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Dear diary,

1. There are more important things in life than my gambling

2. I believe in God’s plan and timing

3. I deserve all the punishment and consequences of my sin but was save and survive by the grace of God.

Today was my 11th day. I tried to abstain from my staple diet of rice and anything with sugar. I confess that I cannot help sinning in other ways, it reflect on my vulnerability and weakness as man.

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Hi Vera
I am also fasting now but choose to stay away from carbo and sugar. It is day number 6 for me today. I did felt hunger especially at night and was thinking how you are doing with your fast. Cheers and support!

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Thank you, Lord Jesus, for dying for my sins, thank you for your resurrection and for making me a new person through faith in your precious blood.

Dear Lord Jesus, I confess that in the past through my ignorance, curiosity, foolishness or willfulness, I have disobeyed your Word. I now ask you to help me as I give up all those things. Please Lord Jesus, cleanse me in body, mind, soul and spirit.

Satan, I am closing any door which I may have opened to you and your demons in the mighty name of the Lord Jesus Christ.

Under the authority of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the power of the Holy Ghost, I reject all contacts or any involvement with Satan, and demon worship.

I reject every cult that denies the blood of the Lord Jesus Christ and every philosophy which denies the Divinity of the Lord Jesus and the Trinity.

Lord Jesus, I confess the sin of seeking from self or Satan the help that should have only come from God. I confess my sin of my gambling and also those sins I cannot remember.

In the mighty name of the Lord Jesus Christ, I reject all psychic heredity that I may have had and break any demonic hold and curses over myself and my family line back to Adam and Eve on both sides of my parents through the power of the blood of the Lord Jesus Christ.

Lord I now repent and renounce all those sins and ask you to forgive me (1 John 1:9).

In the mighty name of the Lord Jesus Christ, I reject Satan and all his works. I ***** them as my enemies. I now close the door to all practices and command all such spirits to leave me in the mighty name of the Lord Jesus Christ.

In the mighty name of the Lord Jesus Christ, I reject the evil spirits which entered through my thoughts, my eyes, my participation, transfer or by inheritance and command all the demons to come out of my body and organs, lips, tongue, taste buds, throat, and mind in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ my Savior.

Heavenly Father, I come to you in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ. I believe that he is the Son of God Who takes away the sin of all those who repent and confess him as Lord. I believe that the blood of Jesus Christ cleanses me from all sin.

I claim freedom from all sins which has come through my eyes, my ears, my mind or through my actual participation in the mighty name of the Lord Jesus Christ.

In particular, I confess the following: all preoccupation with gambling, the sensual desire and appetites, and indulgences of them; all the craving thought, urge, desire and lust for what is forbidden.

In the mighty name of the Lord Jesus Christ, I now rebuke and loose myself and my family from any and all evil curses, fetishes, charms, love potions all psychic powers, sorcery, bewitchments, enchantments, hexes, spells, every jinx, and psychic prayers which have been put upon us, from both sides of generations of my father and mother back to Adam and Eve.

In the mighty name of the Lord Jesus Christ, I break and loose myself from any connected or related spirits from any person or persons or from any occult or psychic source.

In the mighty name of the Lord Jesus Christ, I hereby reclaim all ground that I have ever given to Satan in body, mind, soul, or spirit.

I dedicate myself to you Dear Lord Jesus Christ, to be used for Your glory alone.

I want You Dear Lord Jesus Christ to control and empower every area of my life, including all my thoughts, emotions and feelings; that from now on that I might be used according to your will.

I also now give to You Dear Lord Jesus Christ my affections, emotions and desires, and request that they might be motivated and controlled by Your Holy Spirit.

I hereby claim, total victory and freedom from all my former Bondages in Jesus Christ almighty name I ask. Amen.

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I choose to fast from carbohydrates and sugar. My third day of fasting coming to an end soon.

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Thank you, Lord Jesus, for dying for my sins, thank you for your resurrection and for making me a new person through faith in your precious blood.

Dear Lord Jesus, I confess that in the past through my ignorance, curiosity, foolishness or willfulness, I have disobeyed your Word. I now ask you to help me as I give up all those things. Please Lord, cleanse me in body, mind, soul and spirit.

Satan, I am closing any door which I may have opened to you and your demons in the mighty name of the Lord Jesus Christ.

Under the authority of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the power of the Holy Ghost, I reject all contacts or any involvement with Satan, and demon worship.

I reject every cult that denies the blood of the Lord Jesus Christ and every philosophy which denies the Divinity of the Lord Jesus and the Trinity.

Lord, I confess the sin of seeking from self or Satan the help that should have only come from God. I confess my sin of my gambling and also those sins I cannot remember.

In the mighty name of the Lord Jesus Christ, I reject all psychic heredity that I may have had and break any demonic hold and curses over myself and my family line back to Adam and Eve on both sides of my parents through the power of the blood of the Lord Jesus Christ.

Lord I now repent and renounce all those sins and ask you to forgive me (1 John 1:9).

In the mighty name of the Lord Jesus Christ, I reject Satan and all his works. I c.o.u.n.t. them as my enemies. I now close the door to all practices and command all such spirits to leave me in the mighty name of the Lord Jesus Christ.

