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Today has flown by. We made a trip to Walmart. My Daughter and her friend spent 9 hours in the airport to be told that their flight had been canceled. They are flying out tomorrow instead.. 9 months in the making and they are supposed to meet the tour group tomorrow in Peru. Hopefully it will all work out. I made my Grandson his favortie meal of spaghetti and meatballs. I am in the process of faxing paperwork back to the mortgage company. They are trying to get everything in order so it goes through the underwrited successfully. So, I am sure that it will be a back and forth game for awhile. I am hopeful that it will all be ironed out by the time my Daughter returns from her trip and we can start house hunting. In the long run it is worth it as my Grandson will have stability and will be able to grow up in this house and not have to move around, rentals. The public pool (our only one) is closed today, Sundays, and Mondays. Very strange schedule. We are going swimming tomorrow. This evening we are going on a walk. I told my Grandson that every evening we are going to exercise by taking a walk. He is up for it!!! I am still not at 100% with this cold. I still have some congestion and I am coughing a little. Tonight I will try to get some rest. Take care everyone.

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Thanks Jack for your post. I brought all the paperwork to my meeting this afternoon and tomorrow I will have the pre qualifying paper and all the details such as the interest rate, etc My daughter’s apartment was nothing but chaos. She wasn’t done packing. I picked up my Grandson from karate camp and he spent some time with his Mommy before we came back to my house. Well , she is on her way to Peru and we are at my house making plans on what we are going to do for almost 3 weeks. We are coming up with all kinds of things. Time for bed so I can recharge myself for tomorrow.

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Well, I finally have time to post and catch up reading posts also. My cousin was here from the city for 3 days. It was good to see her and spend some time with her. She has a friend who has in a house in southern California, right by the ocean. I am invited for a few days the later part of August. Tomorrow I pick up my Grandson as my Daughter will be going to Peru. I am also meeting with my mortgage broker to finish the pre qualifing papers. I have decided to buy a home in the city. My Daughter (Grandson) will be leasing it from me. I had been thinking of buying something for a investment and now that she has to move it is the time. It’s exciting!!!! So I spent most of the morning getting the paperwork together that he requested and copying everything for our meeting tomorrow. My house is clean and ready for my time with my Grandson. We are going on a few day trips, swimming, and playing games together. I have all of his favorite foods also. LOL!!! I haven’t had any urges lately. I am keeping busy and I am happy. I couldn’t ask for more.

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Hi Bettie, I am glad that kitty is home and doing well. It is outrageous what vets charge, but what are you supposed to do?. I can’t imagine my daughter’s moving to another state. I know that must be hard on you. Don’t forget to take care of yourself. Do something special for yourself. Take care.

[lizbeth4]

Hi Jack, You will be experiencing a lot of different emotions on the path of recovery. Irritability is a big one. GT is a great place to express your feelings. Keep on doing what you are doing!!! For myself, just admitting that I was a compulsive gambler was very hard. But you have already taken that first step. It has taken me awhile to figure out my triggers. It was easier for me to get control of my emotions once I was able to identify my triggers and work though the urges to gamble. Only my family and close friends know that I have a gambling problem. We never know from just looking at someone what is really going on in their live. We just see the outter layer of the person. Finding things to keep yourself occupied with when you are feeling urges has been very helpful to me. I find that if I can get through 15 mins of the urges, they subside and finally dissapte. It’s good to see you posting!

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Thanks Vera for your post. It is always good hearing from you. Mine and my Mother’s relationship is so complicated. I am trying to work through it and sort it out and let things go as I don’t want any regrets when she is gone. I always feel like she has a motive for everything she does. I guess I don’t feel like she is genuine. So, it is hard for me to ask her for anything. I always felt like I was bothering her even when I was a child and depended on her. As for my Daughter’s and Grandson, they are the loves of my life. I would do almost anything for them. I receive so much love and joy from them. I am in contact with my youngest Daughter and even though her situation makes my heart hurt, I know her recovery is in her hands. One day at a time!! I felt well enough to go down to my Mother’s for about 2 hours to visit. My cousin is on her way here to stay with my Mom for 2 days. My Mother said they were going to the casino and asked if I wanted to come. See Vera, this is another reason that there is no trust there. She keeps throwing gambling in my face. Who does that?? Especially when she knows that I have a problem. I told her no! I am home now and I am going to do a little cleaning. I am picking up my Grandson on Thursday and I am planning a few day trips for us. I know that I can only change myself. I tolerate a lot of my Mother’s actions as she is my only living parent and I guess I am from the old school in that I believe that you should respect your parents. It doesn’t mean that I can’t disagree and I am getting better at distancing myself when she is out of control and hurtful. It is complicated!!! I am doing what is the best for me. I think that is a big step within itself!!

