[lizbeth4]

Hi Carole, I sent you a message on facebook but thought I would check in with you here also. My Grandson had his cast off while I was in California. He has been practicing with his baseball team (the same kids from last season). His first game is this coming Tuesday. My trip to California was good for the most part. It was good to see my Aunt and Uncle who are in their 90’s and in ailing health. My Mom’s last sibling. I think it was important for her to spend time with her sister. I had a few light bulb moments. My Mom had a extreme meltdown with me and tried to slap me in the face. I still have no clue what was wrong with her. I stopped her and put her in her place. She has done this with other family members too, and it’s not because she is getting old and losing her mind. I realized a lot of her traits my sister and I possess. Not the physical abuse issue, thank God! I am working on myself as I think we always have things to work on. I don’t want to be like her. I am moving in the area where she lives next year with my oldest Daughter and Grandson. I have told her if she continues to behave the way she does and thinks that nothing is wrong with it that I will have to limit my contact with her. It is embarrassing to talk about this but I think it is important to say that blood family isn’t always who our real family is. Anyways, sorry for ranting. Hope you have fun with your granddaughters. Take care of yourself.

[lizbeth4]

Thanks RG and Cat for your posts! I am thankful to have such supportive friends. We just finished having breakfast and my Grandson and I are going to the sporting goods store to get some new baseball pants. He has practice this evening. He is so happy his cast is off and he can do everything again. Thanks RG for your comment on giving myself credit. I don’t do that enough, I think I am the hardest on myself and expect a lot. But I have come a long way since my Husband’s death and I have made a lot of positive steps along the way. Moving and starting a new life is just another step. I am excited about purchasing a new home and moving to a small town. There will be less traffic, better air to breathe, and I love hiking and fishing and exploring new places. I think it is a positive change. Cat, it is warm in the summers there but nothing like Phoenix. I will have to get used to the snow, they get a little not tons of it. Maybe, I will learn to snow ski. Who knows? I will be closer to my Mothers as I will be her caregiver when the time comes, if I can physically handle it. So, all in all, I think that I am doing okay. I will miss the condo, but it was something my Husband purchased and I can take the memories of my Husband with me. Have a good weekend everyone!!

[lizbeth4]

Oh, I have another cold. I think I am just getting run down. I need to take better care of myself. I have a appointment on Monday with the lawyer. He had to hire a skip tracer to find my step-daughter as the last address I had was not good and the letter he sent was returned undeliverable. I have decided that when the condo is in her and my name that I will have a appraisal done and then she can buy me out or we will sell it and split the proceeds. My oldest Daughter, Grandson, and I are moving to northern Arizona, about 1 hour from where my Mother lives. My Daughter has bought 40 acres and wants to build a house and I will buy a house there. The population is only 15,000 and we think it will be a good change for us. She is opening her own business there and has already found a retail shop to rent. I am hoping to be able to stay here till after Christmas. My Daughter isn’t going to move till next May when my Grandson’s school is over. I can buy a house and get settled before they move. It will be a change for us but I think a good one. My Husband’s 58th birthday would have been October 14th. Both of my Daughters, Grandson, and I are going to San Diego for 2 days as it was his favorite place. He wanted me to take him there before he died so he could sit on the beach but that wasn’t possible. We are going to spread his ashes there. I am ready to do it and I think he would like it. My youngest Daughter has helped me go through the whole condo and I have downsized, it will be easier when I move. I haven’t had any thoughts of gambling.

[lizbeth4]

Hi Cat! I am home from my trip. I am tired as I drove straight though to my Mom’s house yesterday, 13 hours. It was a good visit with my Aunt and Uncle. They are both so frail. We had a big dinner with my Cousins, whom I don’t get to see very often. Glad to be home. There’s no place like home!

[lizbeth4]

Bettie, I too noticed that my posts are out of order! I am feeling much better, that flu knocked me down for over 3 weeks. My Daughter and Grandson and I went out for dinner tonight and spent some time together. Thursday I leave with my Mom for California as her only sibling, her Sister who is 91 years old is not doing well. Her Parkinson’s has gotten worse and she is very weak. We will be gone almost a week and although I know it is going to be a sad time for my Mom, she will be able to spend some quality time with her Sister. She didn’t want to go at first, but I asked her to think about it as I didn’t want her to have any regrets when her Sister dies. I will be able to see some cousins whom I haven’t seen in years. I think it will be a good journey. I am doing well emotionally and my youngest Daughter and I are almost done sorting things out at the condo. I have one last ****** to tackle and I am done. I haven’t heard a reply from my step daughter yet. I am going to contact the lawyer when I return from my trip and discuss what we should do next. I haven’t had any gambling urges lately! Trying to stay busy! Take care everyone.

