[lizbeth4]

P.S. My youngest Daughter’s nickname is Jen!

[lizbeth4]

How are you? My Daughter passed her testing today! She has her CDL license. I want to thank you for your sweet post on my thread about helping me with my Granddaughter. I know you would. I wish we lived closer to each other. I think we could be good friends. I miss your postings. Take care.

[lizbeth4]

My Daughter passed her testing today! She has her CDL license. We don’t know when she will go out on the road. I’m so proud of her. I’ve been told by a number of people, all men, that it isn’t easy to get your CDL license. She did it and was the only woman in her class.
I’m getting the toddler bed tomorrow. The people had a sick child today. Glad that they got back to me.
Feeling good and everything seems to be going as planned!

[lizbeth4]

Please pray for my Daughter! She had a rough day at school yesterday and is now second guessing herself. Today is her final driving test. I got up early to say good morning to her. She seems more like herself today.
I found a used toddler’s bed for my Granddaughter. The person selling it blew me off. We were supposed to meet in town early this morning. A no show! I could of stayed in my comfy bed. LOL!
Well, hopefully the rest of my day will go smoothly. No gambling thoughts.

[lizbeth4]

My last gambling episode was my rock bottom. It wasn’t from the financial mess because I will recover from it. But it was rock bottom mentally. I realized that one more binge will set me over the edge. I can’t take anymore of the mental or emotional stress after the gambling episode.
I hope that you have implemented some things to help you. Yes, I think that our brains can be rewired and retrained. This addiction is very sneaky. It’s easy to become complacent and gamble again. I’ ve been there!
Stay strong. You have my support.

[lizbeth4]

Feeling a little less stressed today. Yes, everything will work out!!! I have to have faith. Maybe, if I didn’t have so much debt, I would feel more confident. Losing my extra income is going to hurt. But I will get through this.
The pros- my Granddaughter will be in a safe and loving environment. I will pray everyday that I will let the anxious and stressful feeling go away.

[lizbeth4]

Are you alright?

[lizbeth4]

It is easy to lose focus. I’m glad that you didn’t gamble. Take care.

[lizbeth4]

Yes, complusive gambling isn’t about the money. It’s about escaping from something we haven’t dealt with. Our coping skills are not good.
When you stopped gambling for several years, what resources did you use? GA, barriers? Maybe you can try and implement them again to help yourself.
We keep chasing the win but in the end we always loose. I wish you well in your recovery. This is a horrific disease.

[lizbeth4]

Wondering today if I can do this, taking care of my Granddaughter full time. Yes I can. But feeling a bit overwhelmed. Over ate today to cope with my feelings. Not good. I’ve put the weight back on that I had lost. I wanted to escape in gambling but didn’t.
Changes-yes, much will change but in the long run, my Granddaughter is well worth it. Regrets-yes, having to give up my job. I’ve been there almost 6 months. I’m good at it and the extra money helps. But it’s just a job and I will survive without it. Plans change-my big trip will be on hold for awhile. But I can still dream.
In the end, just having hugs and kisses from the little one will wipe out any anxious feelings.

[lizbeth4]

I’m done with the major purging and reorganizing! I only have the master bathroom to clean. The snow has almost melted and we are expecting rain today. I have some yard work to do. Maybe Sunday or Monday.
I’ve been in a strange mood the last few days. I figured out that my Husband’s death day is coming up, March 12th. It’s been 6 years. I can’t believe it’s been that long. Remembering the memories!
Today I thought of happier things. My youngest Daughter, Granddaughter, youngest Nephew all have birthdays this month. Something to celebrate!
1 bank to clean today. Sending my Daughter some money. She’s so close to her goal. I’m a proud Momma.
Many things to be thankful for.

[lizbeth4]

Vera, that was hilarious! I’m ready to give birth at anytime. LOL!!! My Sister is gathering items and wants to have a garage sale at my house when the weather is warmer. I have quite a few things also. Saying prayers for your Sons Vera! Going to bed. The bank was a muddy mess! Tired!

[lizbeth4]

Oh boy!!! I’m pooped. I only have my bedroom and bath to clean. That will wait till tomorrow. I’ve reorganized and cleaned from top to bottom including the windows. Tomorrow will be much of the same including straightening up my file cabinet. I like being productive and seeing the results.
The snow is still melting. My backyard still has a lot. It’s a nice sunny day.
No gambling thoughts today.

[lizbeth4]

My Daughter has 2 more days of school. On Monday she takes her final test and gets her CDL license. Please pray for her! Then she will be gone for 1 month driving with a mentor. She doesn’t know when she will leave yet but it will be soon. I will go to the city to get my Granddaughter then.
I’m going to give my Boss a 2 week notice. I want to work through the end of March. My Mom is going to watch my Granddaughter while I work. It will be challenging! I will bring her to my Mom’s after dinner and bath time. If she falls asleep there we will just spend the night.
I have to remember that this is short term with my job. Then we settle down into a routine. Just a little overwhelmed!

[lizbeth4]

I don’t think that I’m more confident when I’m gamble free. For me it’s a feeling of being the more authentic me. I feel free and my true personality comes out.
Sorry that your recent breakup had you down. Relationships are hard.
I hope you had a good day!!!

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