[lizbeth4]

My daughter is feeling much better. I think she was smart in getting the antibiotics when she first started feeling sick. She still has a bad cough. I am watching my Grandson and taking care of the household stuff so she can rest when she gets home from work. She can’t afford to miss work. I told her that I was going home Friday evening when she came home from work. The early meeting she had on Wednesday has been moved to a later time and the business I have to attend to can be dealt with via a phone call. I will have to come back for the appliance company when they come back to fix the dryer. If they would only give us more of a advanced notice, my Daughter could maybe work from home that day. But it doesn’t work that way. I have remained sick free. I think the extra vitamins have helped. Have a great day everyone.

[lizbeth4]

Hi Carole. I am glad that you made a appointment with your Doctor and are seeking help. I am watching my ex son in law battle severe depression and he refuses to get help. My grandson is suffering also because his Dad is unavailable. I totally think that you are doing the healthy thing by getting help. Sometimes we can’t deal with our problems by ourselves especially when we have experienced trama. Take care. I am thinking of you.

[lizbeth4]

Hi kpat. Hopefully the teenager drama won’t be as bad as you are anticipating. I hate car issues. At least you have the money for the deductible. Take care. I get bored too if it is too quiet.

[lizbeth4]

Vera, There is a Grandmother on the dad’s side but she lives in another state. I know I am not the co parent. My Grandson’ s dad is in a terrible state. I told my Daughter that my goal was to be home for the weekend as I need to be in the city in the middle of next week to take care of some business. I feel bad that my daughter has no one to help her here but I do want to spend some time at home. Vera, I do agree that sometimes the boundaries are crossed. I will have to say something if I feel like I am being taken advantage of. I am just hoping that I don’t end up sick as I have been around sickies for the last few weeks.

[lizbeth4]

So, I am in the city again. I wasn’t even home for 1 day. My oldest Daughter was in the emergency room this morning with a high fever, cold and bronchitis. She is home now with prescription cough medicine and antibiotics. My Grandson’s father hasn’t been much help lately as he is battling severe depression and hasn’t gotten any help. He basically works and sleeps. The situation is so sad as it affects my Grandson. He doesn’t spend much time with his dad. My daughter has tried to talk to him about his depression and she even reached out to his mother when she was here at Christmas. No one can seem to get through to him. So my Daughter calls me her co parent. I pray that he gets some help.

[lizbeth4]

Thanks Sad for your post! I take it one day at a time. I do go through rough patches where I have really strong urges and many days where I have no urges. This addiction is so scary and can creep upon us so easily. I am still dealing and working through my issues which I think contribute to my gambling addiction. It is a ongoing process. I will never be cured. I will always be a CG. It is up to me how I am going to handle the urges. I have too much to lose and I have come way too far to backslide. I am still going to check out GA meetings while I am in the city as they are offered all over the city. I do miss going to them. I reread a self help book yesterday and it seems like I get something new from them every time I read them. I like it that you told me what you were feeling about my situation because it makes me think about it also. I have received a lot of helpful advice here and honestly, I won’t be where I am at now in my recovery with out everyone’s support and advice. I am home now and extremely tired. I just RSVP a invitation from my Realtor for a client appreciation party. I am bringing my Mom as my guest. There will be food and a live band. It sounds like fun.

[lizbeth4]

Thanks sad for your support and concern. I wouldn’t have the card if I thought that I would use it for gambling. I got it to increase my credit score as somewhere down the road I might want another car or another home. I am paying higher interest rates due to my credit. My daughter did save me from gambling at that moment but I think I would have talked myself out of gambling on my own. I need to have more faith in myself and trust myself more. I do realize how gambling again would destroy my life. I do think that I would benefit from GA again. Since there are no meetings in the town I live in, I should find meetings to attend while I’m in the city. I am always reading addiction books, as they have been helpful. I am trying to stay proactive in my recovery. I have many things that I am planning on doing, getting my vegetable garden ready, some small trips, and some diy home improvements. Sad, your post helps me keep myself in check and accountable for my actions. Thank you.

