[Liberty]

I too have all those thoughts of all the displaced notes, when all the world is sleeping and my sheep are not even bleating .

[Liberty]

it was good to chat to you too.
I actually went out today, had a lovely couple of hours walk in the woods, it was so peaceful, the sun was shining, evidence of spring was around, yellow gorse just in bloom, little brooks and streams were flowing freely, it is the nesting mating season of the birds , three types of woodpecker dwell in these woods. I feel at home in the woods, I would like to have built myself a little den and stayed there, but then that is just the escaping, as I arrived back in my street, the song back to life back to reality came to mind,I seem to be filled with songs recently, a song for every reason., never mind the season.
Spring is quite possibly my favourite time of year, the promise of new life is all around, I would like to think that this spring something new could emerge from within me.
But you know want they say wishes without actions are just wishes and dreams forever to remain in that state.

[Liberty]

great post, one thing that stood out is ‘if I had the intelligence…’ Maverick, do not put yourself down this addiction has nothing to do with intelligence. I too get totally consumed with gambling thoughts and fantasies, but the good thing about it is I am aware of that now and being aware is my protection. The Meetings you go to are great, you are doing everything you can to be in control of your addiction, YOU are in charge and not it, I think the more it realises that then in time it will start to become less demanding of you, its like it saying come on Mav, I am here listen to me, tell it to do one Mav, remember how bad it makes us feel and it is not about the money winning big, it convinces us that if we have that big win then we can say goodbye forever, do you think we would all be here if that really was the case?
I always read your posts, I wonder about you if there are less posts so it is great that you post all about how things are with you, let the truth out, not allow the demon to hide, its like the old exorcism’s , Satan get thee behind thee, sounds crazy but it helps me 🙂
Take care Mav, chat soon, you are doing really well.
( I used to be The.End but someone else joined with same name so changed it plus not a very positive user name for me anymore)

[Liberty]

I identify with all you say, the night at times is never ending but we know that morning will appear, our chance to start afresh, yesterday, today and tomorrow we have been shown that promise will never be broken, time for me to remember that and be grateful for the opportunities that still exist to make amends for all my wrongs and there is an abundance or those!

[Liberty]

please don’t give up on posting on your journal, you posted in mine, let us know how things are with you.
You say you are hoping that the money you lost last week will be the last, hope alone won’t do it, we need to put practical measures in place, I hope you managed to go to one of the new member groups or any others to get the help and support you deserve, as you have learned in the past, doing it alone does not work!
Congratulations too on the wonderful forthcoming event Uncle 🙂

[Liberty]

beliefs
I don’t believe
I can’t believe
I don’t know how to believe
Do I want to believe?
Do I need to believe ?
Yes yes
My belief, your belief
True belief
Faith.
No science, no physics
Truth
Yes the truth will set you free.
Believe,
Don’t give up the fight.
Sorry but there is a programme malfunction the machine is out of order.

[Liberty]

And I’d give up forever to touch you
‘Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You’re the closest to heaven that I’ll ever be
And I don’t wanna go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
When sooner or later it’s over
I just don’t wanna miss you tonight

And I don’t want the world to see me
‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can’t fight the tears that ain’t coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know you’re alive

And I don’t want the world to see me
‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don’t want the world to see me
‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don’t want the world to see me
‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

[Liberty]

well, here I am again, so tired really need to sleep but so many thoughts running through me, under me and over me, where do they come from? I just want to sleep, I have realised what my head vibrations are, since during gambling they don’t ever happen, they are a definite physical withdrawal symptom, so how damaged must my brain be? I wonder if anyone else has experienced, if heroin was my drug (and I thank the good Lord that it is not) I would be dead now. Please release me let me go …….

[Liberty]

Thank you for your message. I will mention it to her although I can’t see her coming to the group. I agree wholeheartedly with the light shining on it, it loves darkness living in the undergrowth its own private world of destruction.

[Liberty]

thank you for your msg. Yes, I have things in place, blocks but they can be knocked down in an instant, in fact when you really had no idea that there was a gambling session in the making…

[Liberty]

theend, how are things with you?

[Liberty]

You have the will, you will never be beat, hope is always there, detours aplenty, use a sat nav 🙂

[Liberty]

You have the will, you will never be beat, hope is always there, detours aplenty, use a sat nav 🙂

[Liberty]

we can break free.

[Liberty]

we can break free.

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