[kathryn]

Życzę ci dobrze Jess, mam nadzieję, że twoje życie jest wszystkim, czego chcesz. Dzięki, że tu jesteś, twoja podróż była nie tylko wnikliwa dla tych na f&f, ale też wiele się nauczyłem.
Uważaj, Kathryn ***
Żyć, to byłaby wspaniała przygoda – Piotruś Pan– 29/07/2010 12:47:37 PM: post edited by kathryn.

[kathryn]

Toivon sinulle hyvää Jess, toivon, että elämäsi on kaikkea mitä haluat sen olevan. Kiitos, että olet täällä, matkasi ei ole ollut oivaltava vain f & f -ihmisille, vaan olen myös oppinut paljon.
Ole varovainen, Kathryn ***
Elää, se olisi suuri seikkailu- Peter Pan– 29.7.2010 12:47:37: viestin muokannut kathryn.

[kathryn]

Желая ти добро Джес, надявам се животът ти да е всичко, което искаш да бъде. Благодаря ви, че бяхте тук, вашето пътуване беше не само проницателно за тези, които се интересуват от f & f, но и научих много.
Внимавай, Катрин ***
Да живееш, това би било страхотно приключение- Питър Пан- 29/07/2010 12:47:37 PM: публикацията е редактирана от kathryn.

[kathryn]

Ik wens je het beste Jess, ik hoop dat je leven alles is wat je wilt. Bedankt dat je hier bent, je reis was niet alleen inzichtelijk voor degenen op de f&f, maar ik heb ook veel geleerd.
Pas op, Kathryn ***
Leven, dat zou een geweldig avontuur zijn – Peter Pan– 29/07/2010 12:47:37 PM: bericht bewerkt door kathryn.

[kathryn]

Desejo-lhe tudo de bom, Jess, espero que sua vida seja tudo o que você quer que seja. Obrigado por estar aqui, sua jornada não foi apenas esclarecedora para aqueles que estão na F & F, mas eu também aprendi muito.
Se cuide Kathryn ***
Viver seria uma grande aventura – Peter Pan– 29/07/2010 12:47:37 PM: post editado por kathryn.

[kathryn]

Je te souhaite bonne chance Jess, j'espère que ta vie est tout ce que tu veux qu'elle soit. Merci d'être ici, votre voyage n'a pas seulement été perspicace pour ceux sur le f&f, mais j'ai aussi beaucoup appris.
Prends soin de toi, Catherine ***
Vivre, ce serait une belle aventure – Peter Pan– 29/07/2010 12:47:37 PM : post édité par kathryn.

[kathryn]

Ich wünsche dir alles Gute Jess, ich hoffe, dein Leben ist so, wie du es dir wünschst. Danke, dass Sie hier sind, Ihre Reise war nicht nur aufschlussreich für die f&f, sondern ich habe auch viel gelernt.
Pass auf dich auf, Kathryn***
Zu leben, das wäre ein großes Abenteuer – Peter Pan– 29.07.2010 12:47:37: Posteded by kathryn.

[kathryn]

I wish you well Jess, i hope your life is everything you want it to be.  Thanks for being here, your journey has not only been insightful for those on the f&f, but i have learnt a lot too. 
Take care, Kathryn ***
To live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan– 29/07/2010 12:47:37 PM: post edited by kathryn.

[kathryn]

