[lizbeth4]

I slept really well last night. But I went to bed very early so I’m awake unusually early! Lol! My family drama continues. I am being supportive but not getting involved in it. If that makes sense. My direct deposits are in my bank account. All of the money marked for debts. I must remember that worry doesn’t change anything. I need to have continued faith that everything will be alright. I am doing the right things, no gambling, banning, ect… I will get through this and come out stronger than before. Sometimes I just need to find one small positive to help me through the day when I’m feeling a little down. Today: I get to spend the day with my Granddaughter! Joy!!

[lizbeth4]

I was posting the same time as you were. Once you get the test results and get on medication, you will feel a lot better physically. . I don’t think it is because you are 60 that your brain is functioning slowly, you just have so many things going on at the same time! It’s hard to sort it all. I’m glad you got your internet connection going again. I need my internet. Lol!! We lose it a lot here. Take care.

[lizbeth4]

Hi Monicau, I was thinking about you this morning. I hope that you can find something positive in your day. I can’t even imagine what you are enduring. I don’t even know if I am saying anything helpful. Just know that people here care about you. You mean something to us.

[lizbeth4]

I-did-it , I will have a gamble free January also. I’m not counting days anymore. Counting months works for me. Hopefully 2018 will be a gamble free year for both of us!!!

[lizbeth4]

You are almost there!

[lizbeth4]

Have a great gamble free day everyone!

[lizbeth4]

Thanks Monicau for your post and support. I think that I made the right decision on quitting the job. The supervisor and next person in line tried to talk me out of leaving. But in my heart I knew it wasn’t for me. I can’t be miserable. There are some things going on within my family right know. I’m listening and being supportive. I’ve only given my opinion when asked. Some people need to grow up!!! I am happy that gambling isn’t in the equation for me. It would just mess things up!

[lizbeth4]

Hi Monicau, Thank you for posting on my thread. I’m sorry that you are feeling depressed. You’ve been going through so much for so long. I pray that you have some relief soon. Goodness knows that you deserve it! Take care. I am thinking of you.

[lizbeth4]

Thanks i-did-it. My Granddaughter is taking her morning nap so I have time for a little posting. I slept really well last night. It’s a wonder what sleep or lack of can do to you! I’m planning a little walk (stroller) this afternoon when it warms up. I haven’t been doing my daily walks lately. My friend (gambler) called yesterday. I was surprised. We are meeting for lunch on Friday. It was good to hear from her. She knows about my banning, ect. I am grateful that I am gamble free. Life is good!

[lizbeth4]

Thanks Kathryn for your post. It will take me thru May to pay my obligations and be back on track. It’s doable. I think I’ve been out of the workforce too long. Honestly, I was having anxiety attacks. It’s scary what the brain will do. A part time job would be more realistic. Number one is that I’m not gambling.

[lizbeth4]

Well, I resigned tonight. I’ve never quit a job. I totally hated the job. No organization and very little leadership. I’m disappointed in myself for not hanging in there longer. It is what it is. I will look for something that suits me better. Also, I will tighten my budget more. I have a headache. Going to rest.

[lizbeth4]

Laura, I’m glad that you enjoyed your vacation. Best wishes on your surgery. Speedy recovery! Take care.

[lizbeth4]

Thanks Monicau! I was thinking, I worked at my last job over 25 years. This job is completely different. I have to give it time.

[lizbeth4]

I can’t pinpoint what it is that I don’t like about the job. I haven’t worked for 9 years, that might be part of my anxiety. I’m going to hang in there. It’s only temporary, 4 months. I can do this!

[lizbeth4]

I didn’t sleep well last night. My brain wouldn’t shut off. Ugh, so frustrating. I think that I am my worse critic. It’s almost like I sabotage myself. I know that I am a strong woman. I’ve navigated almost the last 5 years without my Husband. I’ve rebuilt a new life, new house, new hometown. New way of living. I haven’t gambled and have banned myself. I can get myself out of debt and stick to my budget. I have to give myself more credit and believe in myself!!!! I’m worth it.

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