[lizbeth4]

Thanks FG for your post. Every positive thought propels us in the right direction.

[lizbeth4]

FG you are all right! As long as we are not gambling, we can handle what life throws us. I tried to think of the positives of the break in. No one was home at the time it occurred and they didn’t steal much, nothing that can’t be replaced. I believe in karma and no good comes from stealing. I sent a positive affirmation to my Daughter this morning and wished her a great day. The window was replaced yesterday and the alarm service is coming out tomorrow to install more motion detectors, very costly but needed. The good thing is that my Daughter still feels that her home is safe but feels a little violated with someone rummaging through her belongings.

[lizbeth4]

Okay, that was a rambling rant. I think that I am tired!

[lizbeth4]

FG, he is almost 10! He is my joy! Thanks for the birthday wishes. I came home today and there is still a lot of snow on the ground. I had lunch with my Mom. I’m not even unpacked yet and I may need to go back to my Daughter’s home. The alarm service called today because the living room motion detector went off and the police were called. I finally got hold of my Daughter and she went home and her house was broken into. Good news is that they only got away with a big screen TV before the alarm scared them away. My Daughter’s boyfriend was hiking (no cell service) but has since received her messages and is on his way to see if he can replace the window today. Otherwise, Friday will be the earliest for someone to come out to install a window. Bummer! Never mind, her boyfriend is replacing the window! YEAH. Always something.

[lizbeth4]

My Grandson’s recital was awesome. He chose to sit in the front row. He isn’t afraid of being in front of a crowd. We went for ice cream sundaes on the way home. I go home in the morning after I take my Grandson to school. I need to do some Xmas baking. My Mom and I will be celebrating our birthdays next week. May be we will go out for dinner. Xmas will be here soon!

[lizbeth4]

Thanks Vera for your post! My Daughter’s addiction is out of my control. That doesn’t make it less painful to watch. I pray a lot for her. I am enjoying my time here. My Grandson is so funny and smart. My oldest Daughter is doing well in life and her sobriety. Her work situation has calmed down a lot. Last night was her office party. She was seated with the 2 CEO’s and 2 other top people in the company. That made her feel good about herself. They gave her several nice gifts and $750 in Visa gift cards. Very nice. I need to focus on the good and positives in my life. I have a lot to be thankful for.

[lizbeth4]

Sorry about the loss of your friend. Death puts things into perspective Take care. Today is a new day!!!! Anything is possible.

[lizbeth4]

Today I was very disappointed. I went to get my youngest Daughter. She has moved to a different city. The drive was 45 minutes, one way. I brought her Christmas gifts. She never answered the door or her phone, so I went back to my oldest Daughter’s home. About 1 hour later she text me with a sorry and will you forgive me. We are going to try again on Monday. How could I be mad? She has a addiction. I was very unreliable when I gambled and I would disappear for hours. I missed out on so much family time. The only person who would call me on it was my Husband The disappointment from this morning has turned into sadness for my Daughter and anger towards her addiction.

[lizbeth4]

Awesome FG on your gamble free time! No gambling=more money!!! Get some rest. I’m babysitting also this weekend so my Daughter can attend a work related seminar. I love this season too! Enjoy.

[lizbeth4]

I made it to the city. I had a early appointment at the car dealership to have the oil changed and car serviced. Now I am at my Daughter’s home. Going to pick up my Grandson from karate camp. I’ve had gambling urges all week but haven’t acted on them. I’m afraid of the consequences. I was adding up the cost of some things I want to do to my house next year and I am still doubling up on my credit card payments. I can’t gamble or I will destroy my plans! I can’t face the disappointment of my actions. I was very frugal this Christmas, everything I bought was on sale. My time in the city is already etched out. I will be busy = no gambling!

[lizbeth4]

Thanks Vera! I haven’t gambled. I am still thinking about it though. I went to the gym early this morning and spent some time with my Mom. I came home and did a few things around my home. I am leaving on Thursday and coming back on Wednesday. Time to spend with my Daughters and Grandson and friends. I have gambled at least 6 times since I started my journey here. I know how much I loathed myself afterwards. I don’t want to feel like that again. I need to have self worth and self respect. I will get through the day without gambling.

[lizbeth4]

Thanks Vera! I was posting when you were. I am going to be alright!

[lizbeth4]

I am feeling better. I made some hot cocoa and sat on the porch and watched the beautiful sunset. My Daughter apologized. A big thing for us as in the past we would go without talking instead of working things out! Progress! Also, I am going to stay 2 extra days with my Grandson and Daughter. My Grandson’s first violin performance is next week. I wouldn’t miss that for anything. I am still having urges, not as strong. I have the Christmas lights on. Feeling better!

[lizbeth4]

Sometimes it’s hard to stay positive with negative people around you! I feel like gambling, escaping for a few hours. I know afterwards that I will feel disgusted and ashamed with myself. I am doing everything in my power to not gamble. There are no meetings here. Between my Mom’s negativity today as I took her to the Doctors and store and my oldest Daughter’s rude comments concerning a disagreement, I am upset and hurt. What better way to deal with it than to be distructive by gambling. How crazy is that? My brain is telling me not to be stupid and my addiction is telling me to go for it!! I feel like I can’t win. I’m having a pity party!

[lizbeth4]

Hi Laura. I just re-read my post to you and it sounded preachy. It wasn’t meant that way. I only want the best for you. You always have my support!

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