[lizbeth4]

I missed a lot of things with my family because of my gambling. That is one thing that still haunts me. My behavior was horrible. I wasn’t present mentally at times because I was fixated on my next gambling event. I know that I can’t make up for past behaviors but I’ve apologized to my love ones and I’m fully present now!!! And that won’t change.
I woke up to rain this morning. I’m having tea and reflecting as I get ready to start my day. I am truly blessed. I have great kids and Grandkids. A few good true friends. I live a comfortable life. I’m healthy!
Gambling nearly destroyed me but I survived and I’m fighting back.

[lizbeth4]

I attribute my heart attack at age 52 partly to my gambling addiction. As I sat in the casinos, day after day being inactive, smoking and not eating properly. Thankfully I survived and stopped smoking that day! I’ve had cancer and have survived also. Now days, I try to eat healthy and I exercise everyday. I haven’t lost or gained any weight in 1 year but losing weight is another goal for myself. Gambling leads to other unhealthy habits.
Today was spent outside with my Granddaughter playing with side walk chalk and riding the tricycle. The little things mean so much.
Getting ready for bed. It’s been a long day.

[lizbeth4]

I’m sorry to hear about your friends passing. You are smart to limit the money that you take with you. BARRIERS, BARRIERS! You can do this!!! I am grateful for you.. You have been really supportive and brought me back when I was really feeling low. Take care and remember that you are worth a gamble free life!

[lizbeth4]

I’m in control of every decision that I make in my life! I used to say that gambling had control over me. It didn’t. I chose to let it control me.
Money isn’t everything! I used to rate having money very high in my life. I don’t anymore.
I put my health and well being before anyone else. I was always low on my list when I was gambling. I can’t be there for anyone else unless I am the best I can be.
My family and friends come next in my life. I was barely there for anyone when I was actively gambling.
Life is short. Enjoy every day!!! Gambling just sucks the life out of you!!!

[lizbeth4]

I’m so happy that you are living the life you deserve! Looking back, you’ve made such great strides in your life! Everyone here should read your thread. It’s inspirational what you have endured and where you are now!
I hope you had a awesome weekend.

[lizbeth4]

Life is good! No gambling thoughts or urges. The fair was fun! I think fall weather is here. Our forecast shows 15 degrees cooler for the next 10 days and rain. I’m so ready for cooler weather.
I made a great lunch yesterday for my Mother. I’ve appreciated the use of her car while my Daughter has mine.
My Granddaughter and I are planning to spend some time outside today. Time to enjoy the weather. Time for walks and the nearby park.
Life is full of possibilities. We only hold ourselves back. I’ve learned a lot of life lessons from my gambling addiction. I’m going to rewrite the rest of my life! It’s so exciting.

[lizbeth4]

Still gamble free! My Daughter went back to the city today. My cardiologist appointment went well and I have another appoint in 1 year. I had a wonderful lunch with my friend. I did a little shopping and bought some more beads and some craft things for my Granddaughter and I to do this winter.
Tomorrow we are going to the ****** fair. The petting zoo and pony rides should be a hit with my Granddaughter!! I’m looking forward to the fair food!!
Life is good! No gambling thoughts or urges lately. Of course, there’s family drama going on between my Mom and Sister. But I’ve decided to stay out of it. I have enough on my plate.

[lizbeth4]

It was a nightmare! Thankfully I didn’t relive it last night. We are almost at the end of our summer and fall will be here soon! I’m hoping for some snow this winter so my Granddaughter can play in it.
I am looking forward to my day trip to the city. I will get my yearly cardiologist appointment over with and I will be able to see my dear friend and visit a few stores as my selection here is limited.
Life is simple and I love my life! Most of the time, I’m in good spirits. No more gambling depression and desperate thoughts. I’m so grateful that I’m not gambling.

[lizbeth4]

I had a GAMBLING nightmare last night! It jolted me from my sleep! My stomach has been doing flip flops for hours. I’m not sure what triggered this but it’s a awful feeling. One that I don’t want to relive for reals.
My life is pretty Good! We are working out my Daughter’s car situation. She will have mine for 2 months. Then she can buy a older used car or a newer car with payments. I’ve used my Mom’s car and that’s doable.
I’m going to the city next week for my yearly cardiologist appointment. Looking forward to seeing a good friend for brunch and going to a bead store and my favorite department store while I’m there.
We are getting our nightly rains here and I can feel fall in the air!! One of my most favorite times of the year!! I hope everyone has a great gamble free weekend.

[lizbeth4]

I’m sorry about your financial situation. But you will get through It! Getting financial advice is a great idea. Your camping trips sound awesome. I’m getting antsy for a adventure!!! Take care.

[lizbeth4]

So, I woke early this morning. I did my daily affirmations and reflected on how grateful I am for everything in my life even the challenges! This helps me stay grounded and is one of the things that helps me stay gamble free!
I watered all of my roses and cleaned off my front patio and driveway. I try to get something accomplished everyday.
My plans for daycare for my Granddaughter have been derailed for awhile. Since I don’t have transportation. It will take a bit for my Daughter to save money for a decent car. But it will happen. In the meantime, I can use my Mother’s car and my neighbor has been so kind to offer the use of his car if I need It!
Next month, I will actually be in the position to start putting money into my savings. I’m beyond thrilled about this!!
Progress after my gambling addiction nightmare. I’m not cured. I put a lot of actions into place to keep me from gambling. I will always have to do this as I don’t want to go back to the gambling, EVER! Life can be good!

[lizbeth4]

I was happy to see all of your posts!! My youngest Daughter just left to go back to the city and work. She spent 3 days here with her Daughter. I had a break and was able to get some sleep. My Daughter’s old car is on its last leg. So, it’s parked in my driveway. She has my car. I can get rides to the store, ect… She’s saving money for another car.
One important lesson I’ve learned through not gambling is that there is always a solution for every problem. Not gambling!! My reasoning skills are not blocked with gambling thoughts or aftermath worries. It’s very freeing and finally after many years, I like myself. I know my WORTH!!!
RG, Jen, I-did-it and Vera, without your support I would have given up on myself. Every low, you all were there for me. Don’t give up. You all deserve everything good! You can do this!!! I am rooting for all of you. You will always have my support and admiration.

[lizbeth4]

Hang in there! I know that temptation is everywhere around us. I still get gambling urges and thoughts but I work through them. Just the thought of the aftermath feelings is keeping the gambling at bay! Envision how your life will look 2, 6, 12 months from now without the gambling!! I know it’s hard but you can do this!

[lizbeth4]

I’m here for you also! Don’t give up!

[lizbeth4]

I am still gamble free! I ***** my blessings everyday.
My youngest Daughter will be here soon. I can use a few days off. Tomorrow my Granddaughter and I are going to a playdate at a local church. I’m excited as she isn’t around any children
She is thriving. Her vocabulary grows everyday. It’s had to believe that she is almost 2 years and 5 months.l Time flies.
I’ve purchased more beautiful beads and I am looking forward to making leather wrap bracelets. Some will be Christmas gifts and I’m hoping to sell some. I had to invest in a bigger organizer to hold my supplies. I just have to find time to work on them. Hopefully next month when she goes to daycare.
I am truly amazed on how much debt I’ve been able to pay off. I was so depressed as I couldnt see the light at the end of the tunnel. But that was when I was gambling. Next year will be a monumental year for me as I will be debt free by the end of 2020!!! Such a amazing feeling!!! Not experiencing the gambling hang over and self loathing is wonderful. Oh, how I hated those feelings.
I hope that everyone finds their way on this journey. If I can do it, anyone can.

[Author]

Posts