[kathryn]

Hey Bettie,
Just sending my love to a very special person, someone who i know is way too hard on herself.
As for your daughter, that post made me feel really sad.  Please be kind to yourself, i started gambling with my mother, but i dont blame her for my addiction.  Everything happens for a reason, the good and the bad.  It would be easy to say my mother introduced me to gambling, but in reality, i think i would have found it myself anyway.
I hope your trip turned out to be a little less stressful that the beginning.
Take care, bye for now, Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hi All,
Thank you for your replies.  I woke this morning feeling much better, feeling as though the weight had lifted (pardon the pun), i think i was just having a bad day.  When i woke up it was like there was nothing wrong at all.  It was a relief, and i was happy that i didnt feel horrible anymore.  I dont enjoy being like that, it annoys me. Im not so good with negative feelings, i know i should just get through them, but its just not an enjoyable emotion for me.
So, today was a better day, and im thankful for that. 
Take care, bye for now, Kathryn xxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Larry,
An amazing story of survival,  could it be, that your higher power knew that there were other things waiting for you out there?  That you were still needed in this world (not to mention this fourm) and that you were given an incredible lifeline.  I believe that everything happens for a reason, and the  part you play in this community is more than enough reason in my eyes.  In reality, im sure we are but a small part of your life, but i know that my life would not be the same without you in it.  I can only imagine the relief your family felt, knowing you were safe.
5 years, i didnt realise that time had gone so fast, of course, me, on the other side of the world only saw small snippets of Katrina’s devistation, we do not have hurricanes (or anything else besides drought) in my part of the world, but i did see a show on Oprah, headlining what Katrina had done.  
I have just written a big post, moaning about my life, woe is me……well, your post makes me see the good in my life, and i thank you for that Larry.  I only hope that i can remember, that no matter how hard my life is, by the grace of god it could be so much worse.
Take care, bye for now, Kathryn xxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hi All,
Well, my week has been ok.  Work was fine, no major dramas there.
I am feeling quite flat, not sure if its because the daughter has flown the coop, proboably more like im feeling, for want of better words, fat and unnatractive at the moment.  I am on a new medication, and i dont know if its causing me massive bloating (wishful thinking) or just that ive put on weight.   I also went and got a haircut, and you know when you think its a good idea at the time??? Ugh!!!  So in general im feeling pretty lousy tonight.  Im also having the big birthday coming soon as well, and i am totally dreading it, i dont want it at all, and im not sure why.
Ive got a job i love, home is for the most part, happy, money is well, not so great but im sure we will get there eventually, Im feeling that everyone around me is doing really well, and my prospects on the financial front are pretty crap!!!
So, maybe im sitting here feeling sorry for myself, im not sure what i can do (perhaps shave my head?) to feel better.  I need to pull myself out of this, im a bit sick of myself at the moment, sorry my friends, a little downer of a post tonight.
By the way, the slipper party was great, my pink fluffies were a hit, although the boys with their homer simpson slippers went off a treat.  It was nice to be with my family.
I hope you are all well and happy,
Kathryn xxx
ive come back to edit, i have been thinking about things and i realise i feel im at a stale mate at the moment, and to be truthful, i thought things would be better by now, in the financial stakes.  Why cant i get ahead?  Im very annoyed at this, and dissapointed in myself that im not in a better place.  Yes, i realise that i have debt that will take years to pay, and i have accepted that, but its frustrating all the same.  Maybe i need to do some work on myself, so that i can make new changes, to make things better. 
To live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan– 29/08/2010 11:06:25 AM: post edited by Kathryn.

[kathryn]

