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Today turned out ok. The lunch with my Mother was good. I have leftovers for dinner and lunch tomorrow. A simple but delish meal of bean soup and cornbread. I came home and watched a movie, one of my favs, Fried Green tomatoes and had some fresh strawberries and whipped cream. Yum! Little things can mean so much! Tomorrow I will be walking early in the morning and making some calls to 2 creditors asking if they can lower my payment for next month so I can meet my unexpected debts. Just a little juggling. My favorite part of my day was knowing that I’m not gambling to escape and run from my responsibilities. I’m facing them head on!

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I didn’t walk this morning. I didn’t sleep well last night either. I’ve managed to get up and take a shower. Going to the library and then to my Mom’s for lunch. Hopefully I will find a little spark today!

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Monica, Money isn’t everything! I remember the endless phone calls and letters. It stopped when I went on my consolidation plan. It’s all a tiring experience. I’m sure your bankruptcy will go through before my debts ate repaid. I am trying! I believe everyone comes into you life for a reason. My friends are all very different people. Some have money and some have little. The ones with little are some of the most
generous people. It’s sad that people end their lives over money. I’ve had lean times and I’m sure I will on the future but I’m prioritizing what is important and trying to not get depressed. It will pass. My neighbor called this morning and asked if I would take her to the Dr’s this afternoon. I told her no and didn’t feel any guilt. Her Son came home early and took her. Our relationship consists of me taking her places. I’m nice but don’t want to be taken advantage of. Saying no is getting easier. No gambling thoughts today. Feeling blessed.

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I started off today with my morning walk even though I thought about for going it. I forced myself and in the end I was happy that I had gone. About my finances, too many bills next month, not enough money. I’ve prioritized my bills and the ones that automatically come out of my checking account. If I curtail a few bills, I will talk to the companies, I can pay the most important ones. Then I will have to catch up on those in August. Debt is depressing and exhausting. But I’m dealing with it! My friend called me today and her husband now has bladder cancer and has to have another surgery. She was in tears so I met her and we talked. She said she felt better afterwards. I felt exhausted but glad that I could be there for her. Honestly, it brought back memories regarding my Husband and made me very sad. Going to bed early. Need sleep.

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Hi Monicau, I hope my last post to you wasn’t preachy. I didn’t mean it that way. Being in debt is a awful feeling. I’ve never filed for bankruptcy but it must be scary. Being in debt is scary. I understand about the depression associated with it. Hang in there! Over 300 days gamble free! Be proud of your accomplishments. I hope to be there one day.

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Thank you for your post! Gambling isn’t the answer. Gambling, overspending and poor planning gas caused my debt and money worries. This too shall pass. I’m working on it! 12 more car payments. I will never buy a brand new car again. It will be used from now on and paid with cash. This October forward for the next 30 something months, I will be debt free from credit cards and loans. I’ve learned my lesson! My credit is poor but I do have a good payment history on my mortgage and car. I can rebuild it! Monica, I hope you can find a church that works for you. I’m on my quest and Sunday I will be visiting a new church. Here’s a fact about myself that few know, I’m a history buff. I’m watching some Dvds on the Amercuan Revolutionary time. Very interesting! I’ve already researched the history of the town I live in and i attend many of the events and talks that pur local historian presents. It’s something that fuels my attention.

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Thanks Laura for your supportive post! I’m happy that I have support here. I share almost everything here but there are a few details I like to keep private. I’m trying a different church this Sunday. I’m not giving up! Next month will be a juggling game as I have 2 yearly expenses coming up. I obviously didn’t plan well for them. I’m reading books on budgeting, money, ect…I figure I can learn something. I’m still living without cable and internet and surviving. I’m checking out movies from the library. It’s been a lifesaver! Continued patience is what I need to practice in my daily life.

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So this,morning I walked 2.11 mikes. I’m taking my neighbor to the library this morning. I’m feeling ok. Church wasn’t all that great. I didn’t feel the fellowship. Maybe it’s me. There are things happening in my life that I can’t discuss on this forum but they are deeply affecting Mr. I’m working through them, slowly. I have faith that I will come out of these trials for the better. The stress is a trigger for me. I pray I have the strength to get through this!!!

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It’s been a quiet day! I will be walking solo starting tomorrow. My Mother is unable physically to continue. Earlier I felt myself going into a pity party mood. Thinking of finances. About 1/2 of my monthly income goes to debts from gambling and overspending. After car,payment, insurance, and utilities, ect…i have roughly 8 percent to live off of monthly. I know I must learn patience. Starting in October, 1 debt will be paid and they will continue to be paid. I just feel discouraged sometimes. But I have to look at the big picture and remember what got me in this situation. I need to keep moving forward and try to be grateful for what I have. I will stay positive!

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Laura, I’m so sorry to hear about the death in your family. Being gamble free means you were able to be present for the funeral. Today has been so peaceful. I watched movies and took a nap. It’s still lightly raining which has caused the temperature to drop. Such a lovely day! Being gamble free is fantastic! But I am still working on the causes and stressors of what caused me to gamble. Although sometimes painful, this is part of my recovery. I’m so grateful for the support here and the love from a handful of friends I have whom I regard as family. Tomorrow I take another leap and go to a new church. It’s time.

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Long needed rain today! I’m staying in my PJS watching movies. My doors are opened. Smelling and hearing the gentle, light rain. So wonderful. Smells so clean. Yesterday my spirit was down. Just a mood I’ve been in. It seems like the harder I try, the more I struggle. Unexpected expense throws a wrench In my already tight budget. I thought of selling a few precious items but took them off the site. Just can’t part with them. I will get through. Yesterday I had a long phone conversation with a dear friend of 29 years. Afterwards, I felt better than I have in a long time. She loves me for me. We have a lot in common. She’s family. I have renewed hope that I can keep fighting this addiction and that I’m worthy of a great life!

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Bad day! Feel like I’m surrounded by negative people. My people pleaser side wants to make it better but that’s at my expense. So today, I will practice self care. I can’t change anyone but myself.

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I’ve been walking every morning and my Mom has joined me. So I’m going at a slower pace but that’s ok. We both need the exercise. I’m in a little better frame of mind. Things are ok in my life. It could be a lot worse. I hope everyone has a great gamble free day.

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Monica, I am digging myself out of my gambing mess, (debts) it’s hard to face but once you do, it’s freeing also. Try to only commit to what you can afford to pay. I don’t know what your options are where you live. Bankruptcy would have been easier that committing to paying off my debts but wasn’t a option for me because I wasn’t willing to sell assets. It will be alright. This is unfortunately one of the remainders of our gambling. Youv e been through so much and have overcome so much. You are a strong woman and will conquer this also!!!! Stay positive!!!

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Моника, я выкапываю себя из своего игрового беспорядка, (долги) с этим трудно справиться, но как только ты это сделаешь, это также освобождает. Старайтесь брать на себя обязательства только по тому, что вы можете позволить себе заплатить. Я не знаю, какие у вас есть варианты, где вы живете. Банкротство было бы проще, чем обязательство выплатить мои долги, но для меня это не было вариантом, потому что я не хотел продавать активы. Все будет хорошо. К сожалению, это один из остатков нашей игры. Вы через многое прошли и многое преодолели. Вы сильная женщина и это тоже победите !!!! Оставайся позитивным!!!

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