[lizbeth4]

I’ve been busy this morning doing my laundry and straightening up the condo.  I will see my Grandson this afternoon for a few hours.  Really looking forward to that.  I slept well last night.  The first time since my Husband’s death, even with sleeping *****. I think I was soo tired from walking around the mall yesterday that I just gonked out. I have had thoughts of gambling the last few days.  Crazy, right??  I am glad that I can’t act on those thoughts (no car), as that is the last thing I should do.  I know I am having these feelings as I want to escape from all the emotions that I am going through right now.  As soon as I have a car, I need to go back to GA, and continue working on my recovery. Otherwise, I am doing okay.  I am working through the greiving process and have joined a on line widow support group.  I have all the household bills paid for the month with some left for groceries.  I am thankful for all I have and thankful for all of my friends and support here at GT!  Have a great day!!Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Thanks cat for your post.  I  was with my Grandson for a few hours till Mom picked him up and I will see him again on Wednesday.  I think he is my saving grace.  He talks openly about how he feel about Papa dying, and how he misses him. No one else seems to relate or is as open as he. It brings me peace.  It has been raining here.  I am going to venture out today and walk to the post office, bank, and mall.  Taking my unbrella just in case. (not raining at the moment) Have a great day everyone!Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

I am soo glad Ruth’s service went well.  A celebration of life, I like that.  You have been such a good friend, I am sure her mother really appreciates you. Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Today is going to be a good day.  My Grandson is coming over after school  I am making dinner of spagetti and meatballs for him and his Dad .  Yesterday, I had some awesome news, my friend is coming for a visit.  I am reallly happy about that.  I have been keeping myself busy around the condo as not having a car can drive you nuts.  I slept pretty well last night.  I think I am dealing with my Husband’s death a little better now.  I miss him alot, but when I get real sad I think about the happy things we did, especially our last vacation, last June with our Grandson.  That always brings a smile!!  Take care everyone.Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

No offense Bettie!!!  You are right!  I keep thinking certain family members will come through for me, especially in my Husband’s death.  Why did I think they would? They were never there for me before. Hopeful thinking on my part.  I realize that they are incapiable of this. I feel like I have to protect my feelings from them, not let them too close to me.  Kathryn, I am going to have to make some big financial decisions.  I am getting my car fixed, trading it in and buying a new one.  Also, I need to pay all of my Husband’s debt, medical bills, credit cards, ect… soo I can file the paperwork on the condo in 6 months to get it into my name.  I am talking to a financial adviser and a trusted friend about this, so I  am getting guidance. I am trying to make sound decisions. Neva, I am going to look into some kind of alarm for the condo.  In 20 years of living here we have never had our place broken into.  I really feel it is the person I think it is and he likes preying on women.  It has been quiet on the homefront the last few days.  I am getting ready to go on a walk to the post office and bank.  Take care everyone and have a good day!!Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Hi Neva, Yes, I was thinking about some kind of alarm for my condo, but it would have to be inexpensive!!!  How exciting twin calves!!!Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Sad, I value what you have to say and I didn’t take it as being preachy!!  I did walk to the mall today but only made it to the grocery store.  I did get some exercise, which is what I needed.  I was talking to my Mom this afternoon and started crying about my Husband again, I miss him! I received mail today telling me that his employer had received the benefits package that I mailed on Monday and that they converted our health insurance into my name only and that they were expediting his monthly pension check for me.  That was good news!!! This is hard being without him.  I am getting through everday with support from people here and the hospice support groups I attend, and friends, and family.  I know it will get better with time. Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Thanks Vera and Sad for the posts!!  Sad, I am talking about the same family members who have let me down time after time.  I don’t know why I thought they would be different now.  It is what it is!!!!  Today, I’m walking to the mall and looking around, need to get out!!  The weather is beautiful here!!!  Take care everyone.Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Thanks for the posts and support.  I am soo lucky to have friends here who care.  I have had alot of support from my Mom as we talk on the phone daily, otherwise my family has not been very supportive.  It doesn’t suprise me, but it hurts.  Some family members were disappointed when they didn’t receive anything of my Husband’s.  It’s not like we are rich and have alot.  My Husband was a simple man, never interested in material things.  I feel like this is inappropriate behavior on their part.  I have friends who have been more supportive and caring than family members.  I am lucky to have them!!! I feel like I am mentally stronger.  I didn’t want to make any large purchases with the money that I am getting from my Husband’s benefits, as I wanted to take my time deciding what to do with it.  It looks like I am going to need a different vehicle, as mine ****, I don’t think it is worth fixing as it is going to cost alot.  Alot to think about!!!!  I live close to stores, banks, ect… soo I can walk till I can get a different car.  Friends have offered rides also. So, I am hanging in there, trying to do the best I can. Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Yes Bettie, thankfully I wasn’t home at the time. In the 20 years we have lived here, we have never had this happen.  There are only 34 units here.  We have only one owner, who lives right next to me that has caused any issues.  The police were called the night before my break-in due to her Brother whom lives with her.  I think this was retaliation.  He thinks I called the police. Since no one saw anything, nothing could be done.  The police told him to leave me alone and that they would kindly be back if they were called. Everyone that lives here is aware of what’s going on and it has been real quite next door. Anyways, my front window is being replaced today.  The insurance is taking care of the things that were ******.  I am in a better place mentally today to deal with it.  My councelor from hospice said alot of people exerience things going bad or wrong when they are greiving.  I feel like I have had my share, and I’m ready to move on from it.  Today was a little better!!Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Hanging in there!!  Dealing with alot!!  My condo was broken into! Car is still messing up, waiting for money to fix it! It seems like everything wrong is happening right now.  I did accomplish alot the last few days, I picked up my Husband’s ashes, a very hard thing to do, and I finished all the paperwork for his benefits and everything was faxed and mailed off.  It feels like alot of burden was lifted off my shoulders.  Surviving and keeping the faith!!Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Hi Bettie, sorry that your pay was screwed up.  I know I have alot of support here and I appreciate it immensely.  I am just having a bad day.  You will get what you worked for.  You deserve it!!  Take care!!Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BETTIE!Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Sorry that you are having trouble with the insurance company.  Hang in there.  Hope your arm starts feeling better soon.  Take care!Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Thanks everyone for your kind posts. Today my family helped me get alot of things done around the house.  I am feeling numb and haven’t been able to sleep since my Husband passed.  I am tired now and think that I can finally sleep. My Grandson hasn’t been told as he has been sick with a cold.  Tomorrow, his parents, along with the social worker from hospice are telling him.  Carole, tell Danny thanks for thinking of me. I walked around this evening feeling like I was lost.  Almost 29 years together.  I am startng a new chapter of my life.  I have no regrets, and I was glad to be with him at the end.  Going to bed. Thanks again everyone!Seize all the good things in life

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