[kim74]

Hi!!!!!
I am doing ok. I have been doing online GA meetings. It really helps.
Hope you are doing ok too?

[kim74]

Hi,

I did my first online GA meeting last night. I found this really helpful. Everyone was so nice and welcoming.
I am going to start the reading they provided tonight. It will be a good distraction

[kim74]

Hey!
Not a great day for me yesterday. I gambled. Felt so sick about it this morning.
I need to start recovery again. Can’t believe I did it. Wasn’t even worth it.
How has your weekend been?
Kim

[kim74]

I know exactly what you mean. The money we spend on gambling seems to have no value at the time we are gambling. It’s like being in a transe.
I am the same. Can spend so much on gambling and then hesitate when buying something I actually need. Ridiculous.
I am glad my secret is out. Although I still carry the shame. I might try working through the GA steps.
Yes another day gamble free. We are awesome!!!! You are doing well!

[kim74]

Whatever works I say!!!
How long have you not gambled for?
My day was good. Very busy at work which is a good distraction. Still emotionally drained from telling everyone.
How was your day?

[kim74]

With me it’s when I sit down on the couch after work and dinner and dishes are out the way. I sit with my phone, catch up on messages, emails. Once that is done I usually go in to the online casinos. It’s ridiculous!!!!
I do need to look at a replacement!
I am a single mum so yeah it may be a bit of boredom for me too. Not having that adult to have a conversation with.
It’s not easy staying away but we can both do this!

[kim74]

I am working out a plan to repay all of my debts. It will take a couple of years as I can only repay small amounts each week.
I have started listening to podcasts on gambling addiction as well.
Thank you for your support

[kim74]

I installed Gamban but also know how to undo it easily.

[kim74]

Thank you iamhere.
I have done nothing but gamble so need to start again. I last gambled on Friday – 2 days ago.
I opened up to my partner and family. My partner has left me. I don’t blame him.
I have a family member who I met with today who is going to support me through this. I am so grateful for that.

[kim74]

So much for being angry. I have gambled every day since I last posted. Today is my first gamble free day again. I am so down on myself. I feel suffocated by it all. Online slot machines are so available. Wherever my phone is, the temptation is there. I need to stop.

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