[lizbeth4]

Maverick, I was so happy to see your post. I’m sorry that your wife is ill. I hope she will be better soon. So glad that you’ve been gamble free. You are present and there for your wife when she really needs you! Take care of yourself also.

[lizbeth4]

Loving friends!

[lizbeth4]

Sara, You are probably making a wise decision in not telling your family about your addiction. Showing them with your actions is a positive step. That is and was my life but that’s my experience and it has shaped me into who I am. I have a lot of empathy towards someone with a addiction. Bad things happen to good people. People just don’t understand the totality of the gambling addiction. We do as we’ve lived it! You can’t chose your family but I’m blessed with a few close and living friends. I was and am a good Mother and Grandmother. I take pride in that. My oldest Daughter has a chip on her shoulder. Not just for me but the world. It is something she needs to deal with. I feel a disconnect with her but I’ve tried to fix it and can’t. My Grandson forever holds a piece of m y heart and soul. He know that. Today, I will enjoy and love my family for we dont know how much time we have left. No gambling thoughts!!

[lizbeth4]

So, my last post was pretty sad but was my life experience. I just want to wish everyone a Happy Easter. May today be spent with people you love.

[lizbeth4]

Hi Rayman, You will replay your losses for aehile in your head and then you will release it. You had a good period of gambling free time. What triggered your gambling? What barriers did you use last time? Try to put those in place again. You can do this. One day at a time!

[lizbeth4]

Sara, I’ve had little support from my family. My Sister and youngest Daughter try to understand. My oldest Daughter has thrown it in my face. Both of my Daughter’s are recovering drug addicts. You’d think there would be more understanding from them. I was there for both of them and my Husband and I raised my Grandson the first 4 years of his life because of her addiction. I was raised by a alcoholic Stepfather and had many Uncles who were alcoholics and many cousins who are drug users. My addiction is gambling. Although I love my family, they obviously don’t look at gambling as a addiction. I rely on my friends here for nonjudgemental support. Today was good. My Granddaughter’s birthday party was fun. There were a few snide comments from my oldest but we are all just used to it. Sadly she is one unhappy person. Have you ever tried to love someone and they do everything they can to block it? They can’t accept it. She has some issues which sadly affect my Grandson and I can’t do a damn thing about it but keep giving my love. Tomorrow, I’m spending as much time as I can with my Grandson. They are camping tonight and doing a hike tomorrow before coming back over. I fidnt mean to rant. Life can be so frustrating sometimes. Those are the times I used to gamble. No more!

[lizbeth4]

Really thinking-part time job! 🙂

[lizbeth4]

Thanks i-did-it. My type of gaming is cheap. I’m playing games that were paid for a long time ago. No new games. My Grandson has moved forward in technology and has a PS4. I have no clue how to play it and don’t care to learn. I miss Netflix. How do you stop worrying? It’s hard. I have to try and let go of the thoughts when they come. Usually when I’m trying to sleep. I am not extremely religious but I ask God to take my worries from me. I believe that everything is going to work out. It may not be the way I want but it’s the way it should be. I guess having faith! This afternoon is my Granddaughter’s 1st Birthday party. We are going to the park. I will be happy to see my Grandson. My youngest Daughter is not working. She is doing her handyman services again and is having a rough time finding jobs. I’m helping her as much as i can. Praying for her. Focusing on this weekend and my family. No gambling thoughts.

[lizbeth4]

Playing movies for my Granddaughter!

[lizbeth4]

Thanks Sara for your post! I’ve done all of my tasks for today. I even went to our local Women’s and children’s shelter and donated 5 bags of clothing. I must be bored now. I’ve hooked up the WIIU and have been playing Mario games. LOL! I’m buying a DVD player on payday so I can play the Disney movies for her. I can even rent a movie once in awhile. This will work till I get internet again. I have puzzle games and books on my Kindle and I’m doing crossword puzzles. After this weekend I will be busy for a couple weeks, trimming back fruit trees and doing my decluttering!! No time for gambling thoughts!

[lizbeth4]

Hi Monica, I’m happy that you had a good day! Sometimes it’s just the little things or pleasant memories that bring us joy. Enjoy the rest of your day!

[lizbeth4]

I did it! Good on the bedroom furniture! I always like a comfortable bed and nice bedding. I’m not materialistic but I’ve always prefer my bedroom to be nice. I just sleep better! It’s good to be able to purchase items for ourselves. Some of my best finds have been second hand. I don’t understand why your old posts are coming up as new. I still can’t edit!! Ugh!!

[lizbeth4]

Today, I didnt wake with worries. I’ve decided that I can’t live like that anymore. I want to live in contentment and joy. I have a lot of things to be joyful for. Also, I can’t solve others problems. They are for that person to solve. I can help and I can listen and be there for them. I can only do my best everyday. Somethings ate out of my control. Life is to short to be stressed out about the worries of the what if’s! Stress leads me to gambling thoughts. Maybe this is a catalyst for myself.

[lizbeth4]

Hi Laura, Congrats on your new car! You deserve it. I was trying to figure out the groups. ???? Seems like you’re feeling better. Don’t over do it. Take care.

[lizbeth4]

Thanks Monica. Yes, it will get sorted out. My Granddaughter’s appointment went well. She had to have 4 shots. She cried a little but was over it quickly. Saturday is her delayed birthday party. Sunday is Easter. My oldest Daughter and Grandson and her partner will be here for the weekend. I’m going to forget any worries and just enjoy my family. My oldest Daughter is a excellent cook and she’s making something just for me for Easter dinner as I don’t eat meat. Very thoughtful as I was just going to eat the side dishes. I’ve lost 15 pounds in 6 Months and do feel better! Today, I didn’t think of gambling. I enjoyed the nice weather and my family. It was a good day!

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