[lizbeth4]

Thanks i-did-it. I’m feeling a little better today. I haven’t ate for 3 days. I’m going to try some soup later. I-did-it, I’m trying to stay positive. It’s kind of hard sometimes. Tomorrow is my birthday, the big 60. I don’t feel like celebrating. Still trying to figure out how to pay bills next month, but that’s next month.

[lizbeth4]

Monica, Thanks for your post on my thread. I can’t imagine having health issues on top of dealing with the aftermath of this addiction. I think of you often and pray that you can find something positive in your day.

[lizbeth4]

Hi i-did-it, Good on starting a new thread. Toxic people have always been my #1 stressor. You’ve got this!

[lizbeth4]

Hvala Monicau na postu na mojoj temi. I ja sam mislio na tebe i molio se da se tvoja situacija promijeni. Bankrot će mi biti posljednje utočište. Ovdje su vjerovnici vrlo agresivni. Ubacuju se i uzimaju sve vrijedno. Imam neke imovine koje bi, iako bi mi mogle pomoći u mojoj situaciji, mogle negativno promijeniti tuđi život. Duga priča. Pa ću iskopati. Možda ću poslušati savjet "uradi sam" i pokušati pronaći djecu koju će gledati nakon škole i za vrijeme školskih raspusta. To bi donijelo malo dodatnog novca. Moja kći i ja imamo gripu. Jedva sam mogla ustati iz kreveta do danas. Moja je majka gledala dijete, ali mislim da je završila. Otići ću na dugo vruće tuširanje i nastavit ću piti tekućinu. Malo mi je bolje. Sutra je mogu gledati. Monicau, hvala na podršci! Ti si suosjećajna osoba.

[lizbeth4]

Thanks Monicau for your post on my thread. I’ve thought of you too and prayed for your situation to change. Bankruptcy will be my last resort. The creditors here are very aggressive. They swoop in and take anything of value. I have some assets that although they could help me in my situation, they could adversely change someone else’s life. A long story. So I’m going to dig out. I may take i-did-it advice and try to find some kids to watch after school and during school breaks. That would bring in a little extra money. My Daughter and I have the flu. I couldn’t barely get out of bed till today. My Mother has watched the baby but I think she’s through. I’m going to take a long hot shower and keep drinking fluids. I’m a little better. I can watch her tomorrow. Monicau, Thanks for supporting me! You’re a compassionate person.

[lizbeth4]

Hvala i-did-it i Laura! Tako sam zahvalan što imam vašu podršku. Mogu iskoristiti svu podršku koju mogu dobiti! Moja kći je također bolesna. Beba se osjeća bolje. Moja majka je dobro pa gleda bebu. Odmaram. Razmišljao sam o samoubojstvu, ali onda me netko mora pronaći. Vjerojatno joj moja kći i ja to ne možemo učiniti. Od svih bi moj unuk bio toliko uništen. To je ono što me zaustavlja. Bio bi to lak izlaz. Moja najstarija kći piše, a ona kupuje i priprema božićnu večeru. Nazvali smo primirje. Još uvijek brinem o svojim financijama. Moram vas nazvati u ponedjeljak da vidim hoće li vjerovnik promijeniti moju uplatu. Vrijedi pitati. Najgori scenariji: naknade za prekoračenje, potencijalni gubitak tekućeg računa. Sva bi moja automatska plaćanja trebala biti u redu, nešto bez čega mogu živjeti mjesec dana. Trebao bih ostati bez duga kreditne kartice za 3 godine, ali ako ne platim mjesečnu uplatu, mogu me tužiti. To je to! Idem nešto smisliti. Moj dnevni citat je: "Nastavi." Nemam novca za kockanje, nemam karte, itd … Tako da se danas neću kockati!

[lizbeth4]

Thanks i-did-it and Laura! I am so grateful that I have your support. I can use all of the support I can get! My Daughter is sick also. The baby is feeling better. My Mother is well so she is watching the baby. I’m resting. I’ve thought about suicide but then someone has to find me. Probably my Daughter and I can’t do that to her. Out of everyone my Grandson would be so devastated. That’s what is stopping me. It would be a easy out. My oldest Daughter text and she is buying and preparing the Xmas dinner. We’ve called a truce. I’m still worrying about my finances. I have a call to make on Monday to see if a creditor will revise my payment. It’s worth asking. The worse scenarios: overdraft fees, potential loss of checking account. All of my automatic payments should be fine, somethings I can live without for a month. I should be out of credit card debt in 3 years but if I don’t pay my monthly payment, they can sue me It is what it is! I’m going to figure out something. My daily quote is, “Keep going.” I have no money to gamble with, no cards, ect… So today I will not gamble!