Hi All,
Thank you all for your lovely posts.  I dont have a lot to write, the funeral was yesterday, and although i wasnt there, my thoughts were, all day.  Im back at work, it has been unusally quiet, we have more doctors on at the moment, so it means that we can see a lot more patients, which would be good if they would come in!!!
Im planning a quiet weekend, actually, now that i think of it, i have my neices 30th birthday on saturday night…its a slipper party, so at least my feet will be warm!!!!
Brea has moved out, i did have a small cry, but im sure thats normal.  The house is just lovely.  My boys have already changed rooms, Bailey now has a room of his own, which for an 11 yo is very exciting. 
So, thats me at the minute, i hope you are all well and happy.
Bye for now, Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hi Bettie,
While i truly understand that self esteem issues dont just dissapear, theres something else ive learnt….if you are told something often enough you begin to believe it! So ill say again beautiful girl, you are amazing!!!!!
Take care, Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hi Larry,
I feel compelled to write to you, im not sure why, maybe its your absolute sincere words you post to others, including me, maybe i feel that you truly take the time to read posts, and find valid and important points to discuss, maybe its just because i know you listen, and maybe its all of the above (more likely!!!)
My week has been very sad, my sister, who i love dearly is in immense pain that i cannot relieve. I can do nothing and feeling powerless has become something i have accepted in my life, but in this situation, well, what can i do.  As i sit here im feeling totally helpless, useless, and not in control which i dont like.  Being so far away from her is painful, i miss her already, and her children who i love. 
My brother in law was a great adventurer, as i told my neice, she had an amazing upbringing, living on an island on their own, being able to explore, fish and see the wonders of this world right at their front door, all the while her father there for her, teaching her about things i will never learn, and how lucky was she to have such an amazing role model in her life, even though he was hot headed!!!  Someone described him perfectly, a mixture of Steve Irwin and Bear Grills…i always smile when i think of that.
He was in no way perfect, but then who is?  I just hope that he realises just what he taught his children, how magical their life was, although im sure they didnt like it much at the time…but we always want what we havent got, and as children its always tenfold.
It is a tragedy what has happened, a terrible accident that is too bizarre to believe, but it has happened, and they all have to move on, eventually.
Larry, thank you for letting me write on your thread, i dont need a reply, i just needed to get that out,  and i know that you wouldnt mind, i just feel that you would understand.
Take care, Kathryn xxxx
 To live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hi Bettie,
Hmmmm, im gone for a week and what happens?  A man makes you feel so bad about yourself that you feel the only way to feel better is to gamble.
You are funny, smart, and yes my friend, you are beautiful, inside and out.  HOW DARE someone make you feel less than what you are. Doesnt the addiction just love him…it is playing right into its hands.  I wish you could see yourself like we all see you.  Vera i hit the nail on the head with her post, i love that woman, talk about say it like it is, lol.
You are worth, and deserve soooo much more.  I can only hope that one day you will look in the mirror and see yourself for what you truly are…an amazing person!!
Take care, Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Grant, Gloria, P, FG, Velvet, Jules, Des…
Thank you for your thoughts, it is apprecieated more than you know.
I arrived home this morning.  Im not sure what to say, leaving my sister was one of the most difficult things i have done for a very long time, although i know that there is so much support for her there, and on the way.
The funeral is not until Tuesday, as they had to wait for the coroners report and for the many many relatives and freinds to arrive in Darwin.  We spent the week making arrangements, and they were many.  Every day we had a list of a couple of things that had to be done.  My poor sister, she was exhausted, not to mention so unbelieveably sad and grief stricken.  I hope that we were able to take some of the burden off.
It was a week of sadness, but also a week of reflecting on Marks life, the funny things he did, the way he drove us mad, but the thing i remember the most is his dancing.  The funniest dancer i have ever seen.  Its times like this that remind me of how lucky i am , how things can change in a blink. 
Anyway, im thankful that gambling is not one more problem i have in my life, and yes, it does creep in occasionally, but i cant imagine how i could have possibly coped this week if i had been gambling as well.  Im grateful for small mercies.  I hope you have all had a good week, and maybe i will see you on the weekend chat.
Take care everyone, bye for now, Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

