[lizbeth4]

My life is not my own anymore! LOL! It revolves around a 2 year old. Very fun times and times where my patience is tested. No bottle for 5 days. She did real well.
The yard sale this weekend wasn’t very productive. People were not buying.
My job will end sometime this week. I advertised on our local FB site and found my replacement. My Boss was very unappreciative. Oh well, I was just a body. I will miss the extra money but it will be better for my Granddaughter to have me home with her.
Gambling-a few urges but I made it through them. I will try to catch up with others threads this week.

[lizbeth4]

No gambling thoughts or urges! I’ve been so busy with my Granddaughter and work! My Boss hasn’t found a replacement for me. He’s getting panicky. I’ve given him a 3 week notice. Plenty of time! He keeps hinting of me staying longer and I’ve reiterated that I will be handing over all the keys on March 30th.
All ads for the yard sale are in place. My Sister arrives tomorrow with a trucj load of stuff. I’m hoping to make enough to purchase a small table and chairs and a toy box for my Granddaughter.
My youngest Daughter has traveled through 4 states so far and loves it. I’m so happy for her.
Today I was full of gratitude! I have a lot to be grateful for. Both of my Daughters are drug free and living life. I have 2 beautiful Grandchildren. I’m in decent health. I have a nice, comfy home, which I appreciate. I have everything I need.
Gambling isn’t in the picture!

[lizbeth4]

Oh Sunday! My only dsy off of work. 2 mote weeks to go! This last week is the first week in ages that I haven’t thought of gambling! It feels good! I think I really have a shot at staying gamble free!
A lot going on here. Weaning my Granddaughter off of the,bottle and potty training her. My Sister will be here on
Wednesday. We are having a hugh garage sale! I told myself no more garage sales but she talked me into another one. I’ll use my proceeds for some items gor my Granddaughter.
Life isn’t perfect but it’s a lot better without gambling!

[lizbeth4]

Still living my life, one day at a time! It seems to be working for all aspects of my life!, I’ve had a crazy day! A major problem that was thankfully solved with the help of my future Son in law and some minor problems that I dealt with. I dealt with things and didn’t let my anxiety take over. A big accomplishment for me!
My Mother has been a blessing. She comes to my house to watch my Granddaughter. She has helped a lot!
My Boss is really rubbing me thr wrong way! He wants me to try and find someone to take my place and wants me to train them. I’ve put a ad in our local FB. I have 2 more weeks left and I’ve made it clear to him.
Gambling, no thoughts or urges. I’m dedicated to take care of my Granddaughter the best that I can.

[lizbeth4]

One day at a time is how I’m living my life. My Granddaughter is precious and full of energy. She is keeping me on my toes! I think things will be easier when I’m not working and it gets warmer here so we can be outside more. We are getting into a routine.
My youngest Daughter is doing well on her travels. So far, she will be going to 3 different states, 2 of which she hasn’t seen. The video chats are helping my Granddaughter.
Lately, I’ve really had some harsh criticism towards gambling and the industry! It’s sad that people get sucked in and lost in this addiction. All in the name of making money at other’s expense.
One day at a time! Staying gamble free!

[lizbeth4]

Thins are going great! My Daughter is on the road. My Granddaughter is adjusting. She is precious. My above problem was solved yesterday as I’ve made more reasonable payoff solution with the original company. It’s rainy and cold here. Once the weather warms up we will be going to the park and walks via the stroller. Gambling: there has been thoughts. I know what my ttiggers are and how to substain. I think as time goes by, it will become easier to get through the urges. One day at a time!

[lizbeth4]

Had a minute as my Granddaughter is napping! So upset,this afternoon. One of my creditors who wasn’t on my credit consolidation program, had outsourced my account to a collection agency. I’ve been paying on it monthly. Thry called and told me that my March payment had bounced. So they sent my account back to the original creditor.
Funny, they never tried to take it out this month. There was ample money in the account. A mistake. But whatever the computer says in front of them they follow. I was basically called a liar. FRUSTRATING!!
OUT of my hands now! I’ll wait to be contacted by the creditor or a new collection agency! Brother!! Moving on!

