[lizbeth4]

The evening turned out well. Dinner was great and we had a game night afterwords. My Mom got herself together. Maybe because my cousin is here. Going to update my phone today as my contract is over. Looks like rain here. Have a great gamble free day everyone.

[lizbeth4]

My Cousin is here visting and is staying with my Mom. My Mom is in rare form. She is upset that I won’t follow her commands and has hung up on me. I text my cousin telling her that I would pick them up at 4:30 for dinner. It will be dinner than home for me. I am tired of her acting out like a toddler and having her tantrum fits. It is really embarassing and it makes me want to walk away.

[lizbeth4]

Thank you FG for your post! In your post you mentioned unconditional love. That is what I feel for my Daughters and Grandson. I wasn’t shown unconditional love from my parents. Everything came with a condition. To this day if my Mom is upset with me she won’t say she loves me. My Sister hated our childhood. Instead of us being close, we are not. She puts on a tough exterior but inside she is a very hurt child. She is mean, controlling and acts very detached. I’ve tried to understand but I can’t be one of her targets. I will continue to try to be the best person I can be. I will love my children and Grandson the way they deserve to be loved. I make mistakes like everyone does. I try to learn from my mistakes so I don’t repeat them. That’s all I can do.

[lizbeth4]

PS. I had a $500 refund check in the mailbox from the insurance company on the off road vehicle I sold. That will go into my savings.

[lizbeth4]

I am so glad that you didn’t gamble today. Teenagers can test you to your limits. I think that is part of their growing up process. Hang in there! Being a parent and being married are the hardest things I’ve ever done. Your relationship with your Husband sounds a lot like what my relationship with my Husband was. We knew each other so well as we had been together so long. There were many times that we didn’t need to converse. I miss that! I truly believe that you sat at that table for a reason, so you would hear that conversation. God listens to our prayers

[lizbeth4]

I spent a good day with my youngest Daughter. We went shopping and had lunch. I stayed within my budget!!! I stopped by my Mom’s house when I got into town to check on her. I wanted her to know that I was staying home tomorrow to recuperate from my busy weekend. While we were talking my Sister called. My Mom talked to her like a long lost relative. A far cry from 4 days ago when she mad at her. It just seemed real fake to me. I excused myself and went home. I was ready to be home. I made myself a good dinner. I have decided that I will tell my Mom not to tell me anything concerning my Sister and her conversations. If she wanted me to know she would tell me herself. I felt such peace with my Daughter’s and Grandson. Not that they live perfect lives but they don’t cause drama. So I will have to limit people and things that cause the drama. The stress with my Mom and Sister have caused me stomach issues. I am surprised that I haven’t gone on a gambling binge. I am trying to meditate every morning. I don’t feel like my body and spirit are in sync. I need to work on it.

[lizbeth4]

Vera thanks for your post. My home owners insurance won’t cover the outside main water lines. I checked in the beginning. I am seeing my youngest Daughter tomorrow and then I am heading home. My Daughter went to a early Halloween party last night and my Grandson had 2 boys over for a sleep over. Today I took my Grandson and his friend to a amusement park. We had fun!! I am tired. In November my Grandson will be at my house for a weekend and I will be coming down the following week for 4 days as my Daughter is going to Seattle to see a friend. I have enjoyed my time with him. As far as my Mom is concerned, I am not going to spend as much time with her. My Sister is in her own world. I am going to leave her alone.

[lizbeth4]

Have a good day weekend.

[lizbeth4]

Vera, the water line was fixed this afternoon. You take things for granted until you don’t have them. It cost $2400. I was thankful that I had the money. The pipes they use now are good for 200 years!!! I am sure the pipes that leaked were the original pipes. My place is 27 years old and there are other things that I need to update. I got through the ordeal. I am packing, ect tomorrow as I am going to the city on Friday for the weekend. I need some time away. And I want to see my Daughters and Grandson. My Mom is retreating back to her old ways. We talked about how to improve our relationship but she hasn’t changed or even tried. I saw her this morning and she started. She had to be right about everything. It is so tiring. I feel like texting my Sister and telling her she can deal with my Mom from now on. That wouldn’t last for long. I know I sound mean but jeez she doesn’t understand. I am trying to let go of the bad feelings when I had to apologize to her 3 times before she accepted it. I was wrong, but really. She has never apologised to me for anything. I feel like we are back to square one again. Maybe it’s me. I don’t feel as tolerant as I used to be. Maybe I am just tired!

