[lizbeth4]

I get up on the wrong side of the bed quite often! I understand. In fact, I woke this morning to my Granddaughter snapping my eyeglasses in half. Grant you, they are old and scratched. But nevertheless, not a way to wake up. I have a old pair I’m using for reading, small print. This will hasten my trip to get new ones. It seems like when I’m grouchy, I encounter all the crazy, rude people out there. You can change your life now and you are by not gambling. You can garden. Google is my friend also. It takes a little work but it’s worth it!

Sometimes I have to push myself to get through the day.  Dealing with 2 year old tantrums, ect…is draining.  But the memories are worth it   

  

[lizbeth4]

It’s a cold, rainy morning. I love the rain. The sound, smell. It seems to cleanse everything. And it waters my plants! LOL!
It’s nice not to have gambling in your head constantly. My head feels much clearer and I’m living in the present. It feels good!
Yesterday, my Granddaughter and I were in the backyard. She noticed the strawberries. She picked many and ate them before I could pick some. She was so happy! The little things.
I had some good news. The town has decided to re open our only public swimming pool this month. Yeah! They have a kiddie pool too. It’s walking distance frtom my house and nestled in a park. My Grandson and I spent a lot of time there and so will my Granddaughter and I.
My Daughter is on the road again. Her visits are too short. It’s all confusing to my Granddaughter but all in all she seems to be adjusting well.
I’m contemplating starting a diet plan. I’ve cleaned the stroller and I’m ready to start walking again. I’ve put on the 6 lbs I’d lost and my eating habits haven’t been healthy although I try to feed my Granddaughter healthy. No more junk food!
I like having goals and learning new things. It keeps me going!

[lizbeth4]

I was so happy to hear that your recovery is going well! I put my all in everything I do! I did the same with gambling unfortunately. I’m trying to perfect my jewerly as I would like to sell it at some point. Working on new ideas. When the weather gets warmer, I’m going to try my hand on making rustic benches/outdoor furniture using wood pallets and used hardware. I like to repurpose things.
We are never too old to learn new things!

[lizbeth4]

I was so happy to hear that your recovery is going well! I put my all in everything I do! I did the same with gambling unfortunately. I’m trying to perfect my jewerly as I would like to sell it at some point. Working on new ideas. When the weather gets warmer, I’m going to try my hand on making rustic benches/outdoor furniture using wood pallets and used hardware. I like to repurpose things.
We are never too old to learn new things!

[lizbeth4]

I’m so lucky and blessed! My front and back yards are beautiful! It’s what sold me on the house. I’ve added a veggie garden and peach tree. I have wild strawberries growing in my backyard. I live across from a small lake and I see plenty of wildlife! I ***** my blessings everyday.
RG, I use Pinterest for a lot of ideas. They have a lot of tutorials you can follow! I get a lot of jewelry making ideas there!
There’s nothing wrong with being a nerd. I was a nerd in school. My Grandson is a nerd! I still read a lot. History was my favorite subject and I still love reading about it. I’ve researched the history of the small town I live in. It’s so interesting!
RG, you never lost it! It’s still there. Life happened. We put ourselves last as mothers, wives. Time to bring it out again.
My Daughter is leaving soon. The visits are short but we are doing the best we can. My Granddaughter has been acting put a little while Mommy was here. She’s confused. I keep giving her reassurance and love.
Thanks RG. Back to you. Have a wonderful week. I hope the visit with your Son was awesome.

[lizbeth4]

I had to bring you back to the top. How are you? Post when you can.

[lizbeth4]

I have 13 roses bushes, ( every color that you can imagine) numerous flowering plants and shrubs, ect… My yard is quite beautiful. I never was a gardener until I purchased this home, 6 years ago. Almost everything was already planted but I have added a few things. It is rewarding to see beautiful things grow.
My Daughter won’t be here till Sunday now. There are rules on how many hours you can drive before you have to take a break. She’s still learning the rules. Anyways, it doesn’t matter as we will be here when she arrives.
I do know who Dave Ramsey is! I’m currently in a debt consolidation program which uses his theory on the debt snowball effect but backwards. I pay the most of my monthly deposit towards my largest credit card balance. When that is repaid, that money is applied to the next highest balance. I have 6 credit cards on the program and I am paying 1 card independently as they wouldn t accept the program. It’s working as my largest card balance will be repaid the end of this year.
I am not purchasing any new furniture or decore for my home for awhile. No money. Sometimes just freshening up the paint or painting a accent wall, can change the whole look of a room and it’s a cheap fix. I like purchasing used items also and refurbishing them. You get more for your money.
.Have a great time with your son, RG!!

