[lizbeth4]

Hvala Veri i Velvetu na vašim postovima. Volim šetati, ali ovdje je sada hladno i vjetrovito. Volim šetati u večernjim satima, ali kad moja kći pokupi dijete, već je mračno vani. Jedva čekam proljeće pa mogu povesti unuku u šetnju u kolicima. Vera, muka mi je od kockanja. Umoran sam od toga. Osjećam da je i ovaj put nešto drugačije za mene. Baršun, sve lišće je s drveća. Ovo će biti moje posljednje čišćenje. Otišao sam popodne u posjet s mamom, kćerkom i unukom. Zajedno smo ručali. Nešto se u meni promijenilo prema mojoj Majci. Kao da je moj bijes nestao. Još uvijek imam podignute granice! Osjećam da se, kad sam nedavno navršio 60 godina, mnoge stvari interno promijenilo. Znam da je ključ svega u mojim rukama. Imam moć! Nisam se kockao danas!

[lizbeth4]

Laura, I always like to hear what is going on with your life! Boredom can be good! Sometimes when I complain about my life, I feel a little ashamed because there are people on here with more desperate situations. But I think all of our stories are valuable! Your right, we have to keep doing the next right thing for our own self. Have a good day Laura.

[lizbeth4]

Laura, I always like to hear what is going on with your life! Boredom can be good! Sometimes when I complain about my life, I feel a little ashamed because there are people on here with more desperate situations. But I think all of our stories are valuable! Your right, we have to keep doing the next right thing for our own self. Have a good day Laura.

[lizbeth4]

I’m feeling a little blah today! Not sure where the feelings are coming from. When it gets a little warmer this afternoon, I’m going to rake up the remaining leaves in the backyard. Keeping busy=getting through gambling urges!

[lizbeth4]

Danas se osjećam malo bla! Nisam siguran odakle osjećaji dolaze. Kad popodne postane malo toplije, pograbit ću preostalo lišće u dvorištu. Ostati zauzet = prebroditi želje za kockanjem!

[lizbeth4]

New Years Resolutions: I’m not making any this year! I’ve already made the commitment to myself about being gamble free and resetting and rethinking my money plan to save money. My commitment started a few weeks ago. I’m feeling good this time about it. It feel different. I must stay true to myself.

[lizbeth4]

Thanks Laura, That’s it, living in the present! My tree and decorations stay up till after the 1st of January. I try to savor the last of Christmas. But the 1st brings in the new year with new hopes, dreams and plans!!!! One day at a time!

[lizbeth4]

Hvala Laura, to je to, živim u sadašnjosti! Moje drvce i ukrasi ostaju do 1. siječnja. Pokušavam uživati u posljednjem Božiću. Ali 1. donosi novu godinu s novim nadama, snovima i planovima !!!! Dan po dan!

[lizbeth4]

Thank you Laura for your positive post! I have to keep my eye on the prize, being debt free. I still have a cough. In fact, I went to bed very early last night and still feel like I could sleep another 8 hours. I’m waiting for my Daughter to bring the baby over on her way to work. I’m still mulling over making extra income. It can’t interfere with the days that I watch my Granddaughter. Jobs are limited here as it is a rural area. I’m thinking of advertising to run errands, grocery shop, ect. as a large number of our population is the elderly. I will figure something out. All I know is that I am gamble free for today. I plan on being gamble free tomorrow.

[lizbeth4]

Hvala Laura na pozitivnom postu! Moram paziti na nagradu jer nema duga. Još uvijek imam kašalj. Zapravo, sinoć sam legao vrlo rano i još uvijek se osjećam kao da bih mogao spavati još 8 sati. Čekam da moja kći dovede dijete na put na posao. Još razmišljam o dodatnom prihodu. Ne može ometati dane dok gledam svoju unuku. Poslovi su ovdje ograničeni jer se radi o ruralnom području. Razmišljam o oglašavanju radi obavljanja poslova, trgovine, itd. budući da je veliki broj našeg stanovništva starije dobi. Smislit ću nešto. Sve što znam je da sam danas slobodan od kockanja. Sutra planiram biti slobodan od kockanja.

[lizbeth4]

I was thinking about my gambling addiction. I do put it on the same level as many other addictions. I’ve done it regardless of the consequences to myself and my family. When I am in the midst of it, really nothing else matters, even when I know it is wrong. I have a hero in my youngest Daughter. She was a drug addict all of her adult life, 14 plus years. She was told that she would never have children because of medical issues pertaining to her addiction. 19 Months clean and we have our miracle baby, my Granddaughter. She is working full time after never holding down a job. When I feel like giving in, I only have to look at her and know that anything can be done if you want it bad enough and you work hard enough.

[lizbeth4]

Razmišljao sam o svojoj ovisnosti o kocki. Stavljam to na istu razinu kao i mnoge druge ovisnosti. Učinio sam to bez obzira na posljedice za sebe i svoju obitelj. Kad sam usred toga, zapravo ništa drugo nije važno, čak i kad znam da je to pogrešno. Imam heroja u svojoj najmlađoj kćeri. Cijeli svoj odrasli život, 14 i više godina, bila je ovisnica o drogama. Rečeno joj je da nikada neće imati djece zbog zdravstvenih problema koji se odnose na njezinu ovisnost. 19 mjeseci čisto i dobili smo čudo od djeteta, moju unuku. Radi puno radno vrijeme nakon što nikad nije zadržala posao. Kad mi dođe predavanje, moram je samo pogledati i znati da se sve može učiniti ako to želiš dovoljno jako i ako dovoljno radiš.

[lizbeth4]

Thanks i-did-it for your post! My Christmas was good! I let go of my expectations and just went with it! 30 Months isn’t long to be debt free. I have to keep my goals in sight when the gambling urges arise. I talked to the last creditor this morning. They are willing to help me but I have to be 30 days behind in my payment (Jan 2nd) before they will set up a repayment plan. It’s all good! My credit is going to take another hit but that can be rebuilt too! Money will be tight for the next few months. I can cut back on things and not spend anything foolishly. I can do this!!! This morning when my sweet Granddaughter fell asleep in my arms, it was the best feeling. She loves her Nana. I want to be that good role model for my Grandkids. They love me unconditionally!

[lizbeth4]

Hvala ti-did-it na tvom postu! Božić mi je bio dobar! Otpustio sam svoja očekivanja i jednostavno to učinio! 30 mjeseci nije dugo da biste bili bez dugova. Moram držati svoje ciljeve na vidiku kad se jave porivi za kockanjem. Jutros sam razgovarao s posljednjim vjerovnikom. Voljni su mi pomoći, ali moram zakasniti 30 dana u plaćanju (2. siječnja) prije nego što utvrde plan otplate. Sve je dobro! Moja će zasluga biti još jedan pogodak, ali i to se može obnoviti! Novac će biti ograničen sljedećih nekoliko mjeseci. Mogu smanjiti stvari i ne trošiti ništa glupo. Mogu ja ovo !!! Jutros kad mi je draga unuka zaspala u naručju, to je bio najbolji osjećaj. Ona voli svoju Nanu. Želim biti dobar uzor svojim unucima. Vole me bezuvjetno!

[lizbeth4]

This morning I sent a money order to the 1 creditor. It will get there by Friday. I can’t be sued as I do have properties that can have liens placed upon them. I just have to keep my course. Stay strong and stay true to what I know is right. I can be out of credit card debt and tax debt in 30 Months. If I don’t gamble, falter. I cant make any more mistakes. Financial freedom! I can have savings and travel a little. That is my goal!!!! Today forward I feel like it’s going to be a better, stress free (not self imposed) life!!!! Feeling good!!!

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