[lizbeth4]

P, I am happy to hear that you are fighting the urges. I know it is annoying but much better than gambling!!!! I am very proud of you. Keep fighting!! You have come a long way!!! Take care.

[lizbeth4]

I am home!! I stopped to see my Mother when I got into town. She acted like she was genuinely glad to see me. We are going to work out tomorrow morning. Let’s see how that goes as I haven’t worked out for a week. I am going to make a trip to Home Depot this weekend as I need to get stuff to feed my rose bushes and fruit tree, plus get some other things for my minor house repairs. I will have everything at hand next week while my Grandson is here as I plan on working on my yard. I also need to do some grocery shopping. It is good to be home if only for a few days. I had a ton of mail to go through and some bills to pay. There are houses for sale all over my neighborhood. When I was looking there were only 5 houses for sale. Now there has to be 15. I wonder what is going on?? I know it is hard to make a living here and almost impossible to have your own business and survive. Anyways, I wouldn’t trade my home as it suits me just fine. Well, it’s been a long day. I hope everyone had a great day!

[lizbeth4]

Hi Carole, I am glad that you able to get through the gambling urges! I think it is easier to go back to old habits instead of coping and dealing with our issues or problems. Your Granddaughter knows you love her and are only concerned for her. Have fun with your Granddaughters this weekend. Take care.

[lizbeth4]

Thanks Cat for your post! I went to my Grandson’s field day at his school this morning! It was fun watching all the kids having fun!! I am off to my place later this afternoon as I have to wait for the nurse to come and take my blood (1:30pm). It is a inconvenience but very important. I know having the life insurance my Husband left me helped me so much financially and took that pressure off of me. I want my 2 Daughters and Grandson to have some financial security when I am gone. I am home till Sunday and then back in the city in the late afternoon to spend the night. My Daughter and Grandson are going camping this weekend. My Grandson and I will take off for my place, Monday as it will be his spring break next week. I need to prepare some stuff for our trip to Santa Fe the following Friday. My morning didn’t start off so well. My Grandson was misbehaving and not listening and my Daughter blew it off and didn’t address it. I wasn’t too happy as it should of been address. He listen to me the whole time she was gone and Grandma doesn’t play like that. My Daughter apologized for being argumentative with me via a text. She needs to parent him the way she feels fit but he will listen to me when he is with me. Anyways, that is over and I am ready to go home. Got to go as I need to pack all my stuff up!!! Have a great gamble free day everyone!!

[lizbeth4]

Well, my Grandson’s baseball team won last night!! I went to breakfast with a dear friend this morning. She is 80 years old and just the nicest person you would ever want to meet. My Daughter will be back around 730pm tonight. I have some down time as my Grandson goes to karate camp after school today. I think we will pick up some dinner on the way home after camp. I am going home around 2pm tomorrow after the nurse gets blood, ect. for the life insurance quote. I will return on Sunday to get my Grandson as next week is his spring break and towards the end of the week our road trip. I am tired today as I didn’t sleep well last night. Umm, maybe a small nap!!! Take care everyone and have a gamble free day.

[lizbeth4]

Hi Carole!! You and Danny both are under a lot of stress!!! You are in my thoughts today and I am sending positive vibs))) to you!! You can only do what you can do!!! Take care.

[lizbeth4]

Well, today is just flying by! My Grandson didn’t want to go to school. I think he wanted to stay home with Nana. I made him go but it was hard looking at that beautiful face with a pout on it!!! I had my car cleaned and did a little grocery shopping. Tonight there is a baseball game! So, I have his baseball uniform and equipment ready to go. He is really into this and it is his 3rd season of playing. He has a regular mitt and a catcher’s mitt. He loves to play the catcher’s position but they rotate everyone so they play all positions. He has his own bat and batting helmet also!!!! I am going home Thursday afternoon after the nurse (life insurance) comes out to take blood and urine from me. I will be home for 4 days and then come back to get my Grandson since next week is his spring break. A week from this Friday, we will be on our road trip to Santa Fe!! I am looking forward to it!! I send a plant to my Aunt (whose Husband recently passed). My Mother and Sister wanted to be included on the card and purchase. His funeral isn’t until the 28th as his youngest Daughter is out of the country till then. My cousin (his Daughter) lives with my Aunt and helps take care of her. My Cousin is visiting me in June for 10 days. She told me today that her Mom has been just lying in bed since her Husband’s death. I don’t think she will be around long as they spent the last 61 years together. It is sad but they have both lived long lives and how many people can say that they have been married for 61 years?? I haven’t had any gambling thoughts today. Yeah!!! Well, I better go and get some things accomplished around here before I pick my Grandson up from school. Have a awesome, gamble-free day everyone!!!

