[lizbeth4]

Awesome post ican! I would have never believed that (something) GAMBLING would get a hold of me!!! It is such a strong addiction and so hard to break. We must always be aware of where it will take us. I try not to become complacent as I know how easy it is to fall prey to it. Keep thinking those thoughts, especially when you are having urges. One day at a time!

[lizbeth4]

Thanks P for the post. Going to work out tomorrow morning as I couldn’t this morning. I had my nails done and went and had my flu shot. I went by the new Doctor’s office and picked up the papers I needed to fill out. I will take them back tomorrow. I had to call another landscaper out as the other one is busy and won’t be able to get to me for awhile. He is supposed to come and give me a quote this afternoon. That’s what happens when you live in a small town. A lot of businesses don’t make it too long and the choices of businesses are smaller. The yard work isn’t going anywhere but I would like to have it done before I leave for the city next Wednesday. Otherwise everything here is fine!! I am enjoying the beautiful weather. I think that winter is coming as I had to wear a sweater all day and last night I had to wear warmer pj’s. I haven’t heard from my youngest Daughter for a few days as her boyfriend just got released from jail. She is very codependent on men and doesn’t go very long without one. I will try to call her today. Take care everyone.

[lizbeth4]

Hi Cat! Thank you for your post on my thread. Please keep praying for my Daughter. Wow, 2 years gamble free!!! Congrads!! Take care!!

[lizbeth4]

Cat it was wonderful to see your post on my thread!!! Thank you for your prayers concerning my youngest Daughter. Even though I know what I should be doing, it is hard as a Mother to cut her off. I am taking it one day at a time. I pray daily for her to find her way. She is always in my heart. I made a big decision today to lose 25 pounds. I have gained that since my Husband’s death and I know that I would feel better losing it. I worked out for 40 mins today, 30 mins on the treadmill at a good clip and 10 mins on the bicycle. I threw out all the junk food!! I am determined to follow through with this. I had to find a new Doctor here as my Doctor that I have had in the city for 20 years is no longer taking my insurance. It was time for me to find a Doctor her anyways. I am going to go by her office and pick up a new patient packet and fill it out and return it. Tomorrow I am going to get my flu shot and get my nails done. I think that fall has hit here as the weather as changed and you can feel it in the air. I called a landscaping service but had to leave a message, waiting for them to return my call. My trees need trimming and the yard is a mess with weeds and leaves. I haven’t been home enough to keep up on it and now it is out of control. Doing some laundry and household things and then I am going to catch up on some reading. I have 2 books going on in my Kindle. I am finally winding down and relaxing. It is nice to be home!! Take care everyone.

[lizbeth4]

Thanks Bettie and Sad for your posts! I have read all of Melody Beattie’s books. Some of them over and over again. I know logically what I should do but my emotions are telling me elsewise. I have enabled my Daughter! Little steps! I will take it step by step and stop enabling her and put up some more boundaries with her. I need to do this for her as well as for myself. It starts to affect your sleeeping, health, ect… My oldest Daughter called last night as the storm in the city was nasty. The patio roof is leaking again on the new home and there were several shingles blown off the roof. My friend had a tree uprooted in her front yard. My Daughter is going to get someone out there to repair the roof as we don’t want to report it to our insurance as the fix will probably be less than the deductable. I am watching one of my favorite movies, Aliens, the first one. Still in my pjs!!!

[lizbeth4]

Ican, thanks for your post on my thread. Please keep posting, if just to tell us how your day is going and what you are doing. Posting here has help me get through a lot, not just my gambling issues. I guess that is why I keep posting as I feel like we all are a family and I like to keep in touch with all. Hang in there. One day at a time!

[lizbeth4]

Thanks for the posts vera and ican! I know that I need to set boundaries with my youngest Daughter and I need to stop enabling her. As a Mother, it just tears at your heart but I feel like I have hit a brick wall with her and that now when she calls I think, what now?? She is becoming more manipulative and I am catching her in lies. I am working on this but it is hard!! The offer of rehab is always on the table for her but she just refuses to go! It will only happen when she is ready. I need to refuse to be drawn into her drama. I made it home and had lunch with my Mother. I am home now in my pj’s as I am tired. We were plummeted with rain and strong winds. My oldest Daughter called and 3 shingles came off the patio roof. My ex son in law said he would take a look at it after the rains stop. Always something but now that my head is on straight, I know that there is always a solution.

