[kathryn]

Hi All,
Well another busy week at work, can you believe i have now been there for a month?  Amazing!!  Its a fun place to work and apart from one (isnt there always?) who tends to be a bit of a boss, its all smooth sailing.
I am all ready for the party tonight, i picked up our costumes yesterday…lol.  My Princess Leia wig is absolutely amazing, not to mention hysterical.  I tried the costume on at work yesterday and came walking out into the waiting room with it on…not one patient said a word, they were proboably in shock!!!
So i am spending today doing the housework and tomorrow i am working at the market.  Its raining today, so im expecting that it will also be wet tomorrow…yuk, i dont fancy standing in the rain, we dont have any cover so perhaps i could wear my wig!!! LOL.
On that note, have a great weekend, hope to see some of you on chat,
Bye for now, Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hiya Bettie,
Im so pleased to see how well you are doing…im starting my ear wax collection, and i should have my line on ebay by the end of the year…LOL.  I told the girls at work about that today, and they nearly fell over laughing!!!
I did get to do 2 ear syringes today, it truly is my favourite thing…and yes, they all think im wierd but they are saving them for me, bless them.
Anyway, just wanted to say hi, thanks for looking out for me, and im glad all is ok in bettie land.
Take care, bye for now, Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hi All,
Lee thank you for your post, i do miss my Wednesday chat with you x. P, dont panic…LOL.  I rang one of the exclusion places this morning, turns out they have changed things and i only need to do it once now.  Ive already made the arrangements, the day before my exclusion runs out i am meeting with them, at a neutral place, its actually a counselling place so im relieved i dont need to go to a venue.  We are meeting at 9am, and the lady has already done all the hard work for me, all i need to do is turn up and sign.  Im extremely relieved.  As i dont start work till 9.45 there will be plenty of time for me to get there.  Im organised!!! WOOHOO!!!  The longest i can exclude is 2 years so im taking that. 
Not much else to tell, i did get the groceries done on Sunday, lol.  Damian was pleased, we now have food in the cupboard, mind you, he didnt mind buying a new lawn mower while we were at it, so my purchases were less than his…lol.  I no longer feel guilty (not that i really did!!!) about my new wardrobe!
Ok, i really need to get to bed, hope you all have a great day,
Bye for now, Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hi All,
Im just about to head to bed, but felt i needed to post.
I cant believe how quickly the week goes now that im working full time, its quite extrodinary.  I am feeling that i am a useful person in this world, although i miss the forum a lot as i was here quite a few hours every day. I do read a lot, and weekend chat is wonderful of course.
Today i went to town with Jode.  My list was fairly short, socks for the boys, a birthday present for Jodes youngest son, underwear for me, groceries on the way home.
I managed to come home wth the socks, present and underwear, along with 2 pairs of trousers, 4 tops, 3 necklaces, and no groceries!!! At least now my work wardrobe is done, and i will be doing the groceries tomorrow…lol. Dames was not impressed!!
I have been thinking about gambling the last few days.  Not in the sense that i want to go, but i am starting to panic a little about my 1 year anniversary.  Ive been told that the thoughts can creep up during this time, and i need to organise my self exclusion, i do not want one day where i will be free of it as i do not even want to contemplate the thoughts of going, it terrifies me.  To think that this addiction could once again take me over, and send me back is too frightening for me to contemplate.  I will be ringing both places on Monday to try and sort out a time to meet, im hoping that a Saturday will be ok, if not, i may need to make up a small story to work, and start later.  Im not quite ready to tell them yet, i know i will in time, it just feels too soon for me.
Anyway, i have a few weeks, but better sooner than later i say. 
I hope to see many of you on chat this weekend, take care everyone,
Bye for now, Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hey Bettie,
Missing it or not, you are not gambling and THAT is the power of you girl!!!!
Take care, bye for now, Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hiya All,
P,thanks for your lovey post.  I am really enjoying my new job, im now into week 3 and my favourite thing is……ears.  Not the outside, the inside, i looooove looking in them, and most of all, i love doing an ear syringe.  There are some mighty dirty ears out there and when it pours into that little kidney dish, well, i have to say, its pretty amazing. I get quite animated when a really dirty ear walks my way, im screaming…oh my god, look at that!!!  They must think im very strange, matter of fact, im sure whoever is reading this is thinking the very same thing…lol.
