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Hi Laura,
Thank you for taking the time to post some encouraging words on my thread. Recovery for me was not perfect too, everyday was one day at a time and this journey is for a lifetime. I wish you success in staying gamble free! May you have peace, joy, happiness and good health in the year 2019!

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I don’t know why? I don’t understand why?

After my mentor prayed for me in the last meeting, I was not even worried at all about the aftermath of my last gambling loss now. I had this calm and stability everyday like nothing has happen.

When the priority was set in the right place. With God leading everything, the strong family support and the stable job. This is going to be a good year by the mercy and grace of God. I really believe this is going to be the beginning of many good years.

I have money but I don’t gamble by God’s grace.

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Year 2019 is setting me up for something different in recovery.
They say that fasting get me disconnected to the world and prayer get me connected to God.
I watched and notice how my life in the last one week has been change and the focus was more on prayer and not gambling after the last meeting with my mentor. I felt the change and read my journal to confirm. I was actually reading and quoting more scriptures in the last few years and little or none prayer.
I was never able to pray like now in my life simply because firstly, I don’t have a Higher Power, secondly, after I found a Higher Power in Lord Jesus Christ, I don’t know what to pray and how to pray even though I have been reciting the serenity prayer in the last 13 years attending GA and AA meetings.

Isaiah 43:7 KJV:
every one that is called by my name: for I have created him for my glory

Glory belongs to our God and Father forever and ever! Amen.

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I find GT so important to my progress and growth in recovery. I am really thankful to the management, the staff and the fellow recovery person on this site.

GT was a gem and treasure box for my recovery. I was able to revisit my journal during one of the darkest period in my recovery a few years back. I remember being hunted by money lenders, heavily in debts, relationship with my family members was not good and I cannot share my problem with them, I was jobless and broke, my 89 years old mother was getting in and out of hospital, the most life threatening one was the cancer plus my physical and mental health was bad.

How did I survive and walk out of all that? I cannot remember very clearly anymore.

GT provided what I need. I revisited my journal from that period to remember the kind of stress, pain and suffering, vulnerability, helplessness and hopelessness I was under.

Where did all the strength come from?

How did I survive with almost nothing, empty, or little with hope, gratitude, contentment, joy and happiness. I can remember that it was so bad and I was near to giving up, I have nothing left except God and a praying man who became my mentor today to walk with me and a journal in GT.

Thank you God, my mentor and GT for the memories and support!

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I was a gambler…With God’s grace, I am no longer! Amen!

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Repeat the following prayer loudly to be delivered from the Occult, Evil Spirits and evil thoughts, words or deeds.

Thank you, Lord Jesus, for dying for my sins, thank you for your resurrection and for making me a new person through faith in your precious blood.

Dear Lord, I confess that in the past through my ignorance, curiosity, foolishness or willfulness, I have disobeyed your Word. I now ask you to help me as I renounce all those things. Please Lord, cleanse me in body, mind, soul and spirit.

Satan, I am closing any door which I may have opened to you and your demons. Under the authority of Jesus Christ and by the power of the Holy Ghost, I renounce all contacts or any involvement with Satan, and demon worship.

I renounce every cult that denies the blood of Jesus Christ and every philosophy which denies the Divinity of the Lord Jesus and the Trinity.

Lord I confess the sin of seeking from self or Satan the help that should have only come from God.

I confess my sin of gambling and also those occult sins I cannot remember.

I renounce all psychic heredity that I may have had and break any demonic hold and curses over myself and my family line back to Adam and Eve on both sides of my parents through the power of the blood of the Lord Jesus Christ.

Lord I now repent and renounce all those sins and ask you to forgive me (1John 1:9).

I renounce Satan and all his works. I c.o.u.n.t them as my enemies. I now close the door to all practices and command all such spirits to leave me in the mighty name of Jesus Christ.

I renounce the evil spirits which entered through my thought, eyes, participation, transfer or by inheritance and command all the demons to come out of my body and organs, lips, tongue, taste buds, throat, and mind in the name of Jesus Christ my Savior.

Heavenly Father, I come to you in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ. I believe that he is the Son of God Who takes away the sin of all those who repent and confess him as Lord. I believe that the blood of Jesus Christ cleanses me from all sin.

I claim freedom from all filth which has come through my eyes, my ears, my mind or through actual participation in sin.

In particular, I confess the following: all preoccupation with gambling, the sensual desire and appetites, and indulgences of them; all longing and ardent desire and lust for what is forbidden.

In the name of Jesus Christ, I now rebuke and loose myself and my family from any and all evil curses, fetishes, charms, love potions all psychic powers, sorcery, bewitchments, enchantments, hexes, spells, every jinx, and psychic prayers which have been put upon us, from both sides of generations of my father and mother back to Adam and Eve.

I break and loose myself from any connected or related spirits from any person or persons or from any occult or psychic source.

I hereby reclaim all ground that I have ever given to Satan in body, mind, soul, or spirit.

I dedicate myself to you Dear Lord, to be used for Your glory alone.

I want You to control and empower every area of my life, including all my thought, emotions and feelings; that from now on that I might be used according to your will.

I also now give to You my affections, emotions and desires, and request that they might be motivated and controlled by Your Holy Spirit.

