[lizbeth4]

Hi P! I value your honesty and talking about your depression not only helps you but others here as well. I have had short bouts of depression and that was hard. I have never been on meds but I have gone to counseling many times to work through the problems causing my depression. A lot of people are afraid of what other’s will think but depression is a very common issue. P, my Mother suffers from deep depression but will not talk to anyone about it or god forbid take medication to help her. She has become a bitter, mean person. She always told me that seeing someone such as a counselor was a sign of weakness. We know better as I think it takes a strong person, like yourself to seek help. My Mother has no friendships either. She lives a sad life. My Grandson is still getting counseling for the death of his Papa and the breakup of his Mom’s and Dad’s marriage. I feel it is healthy. I believe that most of us have lived behind a mask at one time in our lives. I have when I gambled and when I had marriage troubles. I feel like now I am living a real life!! I am not a overly social person but lately I have been putting myself out there more and I am trying to make new friends and join new activities. I am sorry that you are getting sick. My Grandson has been sick and I woke this morning not feeling well. I have taken some medicine and I am planning on resting the rest of the day. So, take care of yourself. I am happy that you got through the urges. One day at a time, P!!!

[lizbeth4]

It’s a beautiful morning here. Everyone had a good nights sleep and my Grandson woke feeling much better. He ate a little breakfast and wanted to go to school. My Daughter was apologetic about asking me to come here early. I told her that it was alright as I could spend more time with her and my Grandson and that I would do some things to help her out around the apartment while she was at work. My Grandson is so wise for his age. He told his Mom and I that he was so happy that we are getting along better and that we enjoy being together now. He said that we really have worked on it. He said that it made him feel happy too!!! How smart is that!!! It touched my heart! My youngest Daughter’s birthday is soon so tomorrow we are going out for lunch!!! Then later tomorrow my oldest Daughter and I are doing some window shopping as my shopping is limited where I live. Well, I am going to finish up some laundry. I hope that everyone has a happy, gamble free day. Take care.

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Reds, thank you for your post!! I am always happy to hear how you are doing!!! I received a frantic call from my Daughter this afternoon. My Grandson was vomiting through the night and didn’t go to school today. My Daughter worked from home but needs to go to work tomorrow for a client meeting. She sounded exhausted. So, I am in the city and we washed all of her bedding, ect… Everyone is resting now and everything is good. I officially closed on the condo today. The title company was waiting for some paperwork and finally received it. My proceeds were wired into my savings account. Awesome!!! I have planned and paid for the spa getaway in April. I haven’t had any gambling thoughts today. I am keeping busy. I brought all my empty boxes to my Daughter’s today for her move the end of July!!! Nothing else going on. I hope everyone had a great gamble free day.

[lizbeth4]

Hi Carole, I am glad that you attended your precious Granddaughter’s events!! It sounds like you were busy!! I love watching my Grandson play baseball or do his karate!! These little guys grow up so fast!! There is nothing like the love for a Grandchild. That is what life is all about!!! I hope your knee starts feeling better. I am doing better at the gym and I am not as sore as I was in the beginning. It is going to take me awhile to get into shape. Well, if all 3 cats were sleeping with you then some progress has been made with them getting along. Maybe they are just getting used to each other. I am still going to get a dog but not for awhile as I want to do a little traveling and I don’t want to kennel my dog. I have cleared my house of everything I shouldn’t be eating as I have a habit of getting up during the night and snacking!!! LOL!!! Well, take care of your knee!!!

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I went to the gym this morning and the treadmill and bike are getting easier for me, so I sped up the treadmill and raised the incline. I can still feel my muscles working. I am going to start working out in the weight room soon. I need to tone up!!! I had lunch with my Mom. I am in for the night and plan to have leftover meatloaf and asparagus for dinner. My Grandson got car sick on the way home yesterday, (a first). He told me that his stomach gets a little upset when he rides in a car for awhile. I was worried that he was coming down with something but my Daughter said that he was feeling fine this morning and went to school. I know there are medicines for older children and adults to take for motion sickness but I need to find something for him as I plan for us to take a few road trips this year. Maybe I can find a natural remedy. So, if anyone knows of something we could use please tell me. Nothing else going on here. Hopefully there will be something good on TV or maybe I can read. I have been having gambling thoughts the last few days. Why? I don’t know! I have tons of things to keep me busy here, so that is what I am focusing on. Gambling would be a disaster for me as I now have enough money to do some traveling and I want to explore places that I haven’t seen. There is so much of the United States that I have never seen. I am taking it one day at a time!!!!

[lizbeth4]

Hi P, I hope you are feeling better today. Did something happen to trigger these feelings?? Take care P! I am thinking of you.

[lizbeth4]

I can’t believe that it is March either!!! I will be celebrating St. Patrick’s Day!!!! I will strife to make it a gamble free month!!!!!

