[libu]

Sending love. Get well soon.
I’ve had alot of breakdowns the past few weeks? I feel so guilty and sad at myself for not protecting myself from this emotions that raise an urge , when I felt angry at everybody else in my home and felt less support I went a head and tried all I could to gamble again yet I did a lot of blockage for weeks, will this ever be over?

[libu]

I have self excluded myself from the sites I used to use , I have tried by all means to make sure my phone is off limits ,but I sometimes feel like I have put myself through too much when the urge arrives , but it helps when I talk to someone else whom I know will tell me it’s for the better.
Everyday is harder when you have debts and you don’t have a plan how you are going to pay them up when month-end keeps approaching …but one day at the time, I’ll keep pushing and getting stronger

[libu]

Thank you so much for your kind words.
I will keep talking to a councelor, the first day I did it felt so good and I never thought I’d open up about this and feel so positive about myself.

[libu]

Thanks for sharing your story with us,I can well relate , the load I’m feeling on my shoulders is like I can wake up to a new job or something. I don’t know how I’m going to settle my debts, I feel shameful even when I think of asking them for help coz I confessed before and apologized now I’ve done it again . I never knew there is really a point where you feel like disappearing in life , I’ll never ever judge anybody again

[libu]

It’s my first day. I wish I could turn the clock also and refresh my life. It’s so sad to live like this whereby you cannot be trusted anymore,, and you cannot trust yourself too because something is busy haunting you whenever you try to fix your life. It feels like my whole life since I no longer buy anything for myself, I keep hiding money from my partner and my family, can’t even fix my own hair coz everytime I have money I think of how I can increase it. I am exhausted ,my shoulders feel so heavy , I don’t even know how to start this journey but I know I want to, I need to settle my debts ,and live freely, I hope I survive .

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