made progress. Keep moving forward!

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Just noticed that my outside light post isn’t working. I will have to take a look at it tomorrow.

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Finally today my car was dug out. My Mom has a short driveway and my car was out in the elements. My hpuse was fine! No catastrophes! Only 1 little tree branch was down. It’s going to be a slushy mess as the snow melts. I had to clean both banks because I couldn’t get to them for a few days. Neither was bad so I did a lot of dusting, ect…. Things I only get to once a week.
My Boss was pissing me off. He kept texting me. I had to come back twice at one bank because the parking lot was being plowed and shoveled. It’s a icy, wet mess on the streets. Traffic was terrible as the city folks were going home after playing in the snow. Sometimes he is very inconsiderate! But I should be through with the job at the end of March.
I sent my youngest Daughter some money this afternoon. I said I wasn’t anymore but after thinking it over, she needs to get through this job training. It will cover gas, diapers, ect….
I thought about going to bingo today, not at the casino. They cancelled today. I haven’t ever played. For me, it’s a better alternative to casino gambling. I don’t know?????
I stopped after work and picked up dinner at a restaurant. I was really dissappointed! It wasn’t very tasty. But it was costly.
My bank account looks dismal. I used most of my recent pay for bills, ect……..I have to keep plugging away.

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I’m at my Mom’s house still. Main streets are clean but the neighborhoods are still a mess. I shoveled today and the snow is melting. The guy is supposed to be here in the morning to shovel so I can get out!!! Yeah! Ready to be home.
The bank was opened today. My Boss said I can clean that bank tomorrow. Honestly, I’m at the point where I won’t miss this job.
My next door neighbors were out walking and said everything looked good at my house. No tree branches down, ect…
That was good news! I’ve been binge watching crime shows and I did a little reading. My Daughter sent me a video of my Granddaughter. So cute and precious! I think my life will be more fulfilled with her living with me. No gambling thoughts!!! So thankful!

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There are times that I feel stuck in life. Maybe we are thinking too far in advance. Maybe we should just try to do something we like everyday. It doesn’t have to be something big. Maybe we can retrain our minds to enjoy the little things around us. What I’m trying to say is that sometimes over thinking keeps us from living in the present. Just my thoughts.
We are masters of our own destiny.

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