[lizbeth4]

I planted my lavender plant that my Sister had bought me! I cut some roses and put them in a vase on my dining room table. Looks beautiful and smells good too! These little things mean so much!
Last week was tough in terms of gambling urges. I wanted to escape from my problems. My Granddaughter saved me from relapsing. I would never leave her with my Mom so I could gamble.
My youngest Daughter is going to be delayed. She won’t be here till late afternoon tommorow and will have 1 day with her baby. It’s hard but we have to look at the big picture, the future for her and her daughter. She loves her job and has to get some experience under her belt so she has more options pertaining to work. It will work out.
I’m just enjoying the weather and the season. I love it when everything is blooming. Life is good!

[lizbeth4]

I think we can change our thinking! Sorry that you are feeling low. Going for ice cream sounds great! I hope you feel better soon! Life is difficult sometimes. But we have the power to rise above it!

[lizbeth4]

I was glad to see your post! I did notice that you haven’t posted for awhile and I was concerned because of your health issues. I’ve had no energy to post on others threads. Poor excuse! I’m happy that you have found things that are working to improve your health.
Beautifying our surroundings is important as we spend a lot of our time there. You are still living life, job, Grandsons birthday party, while enduring health issues. You are a strong woman. I do think of you and all that you’ve endured and that you’ve stayed gamble free. You give me hope!

[lizbeth4]

Plumbing leak is fixed! I only had to pay my service charge. Yeah! I need to have my house replumbed eventually, $3500. I know that things happen to all of us. That’s life! But I will live with the fallout of my destructive gambling addiction for years!! Like many of you. Keeping my head above water, treading to pay off loans and credit cards, most of which are associated with my gambling. Not having money for emergencies! Cringing when something breaks.
If all of these things dont keep me from gambling, I don’t know what will!!! It’s very depressing at times but I lmove forwards everyday that I don’t gamble. The worry and stress sometimes becomes so much. Everyday I dig myself out a little more when I don’t gamble. I’ve aged so much from this addiction. I don’t wish this addiction on anyone. It robs us of a lot. Many things we will never get back.
Today I am counting my blessings!!

[lizbeth4]

Thanks for your support! I have the $75 service fee and I’m hopeful that the home warranty will cover the rest. I have a additional $300, which is money for groceries, ect…for the month. I can get by if needed! I just want the leak located and fixed. I’ve consistently payed my monthly home warranty and it has paid off in the past. Yes, it’s always something! My washer was the first fix this month. Giving in to gambling would have been disastrous. It is never a easy fix!! RG, it’s been very challenging with a 2 year old. Luckily, we have my Mom’s house to shower, do laundry and fill our water jugs. We could have stayed there but I have everything set up at my house for my Granddaughter. It’s also challenging when the people around you are gambling. But it’s made my resolve stronger.  Now, I need to save a emergency fund!

[lizbeth4]

My stomach issues are better! I really believe it’s stress related. Tomorrow morning the plumbers will be here! I’m hoping they can easily find the leak and fix it. I’ve gathered together all the money I have but I’m counting on the home warranty to cover it.
We’ve been living without running water for 1 week now! We took shower, bath, did laundry and refilled our water jugs yesterday. It’s been real challenging with a 2 year old. But hopefully it’s fixed tomorrow.
Honestly, I’ve had gambling thoughts during this time but I haven’t acted upon them. I’m making progress! I’m able to visualize the consequences and the pain associated with it. THE AFTERMATH! I don’t want to feel that again!

[lizbeth4]

I’m glad you found this site and you’ve decided to stop gambling. It isn’t easy but it can be done. You will recover from the debts in time as long as you stop gambling.
Barriers, barriers!!! Closing down your online gambling account was the first wise move.
Keep posting! Things will become better as you put more gamble free time behind you.

[lizbeth4]

Hi everyone! I had a good weekend with my Mom and Sister! The work order was placed this morning and the plumbers will be out on Thursday morning. I’ve had real severe stomach issues and I have a high pain tolerance. I almost went to urgent care last night. The pain has subsided a lot. I think it is stress related.
No gambling thoughts! Especially after hearing how my Mom and Sister lost. Gambling isn’t going to solve any of my problems only make it worse.
I’m staying positive and hoping that the leak is easily found and fixed. I keep my focus on the positives in my life and there are many.

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