[lizbeth4]

Hi i-did-it, Maybe you needed the sleep! I’m happy for your gamble free time. Your post about the “friend” on here. Sometimes when I post, I wonder if I should be so specific with things in my life. Mostly because someone I personally know may be on this site. It just crosses my mind. Tomorrow is another day i-did-it. Enjoy the rest of your day!

[lizbeth4]

Hi Monicau, I’ve been digital free for 2 days now. I’m using my phone and cellular service to post. I didn’t read the fine print with the new company. I have to prepay a month in advance so I might be digital free until May ist. That’s ok. I can deal with it. I raked up 5 large yard trash bags of leaves and Pine needles from my back yard yesterday. At least I’m being productive instead of sitting in front of the TV like I do!

[lizbeth4]

Ok. So, something strange happened. I had lunch and was craving something sweet but wasn’t going out to get anything. I had a notification that a woman wanted to buy 2 pairs (New) sandles I had posted. She asked if I would deliver because she was working. Everything is 5 mins from me. Guess what? She owns the fudge factory. She payed me and gave me free homemade fudge (strawberry and creme) Delicious!!! See, the little things can bring happiness!!! The last time I gambled, I was miserable the whole time. No fun! Everyone around me was so sad. You could feel it in the air. I don’t want to experience that again!

[lizbeth4]

Thanks i-did-it! Half way done racking the remaining leaves in my back yard. I will be pruning in April. My 99 year old next door neighbor is in a care center as she has a blood clot in her lungs. She is a sweetie! Never had children and has outlived 4 husband’s. Was quite the golfer in her younger days in this town. I hope she can come back home to live the rest of her life out. Like she wants. Although yard work and gardening are threputic for me it’s also very tiring. Well, my break is over! Happy and gamble free.

[lizbeth4]

Still can’t edit.

[lizbeth4]

So last night was strange without the TV going. I feel asleep reading. Also, since I am using my cellular data instead of the internet, I have to watch my usage. I’m still in my PJs, thinking about things. I have to wait till noon when it’s warmer outside to pull weeds in the yard. I’m doing some laundry then I’m going to tackle cleaning out some drawers. I talk to a good friend last night and I’m going to spend a few days in May with her. We’ve been friends for 29 years and more like sisters!!! Can’t wait! No gambling thoughts today.

[lizbeth4]

Monica, You outgrew your friend and was wise to end the friendship. She was dragging you down and wanted you to be someone your not anymore. A bit like the friend that I ended my friendship with. I really think our energy level dwindles when we turn 60. Watching my Granddaughter all day kicks my butt!!! I feel as I’ve gotten older that I have no need for drama or fakeness. Maybe we’re at the point where we just want to be around authentic people. I hope you get some relive from the homopath. The part time job will come. Take care.

[lizbeth4]

Kathryn, Your post is what I needed right now! Your support means the world to me. Thank you for taking the time to post on my thread. I know you are going through a hard time right now. I was so worried about you. I’m glad that you were able to go camping and just “be”. Grieving is so hard! Take care of yourself! I really believe that I’m going to stay gamble free this time. Something feels different inside of me. I turned in the cable and internet equipment this morning. Wow! It is so quiet here. I had the TV on all the time but didn’t watch it. I plan on staying TV free for 2 weeks or more before I get the equipment from the new internet company, which has to be mailed to me. I plan to keep busy. Tomorrow, I’m cleaning up the front and 2 side yards. Sunday I’m doing my Daughter’s taxes and housework. Next weekend is my Granddaughter’s birthday party and the next day is Easter. My oldest Daughter and Grandson will be here. I’m making dinner for us all. This is so much better than sitting in a casino!

[lizbeth4]

Kathryn, Your post on my thread brought tears to my eyes! Youv e always been so supportive to me. I believe this time I will stay gamble free. I know that you are going through a lot right now, losing your sweet Mother. Something good happened from this, I’m looking at my Mother differently. I’m trying to enjoy my time with her and putting aside our differences as life is too short. I hope you are having fun with your precious Grandson. My Granddaughter will be a year old in 5 days. Time flies by so fast! I am so happy that you posted as I was worried about you. Your support means everything! Take care of yourself.

[lizbeth4]

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[lizbeth4]

Thanks Harry and Monica. Monica, I bought a lot of stuff after my Husband died. Between gambling and shopping l wasted a lot of time and money. These items that I’ve been selling are just things to me. Things that I’ve never used or worn. I’ve donated bags of clothing and household items. I notice that I wear 1/4 of what’s in my closet and wear little jewelry. It’s just taking up space. I have 10 books downloaded on my reader and a few books on hand. I love to read. Between cleaning, organizing, reading and getting my garden ready, I should be busy where having no internet for 2 1/2 weeks shouldn’t be a problem. I’ve really struggled with gambling this last week. April will be a trying month. I can pay everything as I’ve asked for my debt consultation to be reduced for 1 month but I won’t have a lot extra. But I can do this!!! I will feel a lot better about myself. I want to be a good example for my Grandchildren.

[lizbeth4]

I didn’t gamble today! I spent a fun day with my Granddaughter. I’ve sold another piece of jewelry that I purchased on EBay several years ago and never wore. I deposited the money into my checking account. I’m going to make good use of my time without cable and internet. I intend on cleaning out every cabinet, drawer and closet in my home. I will either trash, sell or donate every item. I don’t want to struggle financially anymore or juggle bills because of gambling. I want to put a end to that. I can, if I stay true to myself and keep on my path.

[lizbeth4]

I haven’t gambled. Though I’ve wanted to. Today I’m watching my Granddaughter so my Daughter can work. No gambling today. I can’t edit or start a new thread using my phone anymore. Also as of tomorrow, I’ll have no internet for 2 weeks. Hopefully I can connect using my cell service. I’m getting rid of my cable and will be only streaming video. I’m going with a new provider and I want to wait till the 5th so the billing date will work with my budget. I can save $70 per month and as I only watch 2 channels on cable, it won’t be a big deal. Today I will believe in myself and what I’m capable of!

[lizbeth4]

Hi Monica, You will find a more suitable job. There was too much traveling involved. I don’t know how you were doing it! You must have been totally exhausted every evening. You’re not decrepit! Far from it! That wasn’t the job for you. Can you find a part time job to start with and closer to home? Just thoughts. Get some rest!!!

[lizbeth4]

I need to post everyday and write down what I’m experiencing so I can come back and re-read. I woke wanting to gamble. Horrible feeling! I am babysitting most of the day so I’m hoping the urges subside. It’s supposed to be nice outside so we might go for a walk. I prayed and prayed that I am strong enough to get through this! I know the consequences and I don’t think that I can go through another gambling episode. I am close to the brink of causing great, irreversible damage. Not only to myself but to other people I love. I have to be stronger than the monster!

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