[lizbeth4]

Still dealing with waves of gambling urges! They come and go. I am resisting and finding ways to cope without gambling.
nI have 2 1/2 days alone while my Granddaughter is visiting her parents.
nI pulled weeds and cleaned up the back yard today! Wow! I was wiped out afterwards and took a nap.
nLife is good! My Granddaughter is still going to preschool, part time. She’s learning Spanish and Russian. She knows the days of the week. Pretty good for a 3 1/2 year old! It’s good for her to be around other children and for me to have some time to get household things done.
nFall is in the air. My favorite season. We are still seeing Elk almost daily. It never gets old.
nHope everyone is enjoying a gamble free weekend!
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[lizbeth4]

Încă te confrunți cu valuri de impulsuri de jocuri de noroc! Ei vin și pleacă. Rezist și găsesc modalități de a face față fără jocuri de noroc. n Am 2 zile și jumătate singur în timp ce nepoata mea își vizitează părinții. nAm tras buruieni și am curățat curtea din spate astăzi! Wow! Am fost șters după aceea și am făcut un pui de somn. nLife este bun! Nepoata mea merge în continuare la preșcolar, cu jumătate de normă. Învață spaniolă și rusă. Știe zilele săptămânii. Destul de bine pentru un copil de 3 ani și jumătate! Este bine pentru ea să fie în preajma celorlalți copii și pentru mine să am ceva timp să fac lucrurile casnice. nCăderea este în aer. Anotimpul meu preferat. Încă îl vedem pe Elk aproape zilnic. Nu îmbătrânește niciodată. nSper că toată lumea se bucură de un weekend gratuit! n

[lizbeth4]

We watched the elk again this evening! Someone has intervened and I have a sever head cold. My plans for after dropping my Granddaughter off tomorrow is to binge watch on Netflix and rest!
nMy cardiologist appointment is now a phone appointment. I was notified today. Not too happy as my routine EKG won’t be performed. Picking up my Granddaughter afterwards and heading to a local stream to play. All of the labor day people will be gone.

[lizbeth4]

Am privit din nou elanul în această seară! A intervenit cineva și mi-e rău capul. Planurile mele de a-mi lăsa nepoata mâine este să mă uit la Netflix și să mă odihnesc! n Programarea mea la cardiolog este acum o întâlnire telefonică. Am fost sesizat azi. Nu prea fericit, deoarece EKG-ul meu de rutină nu va fi efectuat. Luându-mi nepoata după aceea și îndreptându-mă către un stream local pentru a juca. Toți oamenii din ziua muncii vor dispărea.

[lizbeth4]

So, the week is flying bye, especially with a 3 year old. We sat on the porch for awhile and watched 2 young elk playing in the pond. I want to teach my Granddaughter all about the wildlife and beautiful forest, lakes and rivers surrounding us. At some point she will be living back in the city and away from this magic.
nMy gambling thoughts are surfacing again as my Granddaughter will be with her Mommy for 3 days soon. I’ve been thinking about taking a little detour on the way home and gambling. I never learn. So, I’m thinking of positive things I can do with my 3 days alone. I need to rewire my thoughts. I can do it!!!
nOtherwise everything is Good! I had a mani and pedi yesterday and I’m getting a haircut tomorrow. I’m making sure to not ignore doing things for myself. My Granddaughter and I had dinner last night with a friend. My Granddaughter was very well behaved. I had polished her nails with pink, glittery nail polish and she was delighted to show everyone! So cute!
nTime to go. Bath time for the little one then bedtime.

[lizbeth4]

Deci, săptămâna zboară, mai ales cu un copil de 3 ani. Ne-am așezat o vreme pe verandă și am urmărit 2 elani tineri jucându-se în iaz. Vreau să o învăț pe nepoata mea despre viața sălbatică și pădurea frumoasă, lacurile și râurile care ne înconjoară. La un moment dat, ea va locui înapoi în oraș și departe de această magie. nGândurile mele despre jocuri de noroc apar din nou, deoarece nepoata mea va fi cu mama ei în curând 3 zile. M-am gândit să iau un mic ocol în drumul spre casă și să joc. Nu învăț niciodată. Deci, mă gândesc la lucruri pozitive pe care le pot face doar cu cele 3 zile. Trebuie să-mi reconectez gândurile. O pot face!!! n Altfel totul este Bun! Ieri am avut mani și pedi și mâine mă tund. Mă asigur că nu ignor să fac lucruri pentru mine. Eu și nepoata am luat cina aseară cu un prieten. Nepoata mea s-a comportat foarte bine. Îi lustruisem unghiile cu ojă roz, sclipitoare și a fost încântată să le arate tuturor! Așa drăguț! n Timpul de plecare. Timpul de baie pentru cel mic, apoi ora de culcare.

