[lizbeth4]

Happy Easter everyone! I am spending precious time with my Grandson. Him and I are having breakfast and watching cartoons. Lol! My daughter and I took a long walk yesterday and I told her and we had a very emotional talk. It was good. I realized that I have to accept certain things and that we are going to have different views also but that it is alright. I still have to have boundaries with her. It was a freeing moment for me! She was alone with my Grandson this last week as his dad was out of town and did well. My grandson has lost some weight also. They have been going to the park and playing baseball every evening. She told e she didn’t realize how much she had been depending on me and that it was time that she took care of her child. So there has been progress made. Cat, I have my 2 turtles in my backyard. The previous owner left a ceramic turtle here . So I have 3 now. We are grilling steaks and salmon this afternoon. We had pizza last night and my Mom came over. My daughter notice her strange behavior also. I need to keep a eye her. It may just be old age. Well, have a good day everyone.

[lizbeth4]

It has been a gloomy, windy day here. It sprinkled for a few mins. but I am hoping for more rain as it is really dry here and the surrounding forest is thirsty. I went to the grocery store this morning for Easter dinner ingredients. Tomorrow afternoon I will see my Grandson. He called me last night and we talked and played a online game together. It will be good to see him. I got a response from my Sister. She text me saying thank you for the compacts and that she plans on coming here to see Mom the end part of next month. She suggested that we get together for lunch. I text her back that it would be good to see her and lunch sounded great. Well it’s a start!! I just can’t let my expectations get too high as I will probably be disappointed. I just have to let it be what it will be! Nothing else going on here. Wishing everyone a Happy Easter!!!

[lizbeth4]

Waking to find my first rose Bush blooming. Beautiful red miniature roses. There has to be about 50 buds.

[lizbeth4]

Today I finally finished cleaning my house. I woke this morning to my first roses blooming (red). I have never lived here when everything is blooming. I have been told by the neighbors that I have pink, red, and white roses, purple and white irises and orange trumpet vines. I have a shrub in my front yard that is getting to bloom and the flowers will be yellow. I ordered bulbs from my Grandson (school) which I am going to plant in my window flower boxes. They are a multitude of colors. So my front and back yard looks beautiful. I still have a lot of work to do. I want a paved patio area and a fire pit and raised garden beds. It will just take some time. It feels good seeing the results of your effort and work and it keeps me out of trouble and my mind clear. I have my Grandsons Easter basket finished and I am anticipating spending Easter with him. We are grilling so I am keeping it simple and easy. I hope everyone has a awesome Easter!

[lizbeth4]

Hi Carole! Thanks for your post. I need to keep up my boundaries with my family and I intend to. I am trying to make friends here and join groups. It is hard for me but I am taking baby steps!! Good for your Granddaughter in breaking up with the doctor. She deserves more from a relationship. She is a very smart young woman. I think that anything that helps detour gambling for us is useful!!! There is no shame there. I am trying to get motivated also to clean the place and do some laundry. LOL!!! I hope you have a great day today!!!!

[lizbeth4]

Thanks Carole! You are so right. I don’t have high expectations from my Sister. It is what it is. It may just be a superficial relationship. I am working on my relationships with my both of my Daughters. They are the most important to me except for my Grandson. I can see us being able to work together to have healthy relationships. My Mom called this morning saying that she wasn’t going to the gym today as she was feeling depressed. Wow! That is the first time I have heard her admit that she gets depressed. I asked her if there was anything that I could do to help. She said no, she needed to work on it herself. This is big as she never discusses emotions. I will let her be today! I am home after the gym and my goal today is to clean my place and do some watering this evening. I am going to try out my new soaker hoses and timers!!! I am going to continue to have boundaries with the toxic people in my life. I am going to keep putting myself out there with new people and activities. One day at a time!!

[lizbeth4]

Hi Carole, Thanks for your recent post on my thread. It is nice to hear from someone I respect that I am doing alright in my grieving process. It’s been a tough year but I made it through it. We never know where our path is going to take us. I am glad to hear that Danny is being kinder to you. Maybe he learned something from you and him being apart while you were in the city. I hope so!! Your place is so awesome in the country and I know you will be alright and you will be closer to your Daughter and grandkids. I might get a cat. I love animals but I don’t know if it is time for me to get one as I feel like I’m not quite ready yet! Well, take care!!!