[lizbeth4]

My Granddaughter is with me. My Daughter goes on the road tomorrow and with a female mentor! My Daughter recieved 100% on her pretrip and driving skills!!! I’m so proud!
I gave my boss my notice. March 30th will be my last day. He told me if I ever want a job that I have one!!! And what a good job I’ve done. It felt good to hear.
Posting for me will be limited as my Granddaughter is a handful. LOL! I wish everyone the best.

[lizbeth4]

Yes, I definitely need to just focus on the now! I kept busy today and just finished work but my brain kept saying, GAMBLE! MAYBE I CAN WIN AND IT WILL SOLVE SOME MONEY ISSUES THAT I’M FACING! WE KNOW GAMBLING WILL NOT SOLVE ANYTHING! I have to quit my job and it was my buffer allowing me to pay down my debt and allowed for some extras.
Today I was filled with a lot of regrets and feelings of inadequacy about my addiction. But I can’t change the past. I’m going to the best regarding my Granddaughter. I don’t like the feeling of being overwhelmed. I need to find ways to cope better with my feelings. One day at a time.

[lizbeth4]

I’ve had major gambling urges today!!! UGH!! I did yard work, laundry, and I’m getting ready to wash my car. It’s stemming from stress and anxiety and not living in the present. I’m picking up my Granddaughter tomorrow morning. It’s going to be a change, for both of us!
I have to let the worry go! Everything is going to be ok. I just need to give it over to God!

[lizbeth4]

Strong gambling urges today!!!!! Not acting on them but the urges are not subsiding. I went grocery shopping and ran errands. Urges are still strong. If the weather wasn’t so yucky, I would be outside doing yard work!
I had 2 semi emergencies today. One thing I could afford to replace, the other item will have to wait. This is the aftermath of my gambling relapses. I didn’t maintain things and now things are wearing out. I won’t see any relief in my finances till August. Then my car, 3 personal loans and a major credit card will be paid off. Boy, I could sure use that money now!
That’s whats keeping me from gambling. My progress! I’m not going backwards again!

[lizbeth4]

My Daughter is leaving on Monday, her birthday, for her 30 day out of state driving with a mentor. I’m going to get pick up my Granddaughter on Sunday. Going to give my boss my notice next week. Last day will be March 30th.

[lizbeth4]

Yeah! I finally connected with the people selling the bed. It’s adorable! Today I have no motivation. If circumstances were different, I’d probably be gambling today. But I’m not!
Having bouts of anxiety and feelings of being overwhelmed. Working through these feelings. If I can just live in the moment and take each day as they come, I would feel better. I tend to look too far forwards instead. Live for today is my new motto
Going to shower and go to the library and check out a new children’s store in town.
We’re expecting some rain and snow this week going into next week. Not as much as before. So it’s doable! Have a good day everyone!

[lizbeth4]

Maybe the dosage of your medication needs to be lowered. When I was taking antidepressants, the dose was too high and I felt like a zombie. My head was clouded.
Don’t isolate yourself. It’s easy to do and hard to get out of that rut.
It sounds likr yesterday was a better day for you! Keep going!

[lizbeth4]

My Daughter will find out more today about her 1 month on the road training. They sleep in bunks in the back of the rig. It’s paid training but in the interim, I will give her money so she can eat. So, until she leaves I will continue working and putting back some money. I’ve depended on this job for grocery money and misc. expenses so I could put more towards my debt. I need to sit down and shuffle around my budget again. Where there’s a will, theres a way!
My Daughter will pay for my Granddaughter’s expenses once she can get on her feet. It will all work out.
This is the first thing, job wise that my Daughter has followed through with and completed. I think she found her niche.
I can’t even think about gambling. I need to be responsible. Oh, the toddler bed people were a no show again. URRR! So I’m moving forwards.

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