In the mighty name of the Lord Jesus Christ, I reject the evil spirits which entered through my thoughts, my eyes, my participation, transfer or by inheritance and command all the demons to come out of my body and organs, lips, tongue, taste buds, throat, and mind in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ my Savior.

Heavenly Father, I come to you in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ. I believe that he is the Son of God Who takes away the sin of all those who repent and confess him as Lord. I believe that the blood of Jesus Christ cleanses me from all sin.

I claim freedom from all sins which has come through my eyes, my ears, my mind or through my actual participation in the mighty name of the Lord Jesus Christ.

In particular, I confess the following: all preoccupation with gambling, the sensual desire and appetites, and indulgences of them; all the craving thought, urge, desire and lust for what is forbidden.

In the name of the Lord Jesus Christ, I now rebuke and loose myself and my family from any and all evil curses, fetishes, charms, love potions all psychic powers, sorcery, bewitchments, enchantments, hexes, spells, every jinx, and psychic prayers which have been put upon us, from both sides of generations of my father and mother back to Adam and Eve.

In the name of the Lord Jesus Christ, I break and loose myself from any connected or related spirits from any person or persons or from any occult or psychic source.

In the name of the Lord Jesus Christ, I hereby reclaim all ground that I have ever given to Satan in body, mind, soul, or spirit.

I dedicate myself to you Dear Lord Jesus Christ, to be used for Your glory alone.

I want You Dear Lord Jesus Christ to control and empower every area of my life, including all my thoughts, emotions and feelings; that from now on that I might be used according to your will.

I also now give to You Dear Lord Jesus Christ my affections, emotions and desires, and request that they might be motivated and controlled by Your Holy Spirit.

I hereby claim, total victory and freedom from all my former Bondages in Jesus Christ almighty name I ask. Amen.

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Thank you Vera for the wonderful post on Lent. It was very helpful and new to me.

The message that I want to convey to my damage brain today is this:

I want to gamble but I don’t “need” to gamble. The whole world is telling me I don’t “need” to gamble

The willfulness, ignorance, foolishness, curiosity, strong self-belief, stubbornness and pride inside me is not “willing” to be “humble,” “obedience,” “submissive and follow” a good orderly direction. I rest my case.

I am not giving the liar inside me the chance to deceive me today, it is all a lie.

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Hi Sister Vera,

The message in your story is the same. The success in recovery come from a Higher Power and that Higher Power was not “me” ” I” “myself.” In this case, the Higher Power was a group call GA.

Just read your post in Ididit, can you share with me about your plan to starve for 6 weeks before Lent kick in, I am interested to follow.

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Hi Sister Vera,

Today was a Friday, I knew my weakness and I choose to slow down, I apply for leave from my full time work and relax today.

For years, I have been trying to keep myself alive. I am prone to doing things that a normal person will not do and getting myself into all sort of troubles. I was always kicking under water trying to keep myself afloat, at times I look good like a duck on the water but underneath the water, I was kicking hard for my life. Why don’t I just let go and relax, instead of panic and worry, maybe I will float on the water…haha

Let God and Let God………Sister Jen

Just read Vera post in Ididit thread and google online, I have made up my mind to fast, God help me please.

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I was a gambler…With God’s grace, I am no longer! Amen.

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As hard as I try to do something new and different. The thorns in my flesh remain and something I need to accept.

I was very focus on prayer this time last month and it help me stay gamble free. However, the familiar problem are still there, every week I can get mentally tired by thursday and friday and physically tired too on Saturday as a result of work, I become more vulnerable and prone to sin of all kind.

I need to work harder to stay focus!

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I cannot explain the things that I did – Thorns in my flesh.

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I was having breakfast just now when I suddenly recall what it felt like gambling a month ago. I was betting half my salary on each bet without any caution and proper risk management. They are all considered highly risky and big bet for me.

I was chasing after a lie and gambling blindly; my mind was all cloudy, I was in a daze and numb, it was in a trance like state, I cannot feel any pain and shock when I lost the money. It was a scary situation to be in.

In the last few days, I wanted to gamble again because I cannot remember how scary it can be. I cannot understand why my brain can switch off and go blank. I cannot remember everything; I can forget and want to repeat the same behavior.

Today, my brain suddenly switches on and remember. Thank God I did not gamble when I wanted to gamble.

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It was simply incredible when I approach the legal money lender out of desperation, panick and confusion last month and they actually turn me away. I found out my credit rating was good, the bank will likely approve any loan or credit facility I ask but the money lender turn me down.  Somehow I escape from the legal money lender.I will not do this again. I will never forget this day.

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Last pay day, I was tired. I had money. I want to gamble. I gambled.

This pay day, I was tired. I had money. I want to gamble. I pray to God. I did not gamble. All glory to God!

What I want is not what I need, I want to gamble but I dont need to gamble.

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There was a war going inside me in the last 24 hours. One side want me to trust myself, one side want me to trust God and endure all the way. This battle is over now.

The side that chooses the Higher Power won this time, this Higher Power is not me.

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