[lizbeth4]

My Daughter’s dental surgery went well. She is sore and swollen but doing good. My Sister is staying a few extra days to take care of her. If anyone has read my thread, my youngest Daughter has overcome a lot: drug addiction of 16 years. She has been clean for 4 1/2 years. She went to school and became a truck driver, semi, she has a good job, new car and her first apartment. She had to start her life over and she’s experiencing many things that we take for granted. Getting her teeth fixed was another step to move forward. She’s a great Mother. She was told that she would never have children. And we were blessed with my beautiful Granddaughter. My Daughter is my hero. I just look at all that she has accomplished and I’m so proud! If she can accomplish all this, I know that anything is possible.

[lizbeth4]

Operația dentară a fiicei mele a decurs bine. Este dureroasă și umflată, dar face bine. Sora mea stă câteva zile în plus să aibă grijă de ea. Dacă cineva mi-a citit firul, cea mai tânără fiică a mea a depășit multe: dependența de droguri de 16 ani. Ea este curată de 4 ani și jumătate. A mers la școală și a devenit șofer de camion, semi, are o treabă bună, mașină nouă și primul ei apartament. A trebuit să-și înceapă viața și se confruntă cu multe lucruri pe care le luăm de la sine. A-și fixa dinții a fost un alt pas pentru a merge mai departe. Este o mamă grozavă. I s-a spus că nu va avea niciodată copii. Și am fost binecuvântați de frumoasa mea nepoată. Fiica mea este eroul meu. Mă uit la tot ce a realizat ea și sunt atât de mândră! Dacă ea poate realiza toate acestea, știu că orice este posibil.

[lizbeth4]

It’s been a few busy days! My Granddaughter had a perfect dental check up. I was able to spent a few days with my Grandson. Today we resumed our routine, daycare, daily chores, ect….
nMy youngest Daughter has major dental surgery tomorrow. My Sister is going to take her and spend a few days with her. I’m so proud of her for all that she has overcomed this last 4 1/2 years. This surgery will help boost her self confidence.
nI’m doing better with my gambling urges. Working through things. Trying to make the best of everyday.

[lizbeth4]

Au trecut câteva zile pline! Nepoata mea a făcut un control dentar perfect. Am putut petrece câteva zile cu nepotul meu. Astăzi ne-am reluat rutina, îngrijirea zilei, treburile zilnice, etc. Sora mea o va lua și va petrece câteva zile cu ea. Sunt atât de mândră de ea pentru tot ceea ce a depășit ultimii 4 ani și jumătate. Această intervenție chirurgicală îi va spori încrederea în sine. n Mă descurc mai bine cu nevoile mele de jocuri de noroc. Lucrul prin lucruri. Încercând să profită la maximum de cotidian.

[lizbeth4]

I have 3 major goals being met this month, December and March. I will then be debt free! I can’t believe it! Most of the debt was incurred because of gambling and using loans to cover expenses. A hard lesson learned.
nI can save significant amounts of money then! Money isn’t everything but peace of mind and security are good to have. It’s taken awhile but I’m about to achieve one of my goals!

[lizbeth4]

I had 2 days of alone time. I usually am busy catching up on chores, ect…but I took this time to rest and binge watch my shows. I haven’t had any gambling thoughts or urges. My Granddaughter is home now so we will get back into our routine.
nI sold some outdoor furniture today and it made up for some of my gambling loss. It was too oversized for my outside patio area. I’ll replace it with something more suitable later.
nI had time to reflect on my gambling episode and I became complacent and hadn’t been using any of my coping skills. I will implement what has helped me in the past. I’m feeling hopeful again.
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[lizbeth4]

Geez, I don’t know how long that I’ve been gamble free. It’s been awhile! I had the opportunity as I didn’t cover all open avenues. I think subconsciously, I set myself up for failure.
nWell, I’m going to ban from that casino and although there are no GA groups locally, there are 12 step programs that I can use. The premise is the same. I need to be more mindful. I haven’t been practicing self care. I need to meditate, exercise and stop looking at the negatives within me and focus on the positives.
nMy losses have been covered but it has set me back a little from my goals!
nI’m dealing with the gambling hang over feelings today. I’m very angry with myself. I will work through the feelings constructively.
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[lizbeth4]

Congrads on your 3 years gamble free! I blew it today and gambled. I had the opportunity when I took my Granddaughter to the city this morning to visit her Mommy. I set myself up as I was having urges and knew that I would be close to a casino that I’m not banned from. I made sure that I had a mask with me (required). UGH, of course I lost and it wasn’t enjoyable. The damage wasn’t great but nevertheless, any loss is not good. I will recover financially but of course the experience has put me in a bad place mentally.
nI’m not going to say that tomorrow is day one. It’s a blip in my recovery and I’m going to move forward.
nGRRRR! Why did I let this happen? I’m not too happy with myself right now!!

[lizbeth4]

Life is about the same. Gambling urges surface and then dissappeare. It isn’t controlling my life but it’s very irritating.
nMy Granddaughter is fine but we are dealing with her servere allergies. I have to be vigilant about her medicine. My Grandson started high school, via the internet. Oh my, I just can’t be believe it! Time flies!
nMy garden was a bust. It’s been so hot here. But my peach tree was loaded down this year. I’ve given away a lot to the neighborhood.
nLife has been good!

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