[lizbeth4]

I am glad to see that the new site is up and running! I have been gamble free. Although I have had a few urges. After over 3 weeks with the flu, I am almost at 100 percent. It really knocked me down. I am leaving on Thursday to take my Mom to see her 91 year old sister again. Her Parkinson’s is getting worse and I fear that this might be the last time we see her. So, on the road again to California. I haven’t heard anything from my lawyer concerning the condo and my step-daughter. She hasn’t responded yet to the letter sent to her 10 days ago. It has cooled down a little here and swimming season is coming to a end. That’s all for now. I need to do some cleaning and laundry before I leave on my trip. Take care everyone.

[lizbeth4]

Carole, I am not suicidal or having issues with the grieving process. I don’t know where that came from but it was kind of hurtful for me.  I am physically ill right now. I almost went to the ER 2 *****.  I think I am getting a little better as I am able to eat a little and I am drinking fluids.  In the states we are asked not to go the ER for the flu unless we have an immune system disease or we are having chest pains or are infants or elderly.  Resting and trying to get better.  Have a great weekend everyone!! Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Hi Carole!  I am glad that you are taking care of your foot.  Thanks for your caring post.  I am feeling a bit better today!!  Both of my Daughters have come by to see how I was and if they could do anything for me.  That made me feel better.  Take care!Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Thanks P and Carole for your posts.  Both my Daughters have been by checking on me.  I have the flu, I finally ate something today.  (hadn’t eaten anything for 3 days) I haven’t been this sick in a long time and it sucks!! Thanks for saying that I am brave and have done well with my Husbands illness and death.  Sometimes I feel like I am just going through the motions.  This is a hard journey I never wish on anyone.  I still have some hard decisions to make concerning where I live.  I know that everything will be alright.  Sometimes change is good and I don’t know if I can move on emotionally or mentally living here.  I will make the decisions when I know it is right for me!!  I miss my Grandson as it has been 6 days since I have seen him.  We talked on the phone and he knows Grandma is sick.  I am going to rest some more so I can get better soon! Thanks for caring.Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Thanks Carole, I have been resting today.  My Daughter came by to check on me.  I feel like her and I are making progress in our relationship.  You are right, I have been under a lot of stress, but it is getting better.  As soon as this condo issue is resolved and I decide whether I want to move or stay here, I think the stress will be a lot less.  You know that you made the right decision with your life. Just keep doing what you are doing!!  Take care.Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

I had a great 1st day with my Mom then I started getting sick.  I think it’s a bad cold.  I came home this morning so I could sleep in my own bed.  It rained 2 hours straight on my way back home today, still raining here.  I think my immune system might be low as I have been having trouble sleeping again.  I guess I need to start taking the sleeping ***** my Doctor prescribed to me till I can sleep on my own again. Otherwise not much going on here.  I am just hanging out in my pjs  taking it easy!!Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Hi Cat.  Thank you for your supportive and positive posts.  I am going to try the 30 min rule of de-cluttering.  It might work for me.  I am getting help from my Daughters, so when I am through they continue.  They have become much more supportive and have been here for me.  We are getting through each day and are getting stronger.  You never know what’s going to happen in your life.  So, I try to enjoy each day with the people I care about and love and I try to be the best person I can be.  Life is too short!  Take care of yourself.  I am soo happy for you being gamble free.  It is hard but worth the results!Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Cat thanks for your supportive post.  I am getting help from my Daughters in my de-cluttering efforts.  I like the 30 min rule, I might try that too!  I am not as overwhelmed by things as I first was after my Husband’s death.  I am not sure what I want to do once the condo issue is finished.  My Husband bought this property.  It is nice, but not what I would of choose.  Maybe it is time to move on and find my own place.  A lot of thoughts are racing through my head concerning moving.  I am going to take things slow.  I will figure out what is the right thing for me.  It is raining here.  I am leaving soon for my Mom’s.  Have a great gamble free weekend everyone.Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

Carole,  You didn’t hurt my feelings.  One of the reasons I chose to spend a lot of time with my Grandson is because he will be my only Grandchild.  We have a deep bond. (remember that my Husband and I raised him the first 2 years of his life) If I don’t want to watch him or have other things planned his parents adjust their schedules to take care of him, like when I came to visit you.  Especially with losing his Papa, he has grown closer to me.  He calls me if we haven’t seen each other for 2 days, checking to see how I am.  I think is worried about losing me also.  I enjoy every minute I am with him! Seize all the good things in life

[lizbeth4]

I have been busy today cleaning, ect… I have had a headache all day long!  Getting ready to leave in the morning for my Mom’s.  It will be about 20 degrees cooler there and some relief from the heat.  Have a good weekend everyone!!Seize all the good things in life

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