Hi Bettie,
So pleased you have gone to GA…stick with it, i think we learn something from everything…hmmm, dont know if that makes sense!!  Anyway, had some amazing ears this week, pretty gross my friend!!!
Hope to see you on chat, if that connection problem fixes itself.
Take care, bye for now, Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hi All,
So, ive had a huge week, i was exhausted, 7 days is just too long a stretch to work.  Anyway, its over, although on Thursday there was a small drama….. I was in the kitchen, talking to the boss, one of the other girls phone was ringing, it was really loud, to cut a long story short, i picked it up to try and quiet it down and she went beserk.  I ended up hiding in a treatment room in tears, a total over reaction for me.  It took me about half an hour to calm down.  The girl in question came and apologised, i told her it was ok but i was going to cry, to which she said…im going to cry too!!!  So we both ended up back in the kitchen bawling.  Quite funny really, typical hormones/tiredness/all woman office.  Needless to say, her phone can ring loud and proud, and im not touching it!!! Friday she came in with a clown wig and cracked jokes.  I look up to her, she has been working there for a long time and i dont think she realised the state of mind i was in either.  Just a bad day all round.
The other news i have is that Brea is moving out.  She has found a house, not too far away, and they are applying for it.  Im not sure how i feel.  On one hand im happy for her, its time for her to go and start her new life, her independant life, her adult life.  On the other, im sad that she is flying the coop, i will miss her, we have been getting on well lately, not too many arguements. (thankfully!!)  I have been buying her little things, toaster, kettle, teatowels, all those things we dont think about but just expect to be there.  I think she is super excited.  Im not sure how things will go with her boyfriend, he is still keeping away, we havent seen him for about 6 weeks.  Hopefully this will just blow over and things will just settle.  I dont want to be uncomfortable, although its Dames i have to worry about, he is as stubborn as a mule.
Today was a strange day for me, as Dames and Bailey are away, and Brea took Harry to the football. I wont lie and say i didnt think about gambling, a day like today used to be a dream, 8 hours to kill…ahhhh.  But i went and did some shopping, got Brea a few bits for her when she moves out, bought myself a little bit of makeup, did some groceries and came home to my heater and my flanalette pajamas.  I know that if i was still gambling, i would have been out the door 5 minutes after Brea had left, and spent all day gambling.  I would now be sitting here, not only with no money, but feeling like absolute rubbish, so im grateful for my exclusion and my very special friends here.
I hope you all are having a restful weekend, take care,
Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hi All,
I have a quick 10 minutes before i head off to work. My week and weekend have been busy, i am on day 3 of 7.  Work is work, busy, interesting, sometimes boring.  I have been sitting here thinking, i always craved a normal and average life, i think, i finally have it…..and there are no complaints from me.  Being able to function without those thoughts and urges is nothing short of a miracle, something i never imagined could happen.
So today im feeling grateful, for no drama, no major worries, no addiction whispering in my ear.  It did try the other night, just for a minute but it was brushed aside as all i wanted to do was get home and have a rest.  I am aware of its presence, but it has been unable to rouse the old Kathryn, the gambling Kathryn.
Thank you for all your posts, i dont seem to post as much, but im always reading…always!!!
Just a quick message for RG, if you happen along this thread….miss you girl, come back soon.
Anyway, i must head off, i hope you are all well and happy, this week im determined to get to you all…..eventually!!!!
Take care, bye for now, Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hi All,
Ahhhhhhhh…..i have my computer back, i actually hugged the man when he gave it to me, bless him.  The only downfall is that i have lost all my data, no files, and no email addresses, not a 1.  But, those i can get back, im just grateful that i can jump on here when i want to. 
I zumba’d again last night, it was fun.  The birthday party went well, although i was the only friend there, the rest were family.  I felt sad that none of her other friends turned up, so we had a good time and im pleased that i went.
I have the next 2 days off, then work 7 straight, and im planning to do not a thing tomorrow, just potter around the house, and hopefully have a little lay on the couch in the afternoon.  Friday is shopping with Jode, something i am looking forward to, as im demanding some money out of the account so that i can buy myself a few well earned treats.
P, you should try zumba, its fun and there were so many people at my class, its not too expensive and i really felt the burn so it does work.
Velvet, thanks for making me smile…now i dont want to hear that wrinkle cream doesnt work, as im sure my lines are getting less and less (wishful thinking i think) but i will not give up having a wrinkle free face that doesnt involve botox or anything else that  will cause me extreme pain.
Colin, yes, you are right, although one small detail was that it wasnt a hidden bill, it was a recent one that we recieved a reminder for, but regardless of that, i agree that all bills should be bought forth to save heartache later.
I hope you are all well and happy, i also hope to be around a little more now….WOOHOO.
Take care, bye for now, Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hi All,
Another week down, and it was a busy one.  Work was mad, absolutely mad, with mad people carrying on like pork chops. By last night i had had enough and couldnt get out quick enough.
I went to Zumba on Thursday night with the girls from work.  For anyone who hasnt heard of it its a hip swinging sort of latin dancing exercise, complete with movements like the monkey, the bird and the tree!!!  Hysterical!!  We nearly wet our pants (i came awfully close on a few of the moves!) but we had a great time.  If we couldnt do a move we just danced around on the spot.  I was pretty good yesterday, but i woke up quite sore today, so it obviously works.  We got a 2 for 1 deal, so we have to go back next week….god help me!!!
I have a 40th birthday to attend tonight, its a woman i have known for almost my whole life, i spent a lot of time with her family so it will be interesting to catch up, in truth, if i had my way id be sitting in front of the TV watching the footy as its so cold and windy today, but im going to go, even just for a little while.
I did my grocery shopping last night so as iwouldnt have to go out this weekend, so tomorrow im looking forward to doing nothing!!!  Thats the plan anyway!!!
Anyway, thats about me for now, take care all, Kathryn xxxxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hiya Bettie,
Good lord, there is nothing like a man to make you feel like crap! (i dont mean any men on here of course!!!) Time for you to write a list, of all your beautiful qualities, and i know there is at least a page there.  I have learnt that if you dont give yourself a wrap up, no one else is going to do it for you!  So start looking in that mirror, remember all the people here who know you for who you are, sight unseen and love you for it!!!  Dont give that guy the satisfaction of sitting back with his smug face, knowing that you’re sitting there waiting for him to call.  What a moron.  You my lovely, deserve all that is wonderful in this world, and once you start to give yourself a little credit, things will happen when you least expect them to.
Take care gorgeous, im so pleased the back is feeling better,
Bye for now, Kathryn xxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hi Bettie,
Oh my love, my heart pained at your posts.  Try and think of this addiction as a seperate person, oh it loves us to be sad and lonely, miserable and depressed.  It whispers in your ear, ‘gamble, and you will feel better’, knowing full well you will leave feeling lower than you ever thought you could.  When it starts to whisper again, remember how you feel now, and dont let those words lure you back.
You are a wonderful person, you have a fantastic sense of humour (im still saving the wax for your candle, nearly there, just a few more ears!) You dont give yourself enough credit.  This addiction makes us feel worthless, when the truth is that we are not, we just need to find the strength to block our ears (more wax for me!!)  I always believed that if we were told something often enough we start to believe it.  This is the addictions motto…tell us we are nothing and we will feel we are nothing, we deserve nothing.  ITS A LOAD OF CRAP!!!  We deserve to be happy, we deserve to have a great life, and it can be done….dont listen to that voice. 
You are a valued member of this community, with so many who respect you and truly enjoy your company (me included)
Well done for coming back and journalling, its so easy not to…but you did and that speaks volumes my friend.
Take care of you, bye for now, Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

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