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I was accuse of something I did not do at work and it trigger flashback of all the things I did not do but was accuse of committing by people in my work over the year.

I was normally discipline, mature and professional in my work and do not allow them to affect me in my practice but not this time. I thought I could shake it off during lunchtime but it didn’t. I was trigger and badly affected emotionally.

Step 1 of Emotional Anonymous

We admitted we were powerless over our emotions, that our lives had become unmanageable.

I decided to apply half day leave in the afternoon to let the matter pass. I went to attend the NA meeting in the evening. I was not ashamed to share that I was accused of cheating, of cause I did not cheat.

I know customer can say any irresponsible things they like but It still hurts very bad when I strive to be honest and hardworking.

I place priority on my recovery over work. After a few hours away from work. I was feeling charge up again. Time heal everything.

Yes, if I lose this job, my repayment plan will be in trouble. But if I need to lose this job to safeguard my recovery, I would do it.

I read this message today.

We need to always keep in mind that what we need is not always what we want. God knows our needs even if we do not. And he will fullfill our needs through Christ to show His glory, not to fullfill our personal desires.

I thought this walk would be easy but it is turning into a spiritual warfare.

In the past, this was a perfect excuse to turn to alcohol or gambling, now I turn to a support group meeting to cope with my sick feeling.

No one believe me today. My face was bloody red due to my eczema outbreak, a recovery center director question me why my face is red, maybe she thought I was drinking….haha…what a bad day.

This too shall pass.

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agrees with RG

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The devil / addiction want me to gamble.

It want me to continue gambling.

It want me to feel ashame and embarrass, sink into self pity and self beating mode. It does not want me to pick myself up.

It did not want me to return to the flock of sheep / recovering people where I belong because I am more vulnerable and easier to be attack when I am alone.

It will attack my pride and ego, my pride and ego would tell me big lies saying; I know what I am doing; I am strong enough; I am in full control; I am very careful; I do not need them; I am invinsible and powerful; It want me to walk away from the recovery community, recovery places and recovery support group meetings.

It has come to steal, kill and destroy.

It did not want to see me get healed, cured, improved, better and recovered.

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Job 1: 13 – 22 Good News Translation (GNT)

¹³ One day when Job’s children were having a feast at the home of their oldest brother, ¹⁴ a messenger came running to Job. “We were plowing the fields with the oxen,” he said, “and the donkeys were in a nearby pasture. ¹⁵ Suddenly the Sabeans^[d] attacked and stole them all. They killed every one of your servants except me. I am the only one who escaped to tell you.”

¹⁶ Before he had finished speaking, another servant came and said, “Lightning struck the sheep and the shepherds and killed them all. I am the only one who escaped to tell you.”

¹⁷ Before he had finished speaking, another servant came and said, “Three bands of Chaldean^[e] raiders attacked us, took away the camels, and killed all your servants except me. I am the only one who escaped to tell you.”

¹⁸ Before he had finished speaking, another servant came and said, “Your children were having a feast at the home of your oldest son, ¹⁹ when a storm swept in from the desert. It blew the house down and killed them all. I am the only one who escaped to tell you.”

²⁰ Then Job got up and tore his clothes in grief. He shaved his head and threw himself face downward on the ground. ²¹ He said, “I was born with nothing, and I will die with nothing. The Lord gave, and now he has taken away. May his name be praised!”

²² In spite of everything that had happened, Job did not sin by blaming God.

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Job 1: 6 – 11 Good News Translation (GNT)

⁶ When the day came for the heavenly beings^[b] to appear before the Lord, Satan^[c] was there among them. ⁷ The Lord asked him, “What have you been doing?”

Satan answered, “I have been walking here and there, roaming around the earth.”

⁸ “Did you notice my servant Job?” the Lord asked. “There is no one on earth as faithful and good as he is. He worships me and is careful not to do anything evil.”

⁹ Satan replied, “Would Job worship you if he got nothing out of it? ¹⁰ You have always protected him and his family and everything he owns. You bless everything he does, and you have given him enough cattle to fill the whole country. ¹¹ But now suppose you take away everything he has—he will curse you to your face!”

¹² “All right,” the Lord said to Satan, “everything he has is in your power, but you must not hurt Job himself.” So Satan left.

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If it did not happen to me now, the answer is not yet.

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When you are in a hole. Stop the digging.

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Like any other chronic illness, addiction is a disease of remission and relapse. If a person with diabetes develops high blood sugar level or a person with high blood pressure had high blood pressure, it is considered a progression of the illness, yet many battling addictions expect perfection in recovery. Why is addiction not approached in the same way?

When we stay stop in gambling, it is in remission. When we are not careful, it can relapse.

We seek progress, not perfection in recovery but many expect perfection in their recovery. Are we are setting ourselves up for more misery and disappointment.

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Dear Vera
Allow me to borrow some wise words from Meghna.
Accept the loss, let it go, it is not coming back.
Stop chasing, it will only cause more damage.
it will not get better; it will only get worse.

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Hi Meghna
I am glad to see you visiting the recovery tool forum. Many kind people there are sharing very useful information to help us strengthen each step we take in recovery.

God bless!

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Are you worried that your gambling gets out of control when you drink, or do you drink more when you gamble? 

Here are signs to look out for if you are concerned about your drinking and gambling

How they go together

For some people having a drink and placing a bet may just be a part of a night out with friends. But for many others, both gambling and alcohol consumption can become a problem.

Some people find there is a connection between the effects of alcohol and what happens when they gamble.

This may mean they:

1.Tend to drink more

2.Spend more money gambling

3.Stay at the venue for longer than intended

4.Experience other changes in mood and behaviour as a consequence of drinking and gambling.

For some, alcohol can play a role in affecting a person’s capacity to control their gambling.

Losing track of time and money?

Research suggests that there is a relationship between alcohol and riskier styles of gambling, particularly among regular or problem gamblers.

Some people even think it is the alcohol that “triggers” them to gamble more than they can afford to lose.

Alcohol can also make it more difficult to stop gambling as inhibitions are lowered.

When is it a problem?

If you find your control is slipping and that you can no longer just walk away it may be time to make some changes.

Both of these activities can make you feel good at first and some people enjoy the feelings of “escape” – but the consequences can be damaging.

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If You are in a Hole, Stop digging!

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