[lizbeth4]

Hi Bettie! Thanks for your post. I was surprised that my condo sold so fast. I knew it would sell as it is in a desired area of the city, but not that fast! It is like I am closing another door and moving on with my life. I am glad to hear that you are managing your pump and it will take time to get used to it. I have work with several people who have pumps so I kind of know all that is involved with them. I am sure that it gets scary at times. Having heart issues, I have learned when I need to back off from certain activities, like when I am exercising and my heart rate goes crazy. I am on medications for life, something else that I had to come to terms with. But it is worth it as I have a fairly normal life. I am glad that you stood up for your health with your employer. I don’t think you should feel uncomfortable about that and if the next time you need to take the next step and involve a Employee Advocate, you should. We only have one life to live and honestly almost everywhere I have worked, they will keep working you unless you stand up for yourself. You have a serious health condition and that comes firs. I am glad that you were able to buy lunch for everyone. My bank branch is closing as they said they were closing in all the small towns. Another bank is merging and will be here instead. I asked about where I could take out money and not be charged a fee as they have no other ATMS here. I am getting a packet from them soon and I can transfer to this new bank or stay with the old one. So, I am thinking that I will be able to use the ATM at the new bank without a fee. We will see what is said in the packet. Always something!!! Hope you were able to get some rest. Take care.

[lizbeth4]

Bettie, thanks for the post. It rain most of yesterday and it still looks like rain. It was nice, just a steady rain. I know my trees and plants are loving it!! I am leaving for the city to take my Grandson home a little earlier than planned. His Dad called yesterday and a co worker gave him 2 tickets to Nascar for today. My Grandson is excited to go and his Dad’s friend also has a son so he will have someone to hang out with. Dinner last night was good and my Mom came over and ate and we talked. She and I will never be on the same page, but that’s the way it is and it isn’t going to change. I am going to have a busy month as my Daughter and her best friend are going to be training for 1 week, north of where I live for their mountain climbing trip to Peru this summer. I will come to the city and take care of my Grandson for that week as he has school, baseball, karate, ect… The next week will be spring break for him and towards the end of that week we are going to explore Sante Fe. In April, I have invited my Daughter for a weekend at a spa. My Grandson will stay at his Dad’s. It will be nice and relaxing, adult time. I am looking forward to it!! Well, got to go and make some breakfast for the little one as he should be getting up soon. Have a awesome day everyone!!

[lizbeth4]

Hi Kathryn, I have been thinking of you. How are you? How is your Mother? When you have time, please post!!!

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I awoke this morning to the sound of rain. Yeah!! My trees and plants and the surrounding forest is getting water. We really need it!!! My sweet Grandson is still sleeping!! He was going to try to stay up all night, so we were camping out in the living room. Somewhere along the way, I fell asleep for 1 hour. When I woke up he was in my room in bed asleep. LOL!!! Nothing really going on today. I am going to hang out with my Grandson and I am having my Mother over for dinner (meatloaf) . We might make a trip to Walmart for a few things and maybe pick up a new video game to play. I hope that everyone has a good gamble free day!!

[lizbeth4]

Hi Carole, I just wanted to say hi! I have been thinking of you today. I know good things come to good people and I know that you will find a job that you like and that your life will calm down. Take care!

[lizbeth4]

Hi Reds! I am glad that life is treating you well and that you are not gambling. I am exercising now and eating healthy and it does make a difference in my mental state. I am learning to meditate also. My Daughter is a huge fan of it and is using it to reflect and de-stress. Oh, I am glad to hear that the home renovations are coming along. I am glad to hear that you have a new job lined up as that can be a great stressor. You sound very positive!!!! Take care and enjoy life!

[lizbeth4]

Hi Cat! I don’t think you see it but I find all your posts on my thread very positive. You always have something positive to say and I take your advice to heart. You have been inspirational to me!! I look at myself and say, oh, I wish I was thinner, I had less wrinkles, ect… But I am learning to accept who I am and I am trying to improve myself for me!!!! Remember, no one looks like you or me, we are all unique and beautiful!!! I know you are a beautiful person, you just need to realize that. I hope retirement is awesome for you!!! Find things that Cat wants to do!!!! Take care, friend.

[lizbeth4]

Hi Peacegirl, (I like that name), You should just focus on today. Take it one day at a time. I have experienced gambling slips on my journey but I came back here to GT and moved forward. I agree with Harry, once I was 100% honest with the people in my life, I felt like the biggest burden was taken off of me and it was so freeing!! I remember the anxiety. Oh, that was horrible. I would have anxiety when I gambled and when I was planning to gamble. It was a vicious cycle!!! The first time I came here was after a huge binge and I cried all the way home from the casino. I was physically sick and so disgusted with myself. I couldn’t go on living like this, with the low’s and high’s. I knew life had to be better. I just needed help with finding how to go about living without gambling. Stay here and listen to all of the advice and support. Sometimes you will not like what you hear as it hits close to home but remember that the advice is coming from a good place and that everyone here wants to help and support you. Stay positive!!! Take care!

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