[lizbeth4]

Thanks Kathryn. I am succeeding! One day at a time. My life could be considered boring but I had lost the thrill of gambling way before I came here. My days are full of enjoyable weather for the most part, a nice home, yard and garden to tend to. Family and friends I love. So my life is pretty full. This morning I did some gardening and watering and cleaned my car. I’m finishing up some laundry before I head to the library to turn in some items. I’ve found another way to relax, music that incorporates ocean sounds. Of course found at the library. Hav e great gamble free weekend everyone!!!!

[lizbeth4]

I would like to post on others threads but my data is low. 2 more days till more data. My life is going well Just found out today that I have 44 more payments on owed taxes. Fortunately, the last 2 years, I had tax refunds that were put towards my debt. It’s doable and another lesson learned. Just visited the library and checked out music cds, movies and books. It gets warm in the afternoon so I have to hibernate as it’s too hot for yard work, ect. All that gets done in the morning. No lingering gambling urges or thoughts. I think I’vegpt this this time. Not getting complacent or letting my guard down. I’m going to succeed!!

[lizbeth4]

Yes, I’m plugging along! I guess I don’t give up I will feel much better when the debts start falling off starting in October. I’ve decided to take that money and deposit it monthly into my savings. My jewerly supplies have taken a back seat for awhile. I just don’t have the funds. I’m loving the library. Ours is very extensive for it being such a small town. I just started gardening 3 years ago. I did a lot of reading, ect..about it. I can’t wait for the fresh veggies. I love walking! I have a pretty good life. A lot to be grateful for. Life is good. Much better without gambling!

[lizbeth4]

I too had a traumatic event, when my Husband was sick and his death. The support here was amazing. I will never forget all the kindness. I’ve had positive events also, my youngest Daughters recovery and the birth of my Granddaughter which were celebrated by my friends here. Thanks to all of the people here, wether you are currently posting or not. I will never forget you. You made my struggles bearable.

[lizbeth4]

Keep posting! It will get easier as the days go by. Try to find something to do when you have urges. You can do it!!

[lizbeth4]

I went on my morning walk. I noticed my right knee starts hurting about 3/4 of the way. It feels better once I’m done. Probably arthritis!!! I rub a little bit of muscle cream on it, much better. I will work through it. Nothing is nearing fruit yet, but my garden plants are getting big and starting to flower. Maybe the m middle of July, I will have some fresh vegetables. It’s fun to watch everything grow and have the end product to enjoy. I’ve made my call this morning I will be able to juggle things so I can financially make I can make it next month. Yeah!! Then I can get back on track. My neighbor across the street is upset with me. She calls me and wants me to drop everything to take her places. Just because I’m home doesn’t mean I’m available. She’s getting pushy when I tell her no! She got along just fine before we started talking. Her Son is still there and can take care of her. She’s treating me more like her caregiver than her friend. So I’ve decided that I will limit my time with her. Anyways, today at the library a local author is giving a talk on her latest book. I’m going. It should be interesting. Keeping busy and gamble free!

[lizbeth4]

Thanks Maverick! I do have faith. And I believe you don’t have to go to church to be close to God. I’m on the roller coaster (life) with you. Thank you for the positive words and support. I’m grateful to have friends like you.

[lizbeth4]

Hi Monicau, You are keeping a good attitude during this time of future bankruptcy. I need to learn from you. We all know that with gambling addiction thete are consequences. Unfortunately, I didn’t realize how long and the struggle of digging out of the mess would be. Was it worth it! Yes, as it changes us and moving forward we are different, better people. I’m glad that your contract was extended and that you are looking forward to a spa break. Sounds wonderful and well deserved. Hope your back gets better soon. Take care.

[lizbeth4]

I didn’t make it to church. I will try again next Sunday. I didn’t sleep well and was feeling a lot of anxiety this morning. My general physicians appointment isn’t till August. I’m feeling a bit better after spending sometime outside, in the garden. I’m beginning to realize that a light antidepressant may help me. I’m open to anything that will lessen the anxiety. I’m staying home today and doing some laundry and watching movies. The walking, Monday-Friday does make me feel better both physically and mentally. That has to be my daily priority. One more phone call tomorrow and if that goes alright, I will be able to make it financially next month. August will be catch up month and from then forward, I will be alright. So many regrets associated with gambling. Nothing I can go back and fix. I can only learn and not make the same mistakes.

[lizbeth4]

Hi Monicau, I’m glad that your Son was there to take you home after the tests. Why did they give you a script for something you can’t take?? No alternatives? That’s very rude that Pete didn’t ask how you were. Sorry about the fridge. It’s been one thing after another for you. When it rains, it pours! Hopefully it will be replaced faster than the hot water heater. I hope you have a good weekend.

[lizbeth4]

After much introspection and praying, I’m happy to say that I haven’t gambled. I think those urges will always be there. I just have to make the choice to not engage. I thought everything through and I think I can make a few more adjustments to my budget to cover the yearly costs and buy food. I tend to go into panic mode when I don’t have enough money but I didn’t flinch when I was dropping tons of money into the slot machines. Go figure! I woke early and watered my growing garden and roses. I’m going to the library and then to visit my Mother. Tomorrow I’m attending a new church. I’m very excited and hopeful. I’m going to enjoy my day. Have a great gamble free weekend everyone!

[lizbeth4]

Кэтрин. Я так рада видеть тебя снова. Вам есть что предложить другим здесь, на этом форуме. Я часто думаю о тебе. Вы сыграли важную роль в моем выздоровлении. Никогда не переживешь смерть того, кого мы любили. Мы просто продолжаем идти. Я надеюсь, у Текса отличный день рождения. Не могу дождаться приезда твоей внучки. Любовь, которую мы испытываем к нашим внукам, бесценна! Они делают жизнь лучше. Я думаю, это замечательно, что ваш Сын помогает бездомным и что вы можете испытать это вместе с ним. Миру нужно больше таких заботливых людей, как он. Вы должны гордиться тем, что вырастили такого хорошего Сына. Заботиться.

[lizbeth4]

Kathryn. I’m so happy to see you back. You have a lot to offer others here on this forum. I think of you often. You’ve been instrumental in my recovery. You never get over a death of someone we loved. We just keep going. I hope Tex has a awesome birthday. I can’t wait till your Granddaughter arrives. The love we have for our Grandchildren is priceless! They make life better. I think it is wonderful that your Son helps the homeless and that you could experience it with him. The world needs more caring people like him. You should be proud that you’ve raised such a good Son. Take care.

[lizbeth4]

Stay strong! Keep posting. It’s easy to go back to the dark place-gambling but you can refrain. It’s normal to have a lot of different emotions right now. Day 7 will be here soon. Another day gamble free. Take care.

[lizbeth4]

I’m feeling defeated Today! I’ve called and had 2 loan payments put back on the end of the loans so I can pay the 2 yearly bills! I’m still a little short and left with no food money for next month. ????What to do???? I feel like I go backwards in my finances although I am trying to do my best. I won’t ask family for help. I feel like I’ve been enough of a burden in the past. Honestly, this is bringing up strong gambling thoughts. Maybe I can win some money. Which we all know won’t happen and I will be deeper in the hole. I’m trying to maintain a positive attitude but I feel like falling apart. I feel like I’m in a low place and I’m feeling very lonely. How did I let things get so bad. Why is my gambling aftermath still haunting me?? I’m tired, so tired of it.

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