[lizbeth4]

Thanks kpat and P for your posts! Thanks for your support! I know that if I can ride it out (the urges) and find other things to keep me occupied that I will not gamble. I have been on the brink of gambling many times but have been able to refrain. The thought of being broke and depressed have kept me from gambling too. I have no one but myself to depend on financially so that has also kept the gambling at bay. My Grandson is feeling a lot better. He still has the cough but not as bad as yesterday. I sent my Daughter off with her friends for a night out. So my Grandson and I are just hanging out playing games and watching TV. The washer and oven won’t be fixed for another 2 weeks as parts had to be ordered. At least they will be fixed at some point. I am going home on Monday and will return in 8 days as I promised my Daughter earlier that I would be here so she could attend 2 early morning meetings for her work. Everything is good here!

[lizbeth4]

I know that you don’t post much here anymore but I wanted to say hi. I hope all is going well with you. I think of you often and appreciate all of your support. Take care.

[lizbeth4]

Thanks for your post kpat! I know that I must take the first step in making new friends and finding new experiences. It is scary. I was thinking about a astrology, or artsy class. I came so close to gambling and it would have been bad. I am trying to be more saving with my money as I am going to have to pay a sizable amount of taxes. Yesterday as I was depositing the mortgage payment from my Daughter, I asked about what kind of credit cards they offered. I qualified for one with the cash back offer. I was so proud that I have done the work to get my credit score where it is. It will be used sparingly, mostly to help me get a higher credit score. I trust myself to not use it for gambling or I would not have gotten it. I need to have faith in myself. My grandson is feeling a little better but still coughing. He is staying home with me today. The appliance company (home warranty)will be out today to fix the dryer. I am going home sometime this weekend.

[lizbeth4]

You are doing awesome. Keep going.

[lizbeth4]

Thanks ican for your post. Last night was restless as my Grandson coughed all night even after taking cough medicine. My daughter is only working till noon as she is taking him to the doctors. Strep throat is going around his school. Yesterday when my Daughter called and asked if I could come to the city earlier than planned , she saved me from gambling. I was having strong urges and I was planning on going to the casino. I was installing a new smoke alarm and then I was going to gamble. These urges were the strongest ones I’ve had in a long time. Now that I’ve had time to think things through, I am over the urges. Something is missing from my life. I don’t feel totally fulfilled. I met a woman around my age while taking a walk. We have talked several times. We had a good conversation. She wants us to maybe take a interest class together at the community college. I want to connect but something is holding me back.

[lizbeth4]

Well, I ended up in the city a day earlier than expected. My Grandson is sick (cold, coughing) and on top of it he sprang his wrist in karate. My Daughter is afraid that he won’t be able to go to school tomorrow. No big deal!! I gave him a bath and he is relaxing and I send my Daughter to bed as she had little sleep last night. I am taking extra vitamins to hopefully ward off the cold germs.

[lizbeth4]

Thanks kpat! My Grandson’ s party was awesome. Everyone showed up 18 kids and over 20 adults. There were only 3 boys spending the night. I came home before dark and checked in on my Mom. She has a cold. All of the sudden she is getting real huggy with me and its hard for me to go there. I am huggy with my kids and grandson but this seems forced. Anyways, I will go over to her house tomorrow and see if she needs anything. I am glad to be home if only for a few days. My grandson had a friend stay over last night so I hung out with my daughter and we watched a movie in her room and slept in there. Our own slumber party. It was fun. I hope everyone is having a good weekend.

[lizbeth4]

Vera I just saw your post! This new forum! It wasn’t there when I posted last. I wonder if we were posting around the same time. Anyways, I don’t want to be a old lady hanging out in the casino either. Today didn’t start off well as my Grandson was in a real foul mood. That is unusual for him but we all have our bad days. He was very uncooperative and I could tell that my daughter was getting flustered. I took him to school and he was in a much better mood once we got there. My daughter text me from work and thanking me for helping with him this morning. Her and I are making progress as she would have been upset at me in the past for helping as she would think that I was overstepping my bounderies. So all of that is good. I cleaned the house and the bouncy house was delivered and setup. I am tired! I have all my things ready to go when I leave tomorrow. I will be back soon but only for a day to get the appliances fixed. Tomorrow will be awesome as my Grandson will have a good time with his friends!!!

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