[lizbeth4]

My Daughter text me today telling me that my Grandson received all A’s on his report card. She always tells me that am his third parent and that he learned his kindness and a lot of his learning abilities from my Husband and I. I remember when my Husband and I parented my Grandson till he was 3 1/2. When my ex son in law and Daughter were in recovery we would take him to spend time with them. He would cry when we left him. It was hard and my Husband and I would cry all the way home. Eventually, it became easier for all of us. Even though it was tough, I knew it was the right thing to do. Through the years we were there to pick up the pieces when they slipped in their recovery. Now they are both in a good place and are living healthy lifes. They are fantastic parents. I am so lucky, I have never loved someone as much as my precious Grandson. I have loved him as a son and as my only Grandchild. I guess the reason why I have posted this is because there is always hope for any addiction. I’ve seen the terrible, ugly side of it and the beautiful side of it. Just posting this has made me cry happy tears of gratitude.

[lizbeth4]

Hi Kathryn. The best thing to do is to just sit on your problems and not act till your are sure what is best for you. (Just what you are doing) I am happy that you are not gambling. Everything happens for a reason. Things will work out for the best. I think the hardest part is facing changes. Most of the time, change is good. Take care of yourself.

[lizbeth4]

They have dug the trench and are now jackhammering a section of my driveway. I bet the elderly people on my block like the noise. (99 percent of the owners are 75 years+) I do believe that bad and or trying things happen for a reason. My home was changed to all electric from propane sometime before I bought it. Most owners have electric and propane. While digging the trench the guys noticed that the gas lines were not capped off. The gas company came out and cut off the pipes and capped them off. They are coming back when the job is done to fill the trench where their pipes are with fill dirt that they specifically use. I could of had a potential explosion. I am so thankful! It has been raining lightly here (off and on) The guys say they will keep working. Maybe sometime tomorrow I will have running water.

[lizbeth4]

Vera thanks so much for your post! Miracles happen! My Mom called and apologized. We talked and decided that we are spending too much time together. I know that she will never change and that I will continue to have to set boundaries. I told her that we have lost all respect for each other. She said nothing. Vera, sometimes family members suck. I was upset with my Sister but have decided to let it go. I won’t be as free with my thoughts and words with her. I now feel like I need to protect myself. My Mom is a control freak. I know that I will never win with her. I am just feeling overwhelmed right now. No digging of the trench today. They are starting tomorrow. I am taking a shower at my Mom’s. I turned on the water so I could flush the toilets. Thought about going to the hotel.

[lizbeth4]

Thanks Kpat for your support and advice. I really need it now. I am feeling very sad! I am at the point that something needs to change with my Mom. I may need to take drastic measures. I can’t do this anymore. Especially when it is effecting my health. I am hoping that I will have the water line fixed by Tuesday, if it doesn’t rain. I have decided to take my Grandson to the State Fair when I am in the city this weekend. It has been awhile since I have been and he is excited about going. Tomorrow, I will clean the house and keep busy here. Sometimes I wonder if I should sell my home and move back to the city? There would be distance between my Mom and I. Just a thought.

[lizbeth4]

Thanks Kpat for your post on my thread. Today was really hard. I feel like little pieces of my heart are being torn out by my Mom. I don’t think she knows how devastating her words and actions are. I do need to have time to cool down. We both need a time out. I am almost at the end of the line with her. I am having tummy aches and acid reflex issues when I am with her. When it is effecting my health, I need to do something about it. I may need to walk away from her. Sorry about ranting on your thread. Thanks for your support. It helps me a lot to put things into prespective. Thanks.

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