I recieved a letter today, from one of the gaming assocations that i excluded from.  On June the 16th it will be time for me to sign again.  I will ring them this week,im pretty happy they sent me a reminder letter, i knew when the date was, but there is a number and a name to ring so i will find out if i can exclude on a Saturday.  I want to do it before my due date, for as long as i can. 
I have my mother in law here at the moment, she is only staying 1 night, so no big dramas to speak of. She has been quite unwell, so i doted on her like the wonderful daughter in law that i am (except for the half hour i went on group!!)
I still havent organised our payment plan yet, and of course the bills are arriving thick and fast this month, just to top things off.  Brea has also had her car serviced today, which has turned into a costly exercise, the best part of $600.  We are paying it and she is paying us back.  I cant afford for her not to.
So that is me at the moment.  Tomorrow the payment plan will be in place, and then i can breathe out and really start enjoying my life.
Take care all, hope you have a great day.
Bye for now, Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hi All,
Laura and FG, thanks for bringing me back to the front…i have been slack, slack, slack!!!
I have had a busy weekend, a party last night which was fun and then shopping today, shoes for the boys and groceries for the pantry. Nothing for me im afraid.  I feel like i dont have enough hours anymore, my spare time is being swallowed up with housework, or sleep.  I seem to have so much to do, and i cant keep up with it all.  I am about to go and do some cooking, its the preparation i cant be bothered with!
So, i dont have a lot to report at the moment, i am still gamble free, i am still taking things one day at a time.  I will try to be a bit more proactive this week.  I do think of you all every day.
Take care, bye for now, Kathryn xxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hey Bettie,
Oh, this addiction is clever, any excuse to start those urges, it knows exactly what to do. 
So, plan that concert, trip to a B&B and give that addiction the cold shoulder, you are travelling so well Bettie, you do deserve something special, gambling will only add to your grief, get excited about life and living, ring your cousin and organise something fun!!! It was great catching up with you on chat on the weekend.
Take care girl, Kathryn xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hi All,
Well im still hanging around, mainly reading…i had a nice weekend, the bbq was a great way to get to know the staff a bit  better, im glad i went.
Mothers day was good, had a lovely sleep in, breakfast in bed and im currently wearing my new pj’s…the cards made by the kids are always my favourite thing though.
I was a bit stressed at work this afternoon, i had to immunise 3 brothers, it was traumatic for them, but it was really traumatic for me…ive decided i dont like jabbing kids!!!
I have to start looking around for a loan for this debt. im feeing somewhat overwhelmed at the moment with all i have to do, but i will get through it. 
I hope you are all well and happy.
Take care, bye for now, Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hi All,
Well, things have settled down here, Dames and i are now on speaking terms.  We are going to try to obtain a loan to cover this debt and not be under so much pressure.  Im not sure just how we will go but i will give it a try.
Work has been great, first week down and im getting used to the daily running of things.  I have a BBQ to go to tonight, my boss is throwing it and while i would like nothing more than to sit and relax at home, i feel i have to go to this one, as its for the new staff.
My back is getting better, slowly, it has given me quite a bit of grief this week and now i am having physio twice a week to try and get it right, but it is taking a long time, well,  long time for me. 
I did have thoughts of gambling last night driving home, i knocked off an hour early, and it crossed my mind, but then the thought of putting the heat on my back won over, it was only a passing thought, i recognised it and moved on from it. 
Thank you all for your wonderful words of support, i am truly touched. I will be around this weekend, i have missed the fourm so much this week. 
