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Instead of getting more and more anxious, restless, and impulsive as my stress increase until I self-destruct. Praying has help me stay stop in gambling this time. Praying did not remove my anxious, restless, impulsive thought and feeling completely but it has reduce them to a manageable level. It did not work well for me in the past when I did not pray frequently. This time I join a group to help me do it regularly.

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I know what it was like to be unstable and I do not have any explanation.
I just read “A double minded man is unstable in all his way.”
If my loyalty is divided between God and gambling,
I will be unstable in everything I do.

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I suffered from health issues which is not going to disappear. I can be very sure my health issues will return a few times each year. It has been like that for more than 30 years in the past, it was something I cannot change but I can try to change myself to face something I cannot change. I seek help from a faith base recovery group and join them.

This was the beginning of a new experience. I was amazed by what is happening to me. I have prayed in the past but not done properly and not done frequently enough. This year I have survived the same problem that I face every year without self-destructing. My health issues appeared in March to May and Aug to Nov. My stress and anxiety, worries and fear, obsessive compulsive behavior and impulse control disorder returns but the frequent prayers have made the anxiety, worry and fear more manageable and the disorder that I suffer from less serious. This power did not come from me. I prayed that all who is suffering can find this power. My Higher Power is Jesus Christ.

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I can stay gamble free for more than 6 months every year and relapse later
This time I have started doing something different to stay stop – I started praying with a group of people everyday.
I am gamble free for more than 6 months again, it is all about staying stop now.

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my last bet was still 23rd April 2024

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It was easy to stop gambling, the difficult part is to stay stop gambling.
I do not look at the gambling that lead to my problems, I look at the problem that leads to my gambling.
Stop the problem that lead to my gambling, the gambling stop.
I suffered from impulsive control disorder, obsessive compulsive disorder, depression and eczema.

• This reply was modified 1 year, 3 months ago by kin.

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I am grateful to be clean and sober, all thanks, all praise and all glory to a Higher Power.
The Higher Power helps me to do what I cannot do for myself.

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A doctor after looking at my medical record told me that my gall bladder burst, there was a tear and gangrene. I did not know what it mean but it sound bad.

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I was admitted on the 24th Aug in the emergency department to remove my gall bladder.
I had surgery on the 28th and was discharge on the 29th in the same month.
I will be on hospital leave for the next 14 days.

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Hi jvr3419,

I have watched you talk and practice your recovery program over the years,
taking one baby step forward at a time and how it is has improved your life.

Submit and surrender
give up the “me, I myself” and old ways
follow a new way
watch your life change.

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Hi Treehead,

I just like to say that I have read your post, thank you for sharing.

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Hi CraigMac6,

I would like to take this opportunity to praise you for your courage and strength because every single time you slip, you did not stay down, you have climb back up and continue your journey in recovery.

• This reply was modified 1 year, 5 months ago by kin.

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I was thankful and peaceful
I was thankful and not anxious

Is feeling of gratitude and thankful an antidote to anxiety?

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I attend gambling support group meeting on days when I am not working;
Once every week, we meet up to pray for others and ourselves;

Other days when I am not meeting in person due to work
I am connected to others with the convenience of whatsapp chatgroup.

I really enjoy what I am doing now.
I am not doing this alone
I enjoy the support

• This reply was modified 1 year, 6 months ago by kin.

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Today I maybe unwell,
the weather is warm,
my eczema has flare up,
my working hours is long,
I was very tired.
This was a combination of events that can result in disaster for me.
I only need to wait for something to trigger me and I cannot imagine the damage.
I was easily anger, short tempered and impatient on this day.

I choose to sleep and rest to recharge and restore my strength and energy to cope with the daily life.
I felt calmer, more patient and peaceful after I woke up.
I had to give priority to self-care and give up doing things that I like to do but make me lose sleep.

It is another gamble free day.

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