[kin]

Hi treehead,

I could stop but I could not stay stop in gambling
I keep on trying for 16 years in GT
I am going to turn 59 this year
This is the longest I have ever stay stop for 362 days.
There are many in here who have done more gamble free days than me.

looking forward to reading your updates.

[kin]

Hi risingphoenix

You have definitely inspired me to count my gamble free days for the right reason. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

[kin]

I was in the audience and a female speaker said this with a very powerful and strong voice
“BLACK IS BLACK, WHITE IS WHITE, THERE IS NO GREY.”
She was the wife of the founder who runs a Christian residential rehabilitation program
Imagine being shouted at with these words…haha

It has help me when I am facing test, trial, and temptation
it has helps me to decide what is right and wrong, there is no compromise.
No cheat day for me.

• This reply was modified 10 months ago by kin.

[kin]

Hi Kathryn,

You are somebody everyone respect and look up in here.
I am sure it will be the same.

I can feel that I am nearing the tail end of my recovery after 16 years in GT.
I hope to speak the truth and carry the message of hope.

I can stop but I cannot stay stop
my strength can help me to stop but it cannot help me to stay stop

It was the power of Jesus Christ who help me to stay stop
I was baptized on 28 July 2024

• This reply was modified 10 months ago by kin.

[kin]

Hi Kathryn,

Looking forward to your next post. Thank you.

[kin]

What will be my last words in GT if I had a chance

I have been journaling for 16 years since year 2008, the same year Spain won the UEFA Euro 2008.
I never give up trying, I keep on trying and trying until I could stay stop in my self-destructive ways.

I succeeded in quitting alcohol, slot machine, baccarat, sex and doctor’s prescribe drugs
I did them to get high and escape. I have lost count of the number of years I stop them.
Some for more than 10 years.

I enjoy sports and I have gamble on soccer
That has to stop too and my last bet on soccer was 23 April 2024.
I did not gamble on anything else. Gamble free days: 358

Lastly, I wish to do something about my overeating habit.
I am always work in progress and under construction.

• This reply was modified 10 months ago by kin.
• This reply was modified 10 months ago by kin.

[kin]

I am human, I can forget. I hope that I will never forget this particular post.

Never leave the group!

I have witness many people returning to the gambling support groups in Singapore over the last 12 months saying the same thing,

“Don’t leave the group!”

Every single one of them have multiple years of gamble free time. 2yrs, 4yrs, 8yrs and 10yrs gamble free time under their belt and they relapse. it was real painful to watch someone I know relapsed.

Man is fallible. No one is perfect. Their sharing really humbled me.
I am no better than another person. I am no stronger than another person.
I can have my weak and vulnerable moments like everyone.

My strength is limited and can help me to stop,
but I need a Higher Power who can provide me unlimited and lasting strength to stay stop.
I need to connect to God and people to stay safe and protected.

Otherwise, it is jail, institution, broken family, homelessness, lost saving, lost job and lost income for me.
Spiritually, Mentally, Emotionally, Financially and Physically Bankrupt!

Last bet 23 April 2024
Gamble free days – 355

[kin]

Hi Kathryn,

It was real nice to see you posting again.
Your experience in recovery has been an invaluable asset to the recovery community.
I hope your return will lead to many others like P and Vera.

I miss Ken. I am very sure many people he touch feels the same.
He never fail to throw the lifesaver to the man in the water.

[kin]

Last bet 23 April 2024
Gamble free days – 353

[kin]

I only stayed gamble free for 348 days.
The money I saved was enough to fully pay for the renovation.

I did not need to fear or worry.
I only need to stop gambling.
This will straighten my path.

[kin]

Last bet 23 April 2024
Gamble free days – 345

I have finally completed the purchase of a small apartment
I collected the keys today. It is fully paid.

[kin]

Last bet 23 April 2024
Gamble free days – 340

[kin]

I can stop with my limited strength anytime

but I need God’s unlimited strength to help me to stay stop in Jesus’s merciful name.

[kin]

One baby step forward at a time.
When you slip and fall, done give up!
When you slip and fall, get up!

One day at a time.
Don’t give up, get up!

[kin]

After staying gamble free for one year, I will have it
After staying gamble free for two years, I will have bit
After staying gamble free for three years, I will have abit
After staying gamble free for four years, I will have habit

[Author]

Posts