Take care, bye for now, Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

My husband found out yesterday that i have been procrastonating on a debt.  Its a massive debt, and i havent paid it. He is furious, beyond furious.  He wanted me to go and stay at my mothers…which i didnt! I slept in my daughters bed last night, i have been called every name under the sun.  He said i was still gambling, for once, i was telling him the truth when i said i wasnt.  He has no notion of money, and the thing is, that im damned if i pay it and im damned if i dont.  It will be paid, in installments that will take years to pay off, but in the meantime our finances take a huge dive.  Im not so concerned about that, we can live, but its when he wants something…ugh.  I have tried to get a loan to pay it, but the bank keeps saying no, bad credit…more ugh.
I have been keeping away from him, and will continue to do so until he is ready to talk about it.  I dont believe i am wholly to blame, i take my part in it, but i know he wont take his. He is not rational, or in any way realistic with money, he has no idea how much it costs to live, because he refuses to take part in the financial running of this house.
So thats where i am today, my back is sore as Breas bed is so soft, at least im working today, keeping busy and not sitting here going mad.
Not sure what is going to happen, maybe this is it for him.  I am unusually calm in all of this, i know it will be ok, whatever happens, let the cards fall where they may.
Take care, bye for now, Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hi All,
Just a quickie as i am so tired i cant keep my eyes open.  Had a great first day, super busy, nearly 200 patients through the doors, i saw some pretty cool things and i learnt a lot..and that is just day 1!!!  My back survived (just) and im sitting here with the heat on it before bed.  I havent worked an 8 hour day in 20 years, so my poor body is in shock, my legs were literally shaking when i walked out the door tonight.  It was great, i felt really alive, really useful, and although i dont know the half of it yet, i cant wait for tomorrow.
Take care, bye for now, Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hi All,
Well im all ready for tomorrow, i have packed my lunch (LOL, i really have! ), everything is pretty well organised in the house, and my back, while not 100% is pretty close so i will take it really easy tomorrow and do my exercises on the floor if i have to.  Im so ready to get there, so excited, nervous, anxious.  I just want to get stuck into it.
I had a lovely weekend, just me and Harry, fairly lazy as i didnt want to overdo it.  On a lighter note, and i need some help with this, i have been invited to my neices 40th…its an 80’s party and i need some suggestions for me and Dames, he hates dressing up, but i have convinced him to do it as everyone will.  I was thinking of maybe Luke Skywalker and Princess Leah.  Any ideas will be apprecieated.
Well, ill be back tomorrow to let you all know how i went.
Take care all, bye for now, Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hi All,
Well, my baby is 6, we were up at 6 and had to wait for Dames to finish his shower before he could open them.  He was very patient.  So, i had put the biggest present, a huge box of wrestling things, on Breas bed. After he opened all the little ones, complete with a cuddle after every one, i told him there was one that i had forgotten,on Breas bed. He went running in, grabbed the  box (he needed help from Bailey it was so big…lol) and came and opened it.  He loved everything, its all set up in my lounge.
Now, the funny part of this, is that my sister called this morning, to wish him happy birthday.  He was telling her what he got for her birthday, and he says.."and Brea got me this big WWE box of stuff". He thought that because it was on her bed, it was from her…what a cheek!!!  I soon set that straight!!!
We will have a little party tonight, just us. Brea has gone to Port Douglas for 4 days, to look after Jodes boys for THAT wedding, yes, it is tomorrow.  I told her to just get through it, and we will have a little BBQ with THAT dress when she gets home. I do feel for her.
As for my back, its slowly getting better, i now have a claw…so i can pick things up off the floor.  I can bend down but im wary to go that far just in case so the claw does the job…lol.
Ok, have a great day everyone, bye for now ,Kathryn xxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hi Bettie,
So glad you had a great time at the bachelorette party…pity about the drag show…my absolute favourite thing.  When i went to Bali 10 years ago we went to a drag show there, and you could not tell that these women were men…they were stunning!!!  My husband dressed in drag once, we had a hookers and deviots night many many years ago and he wore my little black dress, complete with fishnets, red lipstick and his goatee beard…hysterical. He would never admit it though, but i think all men would like to try on a dress just once!!!!
You are doing so well with your urges Bettie, dont let FWB send you back, he is definitely not worth it, not when you are doing such a great job with your recovery. 
Take care, bye for now, Kathryn xxx
 To live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

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