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Thinking of you. Looking forward to your update.

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Thinking of you. Looking forward to your update.

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Thinking of you. Looking forward to your update.

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I cannot imagine having more than 500 consecutive gamble free days because I have never done it before.
On my own, I tried many times and failed. With Jesus Christ, it became a reality for me.

Last bet 23 April 2024
Gamble free days: 502

One day at a time

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Last bet 23 April 2024
Gamble free days: 498

One day at a time

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Last bet 23 April 2024
Gamble free days: 496

One day at a time

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Jeremiah 6:14
They dress the wound of my people as though it were not serious. “Peace, peace,” they say when there is no peace.

God tells us, you cannot heal a wound by saying it is not there.

My obsession – a persistent disturbing preoccupation with an unwanted thought, feeling and idea.
My impulsion – a sudden, unplanned, strong urge to do something with no regards of the consequences, safety and danger.
My compulsion – an irresistible urge to act out in something: to reduce my stress, anxiety, fear, and worry or to increase my good feeling such as gamble, alcohol, food, sex, work.

In the past, I want to take control of everything, I want to take control of my fate and destiny. I would undertake gambling risk, hoping to reduce the money I have lost. If I did not gamble, I would feel very anxious.

I fear that I would miss the winning opportunity. I do not want to regret not betting. If I am disappointed and angry, I will increase my next bet hoping to change the outcome with my next win.

If I did not follow my thought, my mind is like a spoilt tape recorder replaying the same message over and over again. After some time, I get very tired resisting these thoughts until I give up fighting. These anxious thoughts are causing me great discomfort and only goes away after I have placed the bet.

I could not sleep; I have no peace, I feel very irritated, frustrated, restless because my mind was thinking about returning to the place to gamble all the time. I could not make this unwanted thought go away.

Nowadays, I would spend an hour quiet time every day, I would meditate on the word or verse that I read in the bible. I would turn to God for help, I would confess to God my wrongdoing, I will talk to God and ask God to help me change, I will ask God to help me give up my ways and end with a prayer to the Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

I practice not listening to me, I, myself and all the lies I tell myself. If I was triggered, it just shows that I was losing my focus on God, I try harder to change my direction and fix my eyes on God again.

I did not realize that I was actually working on the area that leads to my gambling.

I can see that my self-control has strengthen and my obsession, impulsion, compulsion to act out in any disruptive ways have weaken. My gamble free day started growing to 493 days today.

• This reply was modified 5 months, 2 weeks ago by kin.

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Last bet 23 April 2024
Gamble free days: 491

One day at a time

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Last bet 23 April 2024
Gamble free days: 489

One day at a time

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Last bet 23 April 2024
Gamble free days: 487

One day at a time

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Last bet 23 April 2024
Gamble free days: 483

One day at a time

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John 12:24
“Very truly I tell you, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds.”

Somethings such as our gambling have to end for better things to begin in our life.

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Last bet 23 April 2024
Gamble free days: 480

One day at a time

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Yesterday has passed.
Tomorrow has not arrive.
I only need to stay gamble free today.
Tomorrow I do the same.

One day at a time.

Last bet: 23 April 2024
Gamble free days: 474

One day at a time

• This reply was modified 6 months, 1 week ago by kin.

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Good job on staying gamble free.
Yesterday has passed. Tomorrow has not arrive. All we can do was to stay focus on today.
Tomorrow we do the same.
One day at a time.

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