[lizbeth4]

Hi Carole, I am so proud of you for not gambling! To me, it seem like Danny is trying to make you happy by buying a boat or motorhome instead of getting to the heart of the problem. Instead of criticizing you, he should look within and deal with his own issues. I am only telling you what I feel as you are my friend and I care for you. You have made giant bounds in making yourself healthy and whole. I am glad that you asked him to leave as he was spreading his negativity on you. I had urges to gamble today while my Grandson was in school. In the city, I am surrounded by casinos. I don’t know where the urges came from. I am keeping myself busy, cleaning!! No gambling!! Take care of yourself. Stay strong.

[lizbeth4]

Yesterday my Daughter left for her trip. She will be back late Wednesday evening. My Grandson and I went to a amusement park and played. He rode rides and we played a lot in the arcade. 6 hours later we left and went to his favorite burger place and had dinner. Needless to say, he was out once he had a bath. He has karate camp after school today, so I won’t pick him up till 5:30pm. I have been keeping myself busy cleaning the stove, fridge, and pantry. Now, I am doing some laundry and the dishwasher is going. I am surrounded by casinos in the city. I did have a fleeting thought of going for a few hours while he was in school. How crazy is that??? I don’t know where that came from?? So, I decided to keep myself busy and help my Daughter out!! It is strange that the thoughts and urges to gamble can just come out of the blue and entice you. I won’t go there today!!!

[lizbeth4]

Thanks Carole and P for your posts. My 91 year old Aunt is my Mother’s Sister. That is her last living sibling. I asked her if she wanted to fly out for the funeral so she could be with her Sister and she told me no. Carole, it took me over 5 years to get my Mother to go see her Sister last year. She will never go again. I can’t get her to take any little trips with me as I have asked her repeatedly. Last year we went on 2 trips, one to see her Sister and I took her on a 3 day spa trip. She has no interest in going anywhere. Yes, they are the last of their generation. My Mother is the youngest and there is 15 years between her sister and herself. I have tons of 1st cousins whom are all older than myself. My Sister and I are the youngest. It is sad to see them all go. P, I treated myself to a mani/pedi today and some new hiking boots. My Daughter leaves tomorrow morning for 4 days, so my Grandson and I will be on our own. It is hard staying here for any length of time as her apartment is so small, so I needed to get out for awhile today. She does have a back patio and the weather is great here, so I sit outside and read. It is manageable and I love being with them. I have plans this week to have lunch with a friend while my Grandson is in school. We have some catching up to do. Well, nothing else is going on. We are going to grill some chicken and steaks this evening. My Grandson had his baseball pictures taken this morning. I can’t wait to see them. Take care everyone. I am so amazed that I am not thinking about gambling. There have been some stressful and tense times for me lately and I haven’t fell back on bad habits. My coping skills are getting better. There are still a lot of things in my life that I need to work on and I am committed on doing that. Have a great day everyone!

[lizbeth4]

Thanks Carole for your post. It is just sad to see all my Aunts and Uncles passing away. I have only the 1 Aunt left and she is 91 years old. Her Husband is the one who passed and I don’t think it will be long till she follows him. This was both of their 2nd marriages and they were married for 61 years. She told my Mom and I last summer that she wanted them to die together. That whole generation of our family is almost gone. At some time my Mother will be the only one left. I hope I get to live a long life as my Grandmother lived to the age 96 and she was with it till 4 years before she died. But as we know, life goes on. My Uncle lived a long and happy life!!!! I am so happy that I saw both of them last year. It was meant to be.

[lizbeth4]

I just found out that my Uncle passed away. This is the Aunt and Uncle that my Mom and I visited last year. He lived a long life, 90 years. I think that I will pick my Grandson up from school and take him to the park and play and feed the ducks.

[lizbeth4]

Hi Carole, Thanks for your post! I am sorry to hear that you have been in a emotional funk. There is a lot going on and some hard decisions to make. I would hate to see you go back to the country into the same place as you haven’t had time to grow on your own and there hasn’t been any resolution. I am thinking of you today!! I am still learning to put up boundaries with my Mother and sometimes with my Daughter when I see our relationship sliding back into the old mess it was. It is hard being a people pleaser but I am working hard on doing what is in my best interest. Carole, we have to look out for ourselves and in the end, I think that happiness is the number one thing for me. I hope you can get the job you interviewed for and can stay in the city. I want you to be happy!! Talk soon.

[lizbeth4]

Snuggling with my Grandson this morning!!

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Being with my Daughter and Grandson!
Feeling at peace!

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