[lizbeth4]

Thanks Cat for your post!  I am keeping busy and get counseling to help me deal with my Husband’s death.  I think that when I am alone, I start reliving my Husband’s illness and the day he ****, over and over.  Sometimes, I can feel him everywhere.  I need to do something when I feel depressed so I will not gamble.  I am going to my Mom’s this weekend.  We are going to spread my Step-fathers’, sister in law, and my Husband’s ashes.  I have found a beautiful place, which is kind of isolated and the view of the mountains (tipped in snow) during the winter is awesome.  I think it is the perfect place.  It is going to be hard as I already have butterflies in my stomach thinking of it.  When I was at the casino, I kept thinking of my Husband, sitting at the bar having a beer and watching some sports game.  That is what he liked to do. I just want to find some peace within myself.  I think that it will take time.  I am trying to find my way. Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

I went to the casino last night.  I didn’t do too much damage, but I feel so ashamed of myself.  I came home with a headache and feeling like crud!!   I sat here letting myself get depressed and instead of doing something constructive, I went and gambled.  I didn’t get any pleasure from it only a sleepless night and beating myself up.  I did get a lot accomplished here today, cleaned condo, getting ready to purchase my new living room furniture.  My Grandson is spending the night and that is joyful. I have to forgive myself as I can’t get into that rut again with the gambling, that would be a disaster.  Have to move on!!Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

I think I am being tested!!  I went out this morning to take the car (not the new one) to get emission tested.  The battery was dead.  I have triple A, so I gave them a call and they came out and replaced the battery.  Another thing that my Husband would have taken care of.  Now, I need to drive it some more as the battery going dead wiped out the driving cycles on the new engine.  So, after I drive it some more, then it’s going to the shop again to be put on the meter so I know if I will pass emissions.  This car has been a stinker!!  But I will win!!  Not sleeping well again, keep thinking of my Hubby and replaying a lot things that we did together over the years.  Makes me sad that he is not here!!Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Hi Bettie, I am so sorry to hear of your friend’s passing.  Cancer sucks!!  Hope you start feeling better and that things get cleaned up where you work.  Take care of yourself!!Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Hi Bettie, It’s hard enough to go back to work after being off, but that is a nightmare.  Hang in there, it will get better.  Take care. Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Hi Kathryn, Happy Mother’s Day!!  Thanks for all of your support.Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Hi P!  Thanks for your post.  Keep strong P, fight the urges.  Happy Mother’s Day!!   Take care.Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Happy Mother’s Day Cat!!!  Have a great time with your Grandsons!!  Keep fighting the urges. Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Hey Sweet P, thanks for your post.  I was a little sad today as it is the first Mother’s Day without my Hubby.  My ex-son-in-law is coming in a few hours to take me to dinner.  Sometimes family (blood) isn’t who your family ends up being.  All I can say is that since my Husband became sick and his death, it has been friends mostly and a 2 family members who have been there for me. Others have seized the opportunity to not be in my life due to thinking they were entitled to monetary gain from my Husband death. Sad but true!  Blood isn’t always thicker than water!!  I feel like my friends are my family and I am grateful to have them in my life.  Carole, the investor who is bidding on the next door neighbor’s condo was here yesterday, asking questions about the community and talking to a owner here.  He is going to have fun evicting them as he will have to go through the courts to do it.  But if he has bought other places I am sure he has ran into this before.  Yes, you be careful concerning Rob.  I think you handled the situation the right way. Hope everyone is having a great day!!Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Happy Mother’s Day everyone!!!  Carole, what a ordeal with Rob.  You did the right thing in calling the police, as this ordeal would have just dragged on and on.  Watch yourself, you never know what is going through someone’s mind or what they are capable of.  Look what happened to me with the rocks through my window.  It still is going on as when we were on our road trip, my Sunday newspaper was taken and one of our friend’s here had left a package of baseballs for my Grandson on the patio table and they were taken also.  Never had any problems before and I think it is retaliation for me calling the police on the neightbor’s brother.  Anyways, her condo was foreclosed on and is going to auction tomorrow.  A investor was here yesterday looking at the community and asking questions about  how much rent he could get per month.  I don’t wish bad on anyone, but they are bad news and are creating a lot of problems here much like your bad renter.  I haven’t been very productive today, but that’s okay as it is Mother’s Day!!  Have a good day everyone!!Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Carole, have fun with your Granddaughter’s at the fair.  It’s good that you are getting rid of the bad renter as he seems to not have any respect for you or your house.  He sounds like a lot of trouble.  I enjoyed my mani/pedi.  It was wonderful and relaxing. My eyebrows look real good (threading).  It was much better spending money on myself and feeling relaxed and de-stressed than spending money at the casino.  Tomorrow I am going to a Mother’s day luncheon with a friend.  Have a great Mother’s Day everyone!!Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Feeling better.  It took a long time for the headache to go away.  I am treating myself to a mani/pedi (spa) tomorrow, I have never had one.  Looking forward to it.  Carol, Jodi is one messed up person.  I think she is trying to use reverse thinking on the jury, as she would have no one to pay any attention to her if she was on death row.  Your bad renter is something else.  Why are people married when they sleep with other people. I have never understood that.  I am headed for bed.  I am really tired tonight.  Take care everyone.Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Congrads on your gamble free time Cat.  Glad that you will be seeing your Grandsons soon.  You deserve a little holiday.  Take care.Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Hi Carole,  I posted on my thread to you before I saw your new thread.  I am okay, just having a bad day, keep thinking of Hubby.  Tomorrow will be better.  Sorry to hear that your Granddaughter had to hear of her classmate’s step fathers suicide.  The child probably needed to share and talk to someone.  OMG, Your renter and his stripper friend need to leave.  You have your hands full.  Take care.Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

I am feeling better.  Grandson’s baseball team won tonight!  I had a hard day, kept thinking of my Hubby.  Tomorrow will be better.  I really haven’t been doing constructive things since you left.  I need to get with it tomorrow as I am leaving for my Mom’s  next Wednesday and then off to California for a few days.  Wish I could come help you weed!!!Seize all the good things in life

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