[Krrycllr]

I am a new member and your story mirrors mine with the exception of I haven’t told my husband yet.i have told other family members . just wanted to say that I admire your courage for having that honesty with your partner.your braverywill serve as a strength .

I too imagine the things I want if I won but when I have won .I have just experienced nothing and compulsively hit the button…..because it was never enough.it would never be enough because it didn’t remove that bleak void inside.depression _gamble.chicken or egg ?I don’t know which one came first but both have a love hate relationship with each other
currently my support is
blocked out the gambling with apps and self exclusion .telling them i have aproblem and to not let me join.
blocking browser app so i dont look for more
setting myself a goals a day to do something manageable and different.yesterday was listening to people and showing interest in them .
I listen to a mindfulness app to go to sleep which sends me to sleep and blocks out thoughts.
today in this moment I feel strong and I will stop .I am going to bank that feeling as that feels good.
today one of my 2 supporters is meeting mefor a dog walk .I hope you can find the strength to do 1 thing today that will help you feel that you are worth it

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