I hereby claim, total victory and freedom from all my former Bondages. In Jesus Christ’ name I ask. – Amen.

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I can do everything with the help of Christ who gives me the strength I need to live happily and peacefully with much or little, on almost nothing or with everything, full stomach or empty, with plenty or little.

Lord I confess the sin of seeking from self, the help that should have only come from God.

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 The apostle Paul wrote:

“ I have learned how to get along happily whether I have much or little.

I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything.

I have learned the secret of living with every situation,

whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little.”

For I can do everything with the help of Christ who gives me the strength I need. ( Philippians 4:11-13 )

Hi Jen,

Thank you for the prayer. You are in my thought and I have prayed for you too.

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I was a gambler. With God’s grace…I am no longer in Jesus almighty name. Amen!

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The apostle Paul wrote: “ I have learned how to get along happily whether I have much or little. I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything. I have learned the secret of living with every situation, whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little.” For I can do everything with the help of Christ who gives me the strength I need. ( Philippians 4:11-13 )

Serenity is having an inner calm in the midst of ups and down of life.

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Hi Lizbeth4, 

I really appreciate your moral support and thank you for kind words! I just copied and paste some thing I post on 23rd February 2016.

Matthew 14:27 > When the disciples saw Jesus walking on the sea, they were terrified, and said, “It is a ghost!” and they cried out in fear.

Matthew 14:28 > Jesus spoke to them at once. “Don’t be afraid,” he said. “Take courage. I am here!”

Matthew 14:29 > “Come,” Jesus said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus.

Matthew 14:30 > But when Peter saw the strong wind and the waves, he was terrified and began to sink, he cried out, “Lord, save me!”

Matthew 14:31 > Jesus immediately reached out and grabbed him. “You have so little faith,” Jesus said. “Why did you doubt me?”

Below are some similar teaching

“Let us keep our eyes fixed on Jesus, on whom our faith depends from beginning to end.” Hebrews 12:2 (GNT)

In dog obedience training, they put a dog at one end of a room and its master at the other end of the room, with a plate of food in the middle. And then the master calls the dog. If the dog eyes the food, he’s a goner; he’ll go straight for it. So they teach the dog to focus his eyes on the master. If the dog keeps his eyes on the master, he won’t be tempted. Instead of heading for the food, he’ll head straight to the master.

You need to keep your eyes on your master or you’ll get distracted. Get your mind off your circumstances and your problems and focus on God’s goodness to you in your past, his closeness to you in your present and his power to help you in your future.

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Hi Monica, Thank you for this loving post.

These trigger are just my guess.

1. I was focusing on my problem and feeling, and have taken my eyes off God.

2. When the new year arrive, I tried to be a good brother and son by contributing double the usual money to the family. I was really stressed by the festive season, I do not have a buffer or surplus saving for it. I had the same feeling last year.

I have met my mentor and confess everything to him last week, one of my takeaway from this meeting was positive confession. He shared with me how negative confession can invite Satan into our lives. This is a spiritual war for me.

I cannot gamble and I am turning to God.

Sister Monica, you are a inspiration and a good role model for me in the last 18 months. I plan to do the same. The relationship with the family is good, and I have a stable income by the mercy and grace of God. 

God was faithful to me, I must be faithful to God, I need to be patient, and discipline in my repayment plan, my finance will improve in 10 months time. I am grateful for everything.

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I have allowed my full-blown relapse to happen in December 2018.
There is really a lot in common between my addiction to substance and behavior.
Firstly, one time is never enough, you desire to do it again. Secondly, it is a progressive illness. I can still stop in the beginning, but a time will come when I cannot stop. Thirdly, I was able to hit rock bottom in each and every single one of them.
With food and alcohol, it affected my health seriously; mentally and emotionally. With sex, it made me do the most immoral and shameful things. With gambling, I would ended up broke one day.
When I was acting out my addiction recently. I ask myself many times. It has not happened to me yet, I was still able to stop. What is happening? I found out “again”, it may not have happened immediately, but slowly and surely, it will happen to me one day, without fail.
It was sick to say that I was grateful and contented to feel vulnerable, this feeling kept me vigilant and cautious because I love to do all the wrong things when I do not feel weak and vulnerable. I was feeling hopeful, manageable and confident that I can manage my life, before I made the most foolish decision and took the biggest gamble to relapse.
It wouldn’t have happened if I was grateful and contented and not selfish, self-centered and self-seeking. It happens because I put myself first before God, my family and everything else. I do not care about anyone except my desire to feed my thought and feeling.
My action caused me to be bankrupt financially, spiritually, mentally, emotionally, physically. Worst still, I could have lost my life, end up in jail or hospital.

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Nowaday, in the morning before work, I will say The Lord’s Prayer.

Dear Heavenly Father, Honor be thy name May your WILL be done on earth as it is done in heaven Forgive me my debt as I forgive me my debtor Grant me my daily bread today Protect me from the evil ones Do not let me fall into temptations Thy Kingdom, The Power, Thy Glory forever, and forever In Jesus almighty name, Amen!

After I finish work in the night everyday, I decide to made the positive confession.

I was a gambler…With God’s grace, I am no longer. Amen!

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I was a gambler…With God’s grace, I am no longer. Amen!

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