[lizbeth4]

I’m going home tomorrow. It will be nice to be home for awhile. It is bittersweet as I am getting comfortable here and I have enjoyed being with my Grandson and Daughter. We had a big hug fest tonight and they told me how much they loved and appreciated me and how much they love their new house. I will be back in 10 days to watch my Grandson as my Daughter will be going to Seattle. My Realtor came by this afternoon and brought me the most awesome wind chime. I hung it on my Daughter’s back patio and it looks great!! I am going to pamper myself next week with a medi/pedi and haircut. It will be good to be home for 10 days. Maybe I will get a few things done around my home, yard work, ect…

[lizbeth4]

Thanks C for your post. I am hanging out with my Grandson today and tomorrow as it was a short week at school for him. I am going home Saturday for 10 days and will be back as my Daughter is going to Seattle for 4 days. Yesterday was quite the day! My youngest Daughter text me saying that she and a friend were stuck about 3 hours from the city. They ran out of gas. I wired some money to her and she called me later to say that she made it home. I had a little breakdown later as it is so hard to deal with her antics. I am tired of it! I only hear from her if she needs something. I attribute the way she behaves to her drug addiction but that doesn’t make it any easier to deal with. I need to reevaluate how I am dealing with this and make some changes and set up some boundaries. It is always the same thing with her, just another day, week, month and year. It is so mentally draining. Maybe I need to go and talk to a professional about this and find other ways to deal with her as I am not doing well in what I am doing now.

[lizbeth4]

Today has been busy and it’s only half way over! LOL!!! I took my Grandson to get his cast off. He is wearing a brace now for 2 weeks. No sports, ect… My Daughter is working out of town for the day but will be back late tonight. My Grandson and I are going to go for pizza and games after I pick him up from karate camp. I thought of gambling today but got the thoughts out of my head fast. I don’t want to go back to that!!! I made reservations to go to San Diego the later part of next month with my Cousin. We are going to stay on the beach in a cottage. Sounds great!!! I need to get away and relax. Just doing some things around my Daughter’s home till I pick up my Grandson. I hope everyone is having a great gamble free day!!

[lizbeth4]

Well, I didn’t do much today. I had dinner with my Mom. She was in one of her depressive moods so I didn’t stay long. It’s sad that she doesn’t seek professional help. This has been going on most of her life according to older family members and my remembrance of my childhood. She continues to live this way and probably will till she dies. It is real painful to watch and hard to be around. I talked to my Sister today and she is leaving at the end of the week to travel to California to be there for the birth of her 5th Grandchild. She has no contact with any of her Grandchildren. Her 2 Sons have fathered their children from 5 different women. None of them live in our state. I have missed out on being a Great-Aunt. Hopefully it will be different with this baby (girl) as my Nephew is married to her and my Sister has a relationship with the baby’s Mother. Keeping my fingers crossed!! I feel blessed that I have a close relationship with my Grandson!! It’s rather embarrassing to reveal some of my family things as it really shows how dysfunctional we are. I am working on my issues and that is all I can do. I am leaving to go back to the city tomorrow. Going to help with more unpacking and my Daughter has a metal shed being delivered on Tuesday. Also, my Grandson gets his cast off on Tuesday. A lot going on!! I did get some rest.

[lizbeth4]

My Grandson is going to spend the weekend with his Dad!! I came home this morning. I had lunch with my Mom and spent a few hours with her. I am going to relax this weekend as I am going back to the city on Monday and staying most of the week. It was good to get home. I am just real tired!!!

[lizbeth4]

Hi Carole, I don’t understand why Danny wouldn’t deposit the money?? I agree with P, don’t discount your gamble free days, start over. You need to have support!! Take care friend.

[lizbeth4]

Hi Carole, I don’t understand why Danny wouldn’t deposit the money?? I agree with P, don’t discount your gamble free days, start over. You need to have support!! Take care friend.

[lizbeth4]

Hi Bettie, I believe that everything happens for a reason. The lady who talked to you about forgiveness was there for a reason at that time! The landlord is receiving what he gives out to others. I truly believe in karma. He wanted another favor from you and he doesn’t deserve it! He griped about Jen and now he is having issues with renters. We reap what we sow! I know that you were at work but I would have had to bite my tongue not to say, I don’t want to hear your problems! You handled it well!! Take care.

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