[lizbeth4]

Thanks Carole or your post! I don’t know how to judge my grieving process? I know that everyone is different. Thank you for saying I have done well dealing with my Husband’s death. I think that I am hard on myself and expect a lot. It is nice to hear someone say that I am doing alright. When I think of my Husband, the sadness is lessening and I think of the happier times. I still do miss him a lot. Some days are worse than others. I know it will get better. Well, I worked out this morning and then dug 2 holes and planted shrubs for my Mother. Honestly, she is really declining physically and mentally. I know that it is part of the aging process but I am a little worried with her mental state. She is really having a hard time expressing herself verbally and acts disoriented sometimes. There is a reason why I moved here. Maybe it is to be close by her so I can keep a eye on her. I came home and put together my garden tool organizer. I had a moment today. I had bid on EBAY (first time) and won a vintage jewelry lot. There were 2 compacts (face powder) in the lot. My Sister has a collection of these. I mailed them to her today with a note, saying that I would like to see her sometime when she is here visiting Mom. We haven’t talked in over 1 year, since she disrespected me 2 days after the death of my Husband. I have been thinking of her a lot lately and I decided to reach out to her. So, we will see what happens. I am realistic and I know that she may just blow me off. Our relationship obviously needs a lot of work. But I am willing to go there is she is. I meet this lady at the bank today. We have seen each other several other places in town. She introduced herself and we talked. She gave me her cell number. We kind of hit it off. I know if I would put myself out there more with volunteering, group outings and clubs, I would meet interesting people. I am working on it!!!!

[lizbeth4]

Working out this morning. Making plans for my backyard.

[lizbeth4]

Hi Carole. I am glad that you are not gambling and that you have made it harder to gamble. That’s awesome that your lease was amended. Where you live in the country is very beautiful and peaceful. I know your plans did not work out the way you wanted but at least you tried. Everything happens for a reason. I totally believe in that. Sometimes it just takes awhile to figure out the whys! Maybe some of the stressors will be taken off of you in moving back to the country. Have fun with Darlene. Take care!

[lizbeth4]

Thanks for the post I can. A lot of the time my weekends are not so exciting. I worked out this morning. I treadmilled for 30 mins and 15 mins on the bike. I added two weight machines to my regime. I am getting there slowly but surely. I made a trip to home depot to pick up a few things for the yard. I have a lot of my plans in my head for the backyard. I will get it done little by little. My grandson called last night. He can’t wait to see me this weekend and color Easter eggs. I told him that we would have a awesome Easter egg hunt too! The hardest part of letting go and not traveling back and forth to the city is not seeing my Grandson. But in the long run, it is the best thing. It won’t be long before my trip! Yeah!!! I have not had any gambling urges.

[lizbeth4]

Hi Carole, I am glad that everything is fine and that you are not gambling. Take care!

[lizbeth4]

I hope everyone is having a great weekend! I was unable to work in the yard today as it has been extremely windy here. I have been slacking when it comes to housework. I cleaned and re-organized the master bathroom, my closet, and I have been going through paperwork and shredding and filing papers in the filing cabinet. I am almost done but needed a break. My Mom called and asked me what I was doing. Before I could respond she told me all that she did today in detail. My Sister was supposed to come and stay with her this weekend but she didn’t show so my Mom called her and she said something came up and she wasn’t coming. I just told my Mom that I was busy today doing things around the house. She told me she was just calling to see what I was doing and that she didn’t want anything. Anyways, it was a fast conversation and I continued on with my work. I am doing all my bed linens, ect… Not a very exciting weekend but I am not gambling and staying out of trouble!!!

[lizbeth4]

I am up early this morning. I have had the best 2 nights sleep since my husband’s death. I feel like he is telling me enough already, let go and relax and rest. Take care of yourself! Being home and not running back and forth to the city is helping also. I feel relaxed and I am accomplishing a lot around here. I feed and watered my rose bushes yesterday. I have plans to work in my yard this weekend. It is very therapeutic for me. I hope everyone has a great weekend.

[lizbeth4]

Hi Carole!! I just want to say hi and see how you are doing? Please post soon and tell us how you are. I am thinking of you!

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