After reading all of the comments in just one day had given me the motivation I need, I’m seeking financial support as well as contacted someone about mental health problems. I didn’t think reading the reply would give that push but maybe it’s just what I needed. Il keep got updated and thank you to everyone who has supported me by replying.
I don’t have anyone, just me, I have to find 1980. How is that even possible, I know in a few month it’ll all be okay but right now I’m going to loose everything and no one will help 🙁 it’s like there’s rock bottom, 50 tonne of crap and then me.