[lizbeth4]

Cat, it was a nice surprise to see your post. Thank you! I often wonder if I should still be posting here. It has been over 4 years since I first came here. GT has been my safe haven where I can be honest about gambling and my life and struggles. So I guess I just answered my own question. LOL! Work with a sore throat. Staying home and resting today. It is cold and raining here. My Mom is still feeling ill. I made my thanksgiving food list as I am cooking. There will only be 4 of us this year. I also made my Christmas gift list. This is crazy but I thought of gambling today. Squashed those urges fast!

[lizbeth4]

Cat, it was a nice surprise to see your post. Thank you! I often wonder if I should still be posting here. It has been over 4 years since I first came here. GT has been my safe haven where I can be honest about gambling and my life and struggles. So I guess I just answered my own question. LOL! Woke with a sore throat. Staying home and resting today. It is cold and raining here. My Mom is still feeling ill. I made my thanksgiving food list as I am cooking. There will only be 4 of us this year. I also made my Christmas gift list. This is crazy but I thought of gambling today. Squashed those urges fast!

[lizbeth4]

Thanks FG and Charles for your posts. I brought some chicken soup to my Mom this afternoon. She has a stomach virus. Since I have been surrounded by illness lately, I am still taking extra vitamins. I am feeling okay, just tried. It is supposed to be real cold here tomorrow. I am reading a good book. Maybe tomorrow will be a good day to vegg.

[lizbeth4]

Hi FG. Sorry to hear that you gambled. But you are back on track I am glad that you have a nice, supportive Husband. That means a lot! I read your post about your life. You have been through so much. Much more than any of us have had to face. You are a remarkable person and Mother. I hope you had a awesome weekend. You deserve it!

[lizbeth4]

Hello Maverick. We are here to support each other. Please post your thoughts. Take care

[lizbeth4]

Ican, Thanks for your amazing post! You gave me nice compliments. I love with all of my heart. The way I think about life really changed when my Husband died. I try to find the good in everything and everyone. It has taken me a long time to realize that I can’t change anyone but me. That everyone is responsible for themselves and their actions. I do need to continue to work on my wholeness. Meditating, exercising and keeping my brain active (learning) I am home now. In my safe haven. My Daughter, her boyfriend and my Grandson and I went to a carnival last night. Lots of fun! My Mom is sick with a stomach virus. I will check in on her tomorrow. I have been taking extra vitamins since my Grandson and Daughter were sick. I am feeling alright just a little tired I have to pass 2 casinos on the way home but wasn’t tempted. I think I am too tired to have urges. LOL!

[lizbeth4]

VERA, Thanks for your prayers. My Daughter will figure out her work situation. She will know when it becomes too much. I’ve had a good day. We did a little shopping and had lunch. Just being with my Daughter and Grandson lifts my spirits. I saw my youngest Daughter yesterday for lunch. I pray for her all of the time. But she needs to figure out her life. We all have control of the way our life goes. Sometimes it is hard!!!!!

[lizbeth4]

My Grandson went to school today. He is feeling better. I am going home on Sunday. I did some cleaning and laundry this morning. I don’t know how my Daughter is keeping up on the household stuff as she has to put so many hours in at work. Tonight is game night which my Grandson loves. I thought of buying scratch tickets today while I was doing some grocery shopping. I didn’t. Don’t know why the feelings came over me.

[lizbeth4]

I’m sorry that you are gambling. Have fun on your cruise. May be you can relax and regroup. I will pray for you. I know that any of us could gamble. Don’t let this define you. You are much more than the gambling. Take care!

[lizbeth4]

PS The owner of the company is the boyfriend of the CEO. No one to complain to about her behavior.

[lizbeth4]

Thank you Mich for your post! I am in the city (not planned) as my Daughter called me yesterday for help! My Grandson has a a bad cough and congestion. She took him to the Doctor and he was given a prescription cough syrup. She missed some work and is fearful of losing her job as her boss is a tyrant. He stayed home today and is feeling a little better. We used a vaporizer all night and that helped. I am going to stay through the weekend. I am worried about my oldest Daughter as she thought this job was a dream job but it has turned into a nightmare. Many people have been fired or demoted as the CEO is out of control. She is a controlling, mean, unrespectful person. She screams and demeans her employees in front of everyone else. My Daughter is hanging on for as long as she can. I feel bad as the stress is causing her stomach issues and she now has a small bald spot in the back of her head. I pray that she will find another job soon but it is hard as she doesn’t have time for interviews till she leaves this present job. I am praying for her. She has her boyfriend and I to lean on. We are there for her. She has decided that money isn’t everything from this experience. She wants to be a advocate for women. Somehow her career path took a detour. Hopefully soon she can resume her dream once this job ends.

[lizbeth4]

Hi Mich, I am glad that you found this site! GT has helped me immensely. You are putting a lot of barriers in place and that is great! You need to focus on yourself right now. This addiction is horrible and sucks the life right out of you if you let it! Having your Husband being supportive of you is a great plus. Would you consider going to GA? It was of great help for me. It seems like we all have some form of family dysfunction. Try to focus on yourself now. Please post here often and read other’s threads as it is very helpful. Remember that we are all here and support you. Take care.

[lizbeth4]

I had a great day! I went on my day trip (solo) The ruins were awesome. I went to several antique stores and treated myself to a antique perfume bottle. I have collected them for years. I found a small restaurant and had lunch. I was home by 5 pm. I don’t like driving the forest, mountain roads at night. On my way I saw a large elk. He crossed the road about 200 feet in front of my car. I was feeling a little awkward at first being alone but I noticed a few people by themselves. I need to feel comfortable with myself. I can’t wait for someone to be there with me. Everyone has a job and life. If I want to go somewhere, I am. I think my self esteem is better than when I was gambling. Tomorrow morning I am going to pick my Mom up for the gym. We are only going together 3 times a week. I can’t be around the negativity and doom and gloom everyday. I guess my Sister is going to hold a grudge against me. No big surprise. I sent her Granddaughter, my Great Niece 2 outfits. She never acknowledged that she received them. Typical, bad behavior on her part. What can you do? My family is pretty messed up. My youngest Daughter is causing some drama with me via text messages. I am not going to give her any money. She needs to figure out her life. No more enabling her. It’s hard as a parent but she needs to get help for her drug use. I pray all the time that she will find her way. I think the worry has caused me to not be able to sleep. I took a sleeping pill and am waiting for it to kick in. Sometimes I feel that it would be easy to revert back to my old ways and gamble. But I realize that it won’t solve anything. I have to stay strong.

[lizbeth4]

Hi ican. It sounds like your life has been busy. We never know what life is going to throw us. I liked the part of your post where you said that you were beginning to accept and like yourself and others also. And that we are all trying to do our best. That is a big step for us. Keep enjoying your family. Take care!

[lizbeth4]

My Cousin went home this morning. I had a great time with her and it was gamble free! We looked at homes while she was here. I think she will buy here in the spring. I am getting my nails done in the morning at 8am then I am going on a day trip to another town, 1 hour from here. There are some Indian ruins that I want to explore. I plan on having lunch and going to 2 antique stores. It will be fun!

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