[lizbeth4]

Thanks for your kind words. I live my life with many things that I’ve learned during my journey on GT. One day at a time is the biggest one. Also, I live in the now! I live with meaningful intention. I’ve let go of the past and things that are out of my control. Life is strange. I never thought that I would have another Grandchild but I was blessed with my precious Granddaughter! Who would have thought that she would be living with me? Sometimes it is overwhelming but it is totally worth every minute!
I have been able to experience some firsts with her. Yesterday she had her first haircut. She did well and she was so precious. My favorite thing is when she says, I love you Nana. It always makes my heart melt.
We aren’t guaranteed a tomorrow, so I want to live my days doing what I love and enjoy. I don’t miss gambling at all. I have thoughts sometimes but not strong urges. Life continues to be good!

[lizbeth4]

I’ve had trouble accessing my thread. It’s either my phone or internet issues. Everything is going well. I use my Granddaughter’s nap time to do yard work and finish small projects around the house. My youngest Daughter is trying to make it home for Easter. She is still with her mentor and getting her 200 hours of driving in.
I did think about gambling the last few days. Having my Granddaughter with me is helping me in more ways than I ever thought. She is a joy and brings out the kid in me.
Life is good. No complaints.

[lizbeth4]

Thanks for your post on my thread. Life doesn’t always go the way you think. I never thought that I would be raising a 2 year old but I am. Sometimes it’s very challenging but well worth it. Her Mommy, my youngest Daughter, is working to build a good life for both of them. The visit with my Grandson was good. He is a awesome kid!
I’m glad that you are doing well. It’s great to hear. Hope to see you post more. Take care!

[lizbeth4]

We are home from the city! Time was limited with my Grandson as he had to go to school everyday I was there. I took him to school and picked him up as he usually takes the bus. My Granddaughter was off kilter. I don’t know if it was because of changing environments again but she was very clingy and whiny. She seems more like herself since we’ve been home though.
Now it’s time to get into a schedule and begin potty training. Also, she is starting to throw tantrums. Time outs may be next.
My Mom has volunteered to watch her for a few hours tomorrow so I can do some shopping and maybe get lunch.
This has been challenging but I’m doing It! I don’t have time to think about gambling.

[lizbeth4]

Yes it’s true! My Grandson is 13 years old. Time flies by quickly. My Granddaughter just turned 2 years old. She is our miracle as my youngest Daughter was told she would have no children. My time with them is precious! I’ve never given up being gamble free. I keep fighting!

[lizbeth4]

Life is busy with a 2 year old! Trying to balance everything. I’m thankful that I’m not gambling. My budget is tight but doable. I’m making my monthly payments and hope to see a few of my personal loans (taken out to cover past gambling losses) paid off in the next 3 to 4 months. Lesson learned! My Grandson is a delight. He’s a teen but still very sweet. He loves his Grandmother! I purchased some new clothing and a backpack for him today. He’s always thankful. We are going to his favorite restaurant after baseball practice this evening.  Life is busy but good and fulfilling! I can’t ask for anything more.

[lizbeth4]

Your vacation starts Today? Have a well deserved time! You’ve come such a long way!

[lizbeth4]

Today was my last day at work! The woman replacing me owns a cleaning business. So, the cleaning business I worked for replaced me with a cleaning business! Whatever! Moving on!
I’m packing and getting our stuff ready to leave for the city for 5 days. I will get some time with my Grandson.
My youngest Daughter sent some money today. She has traveled 9 states so far and loves it.
Not working will give me more time with my Granddaughter. She is thriving and doing well.
No gambling thoughts! Feeling much better about life in general.

[lizbeth4]

2 more work days! I’m training my replacement on Saturday. My Boss hasn’t even met her.???? She tried to via a phone call manipulate the time for Saturday’s training. I made it clear what time I would be cleaning and if that wasn’t conducive to her, she needed to call the Boss as he would have to come here and train her. She relented and will meet me at the bank. My Mom is physically tired from watching her Great Granddaughter while I work. I was proud of myself for not relenting and giving in!
My Daughter is doing well and is sending money on Saturday. I’m saving the money for summer clothing, ect…for my Granddaughter.
No gambling thoughts! Going to the park this morning!

[lizbeth4]

Today is my sweet Granddaughter’s 2nd birthday! We had cupcakes and a little party. It didn’t feel right without my Daughter here to celebrate.
Saturday I am training my replacement. Yeah! The house next to me sold and my new neighbors seem very nice. Right around my age.
No gambling thoughts or urges today!

[lizbeth4]

I hope your vacation is wonderful. You deserve it!

[lizbeth4]

4 days or less till my job is done! I’m not sure what is going on with my replacement person. You do have to pass a background check and can have no liens or judgements against you. I sent my Boss the name and phone number of another person who was interested in the job. He had nearly 3 weeks to find someone and was too cheap to place a ad in our local newspaper. Go figure.
If I was actively gambling, I wouldn’t have been able to take my Granddaughter and help my Daughter. I’m so thankful that I am gamble free right now. I’m working on myself and hang ups that made me want to gamble. It isn’t easy but I’m worth it!

[lizbeth4]

I was feeling sort of like a outcast here! Lol! I guess I’m feeling a bit isolated as my main concern is my Granddaughter. I think my Boss is beside himself as the last 6 months he hasn’t had to worry about the cleaning here! Saturday is my last day. Sunday my Granddaughter and I will be spending 5 days with my Grandson while my oldest Daughter and her Boyfriend are on vacation. They have borrowed a high chair, kids table and chair, a play kitchen and extra baby gates for my Granddaughter. Half the battle when we go somewhere is lugging around all of her stuff.
I’m definitely going to find a high school girl to babysit for me occasionally. I can’t remember the last time I went to the movies.
Sometimes things seem overwhelming but I just take a deep breath and look at the big picture for my Daughter and Granddaughter.
I’m not gambling. While the urges still come and go, I have no desire to act on them. Progress for me!

[lizbeth4]

Even though I don’t post, I’ve been reading your thread and other’s here on GT. The little one is napping. 20 months GF is a big accomplishment. Way to go! I hope to be saying that one of these days. It’s easy to become complacent. We all need support and encouragement. You are still one of the people here that I look up to! Have a good day.

[lizbeth4]

I’ve managed to sell a few items left over from the yard sale. Pick up pending today. I get up a little earlier than my Granddaughter for a little me time and to take a shower. LOL!
I’ve put any worries into God’s hands. He has always lead me through hard times. He will be there for me. I pray when I get gambling urges. He lifts the thoughts and helps me think of the consquences. He never gives up on me.
I’m calling my Boss for clarity today. I was supposed to work until March 30th but since I’ve found him a replacement, he is starting her ASAP. She has to clear a background check first. I was supposed to train her but I’m okay if he wants to. His message was vauge.
Living in the present. Doing the best with my Granddaughter who will turn 2 in 3 days. I’m not celebrating her birthday till my Daughter is home. It doesn’t feel right.
I hope everyone has a great gamble free day!!

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