[lizbeth4]

Hvala Geordie i učinila sam to na vašim postovima! Danas sam bolestan. Jaka prehlada. Sramota! Moja kći i ja došli smo do kompromisa. Učinio sam to da održim mir i da vidim svog unuka. Radila sam na tome kako ću sljedeći mjesec uplatiti račune. Nikad ne učim! Odlučio sam koje mogu odgoditi, ali i dalje neće pokriti sve. Nemam više kredita i nekoliko tvrtki koje sam kontaktirao neće raditi sa mnom. Dakle, shvaćam svoje financije dok se osjećam kao kak. Mogu se izvući iz ovoga za 2 mjeseca, ali bit će jako teško. Razmišljao sam o tome da sinoć završim. Da, ponovio sam to. Jednostavno ne mogu ostaviti svoje unuke takve. Nemam nikoga tko mi je blizu da se obratim. Molim vas, molite se za mene !!!

[lizbeth4]

Thanks Geordie and i-did-it for your posts! I’m sick today. A bad cold. Bummer! My Daughter and I came to a compromise. I did it to keep the peace and to see my Grandson. I have been working about how I am going to make my bills next month. I never learn! I’ve decided which ones I can put off but it still won’t cover everything. I have no more credit and a few of the companies I’ve contacted won’t work with me. So, I’m figuring out my finances while feeling like poo. I can get out of this in 2 months but it’s going to be really hard. I thought about ending last night. Yes I’ve said it again. I just can’t leave my Grandbabies like that. I have no one who is close to me to turn to. Please pray for me!!!

[lizbeth4]

Monicau, Thanks for your post! I hope we can compromise. She said not to bother her anymore. Ok? Other family drama has occurred today and I’m home minding my own business. I’m not answering the phone or texts the rest of the day. LOL! The sadness of this is my Grandson. That breaks my heart. For today, I will respect myself and not gamble. I will put my recovery first.

[lizbeth4]

Monicau, hvala na postu! Nadam se da možemo napraviti kompromis. Rekla je da joj više ne smetam. U redu? Danas se dogodila druga obiteljska drama i ja sam kod kuće i gledam svoja posla. Ostatak dana se ne javljam na telefon ili ne šaljem poruke. LOL! Tuga zbog ovoga je moj unuk. To mi slama srce. Za danas ću se poštivati i ne kockati. Oporavak ću staviti na prvo mjesto.

[lizbeth4]

So the texts started flying. Many mean and vile things said to me. I’ve had it! Obviously, there is alcohol or something else involved. I’m drained! No gambling. Thank goodness I have access to little money and I don’t have the energy. I lose in all of this with not seeing my Grandson. I will have to deal with it.

[lizbeth4]

Tako su tekstovi počeli letjeti. Mnoge zle i ružne stvari su mi rečene. Dosta mi je! Očito je u pitanju alkohol ili nešto drugo. Iscrpljen sam! Bez kockanja. Hvala Bogu da imam pristup malo novca i nemam energije. Gubim u svemu tome što ne vidim svog unuka. Morat ću se nositi s tim.

[lizbeth4]

Monica, I wish that things were different for you. I’m sure it’s hard to find any hope. Just know that I do care and I’ve been thinking of you and sending positive vibes your way! Regarding your Sister’s comment : sometimes people, even ones who are close to us, either can’t or don’t want to see the truth. It’s hurtful and disregarding. You have so much to offer this world. Don’t forget it! Hang in there.

[lizbeth4]

I asked my Daughter not to come for Xmas if she plans on brings demands and causing stress for the family. It was so hard to do because it would mean that my sweet Grandson won’t be here. No reply. I had to stand my ground. I feel like standing my ground and setting boundaries is part of my recovery. I am putting my recovery first! I can’t let anything or anyone stand in my way of recovery or trigger it. I really feel that if I fail this time in my recovery, I will be lost in it and never recover. I still have hope and faith that I can overcome my addiction, get out of debt and relieve a lot of my stressors. I’m dedicated to my recovery more than ever before. In fact, there is no question in my mind that now is the time for complete surrender to recovery.

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