[lizbeth4]

Hi Cat, I was thinking of you today and decided to post on your thread. You will know when it is the right time to retire. It is scary, but it is the start of a new life. When I retired early it was because I didn’t want to work for the company I had been with for 28 years. There were so many changes happening and I was just tired of it. With my Husband’s encouragement I retired but I was scared at first. It was the best thing for me as I was able to spend more time with my Grandson and around the home. I know you will love retirement when you choose the right time to do it. I hope you are having a awesome weekend. Take care.

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Hi Carole, Looking back on when I was gambling, loneliness was a big trigger for me. But gambling only made me feel more lonely. I remember going to the same casino and seeing the same faces, not ever knowing their names. We would say hi to each other and ask how it was going, if you had hit any jackpots lately. I remember sometimes looking at people and no one looked happy. I wondered what other people’s stories were. How many were blowing their bill money or taking money off of their credit cards. All I know now is that I am so over all of that. Carole, find something that interests you. It does help to spend time with the Grandkids and find your inner child again. I am the happiest when I am with my Grandson. He makes me look at things differently. I think you are doing a great job in identifying your triggers and working on them. Keep up the good work!

[lizbeth4]

Hi Jack, Keep posting and reading other’s posts. It has always helped me!! There are so many inspirational people here and alot of good advice. We are all together in this addiction. One day at a time.

[lizbeth4]

Kathryn, I was wondering how your Mother is doing??

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Congrats on your 5 years gamble free. That is a big accomplishment. I feel like a better job will come your way soon. Good for you in standing up to your soon to be ex boss. That must have been such a unhealthy environment to work in. Now you are going to find a new job, exciting!! Take care and have a great weekend.

[lizbeth4]

I finally went and bought some food today. Even though my Mother offered to go to the store for me, I didn’t want to get her sick so I did with what I had. I have lost 7 pounds in the last week. Not a healthy way to do it!!! I don’t get it, my Mother called every morning at 7am to see if I was feeling better and woke me up. I felt like screaming!!! She probably wants to go to the casino!!! Really!!! Anyways I am on the mend and I haven’t had any gambling urges lately!!! Have a good weekend everyone.

[lizbeth4]

I have been sick with a real bad cold. Only today did I start feeling better and decided to post. I am getting better and I need to do some grocery shopping as my Grandson will be with be for 3 weeks as my Daughter will be in Peru. She was told recently by the man who sub-leases his apartment to her that he needs the apartment back in September. When she gets back from Peru we will be packing and I am helping her look for a house. Always something going on!!! My youngest Daughter has text me several times saying that she was okay. Nothing else going on.

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Thanks Carole for your post. I appreciate your support and thoughts. My daughter has to want to get clean and she needs to do it for herself. She isn’t ready yet. But I am hopeful that she will be one day. I pray for her. The testing went well today for my Grandson. He knew all the answers but one He was quite impressive as he introduced himself to the woman administrating the test and shook her hand. Very grown up for a 8 year old. The last of the testing will be tomorrow. I have a appointment for a physical Wednesday and then I am going home I thought I was having allergy problems but it is a cold I am taking medicine and resting now as my daughter is home from work. Hopefully I will be better tomorrow.

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Thanks Cat for your post! I am sad about my Daughter but I am not giving up hope. Here in the states, or where I live, it is costly to go into a good residental treatment center. I have told my Daughter that we would figure it out and that I would help pay for treatment. She was in treatment once when she was a minor (17 years old) and was covered by my insurance. She did outpatient treatment also and was clean for about 6 months. The main problem for her is in cutting all ties to her so called friends, (users). Anyways, I am still hopeful that she will want help again. Well I’m off to take my Grandson to take his school testing. Have a great day Cat and thanks for your support.

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