*****,
Chào mừng bạn, tôi rất vui vì bạn có thể viết ra suy nghĩ của mình, đây là nơi mà bạn sẽ không bị đánh giá, và thật tuyệt khi thấy bạn viết ra cả những điều tích cực và tiêu cực trong cuộc sống của bạn. Tôi hiểu khi bạn nói rằng bạn không thể nhớ chính mình, tôi cũng cảm thấy như vậy, con người tôi đã bị chôn vùi dưới cơn nghiện này. Khi thời gian trôi qua, những ý kiến nhỏ bắt đầu bị sứt mẻ, và con người của bạn, và luôn là như vậy sẽ được tiết lộ.
Điều quan trọng là dựng các rào cản để bạn được bảo vệ khi có tiền hoặc có cơ hội đánh bạc. Đây là những điều nguy hiểm ***** và bạn phải sẵn sàng cho chúng, vì cơn nghiện này sẽ ngấm vào bạn, và cho dù bạn tin rằng bản thân mạnh mẽ đến đâu, khi thôi thúc đến, nếu rào cản của bạn được nâng lên, bạn sẽ có thể vượt qua chúng.
Bạn có thể nhờ người bạn cùng hộ giúp đỡ, có thể giữ thẻ hoặc sổ séc của bạn để bạn không có quyền truy cập vào tiền không? Tôi khen ngợi bạn đã đến Gordon House, một quyết định mà tôi chắc chắn sẽ thay đổi cuộc sống của bạn trở nên tốt đẹp hơn.
Hãy tiếp tục đăng bài, tiếng anh của bạn tốt hơn nhiều so với những gì tôi nghĩ bạn nghĩ và rất dễ hiểu.
Hy vọng được nghe nhiều hơn từ bạn,
Hãy cẩn thận, tạm biệt, Kathryn xxxx Để sống, đó sẽ là một cuộc phiêu lưu tuyệt vời – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

*****,
Velkommen, jeg er glad for at du kan skrive ned tankene dine. Dette er et sted du ikke vil bli dømt, og det er flott å se deg skrive både de positive og negative tingene i livet ditt. Jeg forstår at når du sier at du ikke kan huske deg selv, så følte jeg det også, personen jeg er ble begravet under denne avhengigheten. Etter hvert som tiden går, begynner småkaker å bli flettet, og personen du er, og alltid har vært, vil bli avslørt.
Det er viktig å sette opp barrierer, slik at du er beskyttet når du enten har penger eller mulighet til å spille. Disse er farlige ***** og du må være klar for dem, ettersom denne avhengigheten kommer til å snike seg på deg, og uansett hvor sterk du tror deg selv å være, når trangen kommer, hvis barrierene dine er oppe, vil du være klarer å komme gjennom dem.
Kan du be flatmaten din om å hjelpe deg, kanskje beholde kortene dine eller sjekkheftet, slik at du ikke har tilgang til penger? Jeg roser deg for å gå til Gordon House, en avgjørelse som jeg garantert vil forandre livet ditt til det bedre.
Fortsett å legge ut, engelsk er mye bedre enn jeg tror du tror det er, og veldig lett å forstå.
Håper å høre mer fra deg,
Ta vare, farvel for nå, Kathryn xxxx Å leve, det ville være et stort eventyr – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

*****,
Bem-vindo, estou feliz que você possa escrever seus pensamentos, este é um lugar onde você não será julgado, e é ótimo ver você escrevendo coisas positivas e negativas em sua vida. Eu entendo quando você diz que não consegue se lembrar de si mesmo, eu me senti assim também, a pessoa que sou foi enterrada sob esse vício. Com o passar do tempo, pequenas peças começam a ser lascadas e a pessoa que você é, e sempre foi, será revelada.
É importante colocar barreiras, para que você esteja protegido quando tiver dinheiro ou oportunidade de jogar. Estes são gatos perigosos e você deve estar pronto para eles, já que esse vício vai se apoderar de você, e não importa o quão forte você acredite ser, quando o desejo vier, se suas barreiras forem levantadas, você será capaz de passar por eles.
Você pode pedir a seu colega de apartamento para ajudá-lo, talvez para segurar seus cartões ou talão de cheques para que você não tenha nenhum acesso a dinheiro? Recomendo que você tenha ido a Gordon House, uma decisão que tenho certeza que mudará sua vida para melhor.
Continue postando, seu inglês é muito melhor do que você imagina, e muito fácil de entender.
Espero ouvir mais de você,
Cuide-se, tchau por enquanto, Kathryn xxxxPara viver, seria uma grande aventura – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

*****,
Üdvözöllek, örülök, hogy le tudod írni a gondolataidat, ez az a hely, ahol nem ítélnek el, és nagyszerű látni, hogy mind pozitív, mind negatív dolgokat írsz az életedben. Megértem, amikor azt mondod, hogy nem emlékszel magadra, én is így éreztem, az a személy, aki vagyok, eltemetett a függőség alatt. Ahogy telik az idő, apró csípőket kezdenek aprítani, és kiderül, hogy ki vagy és voltál.
Fontos, hogy akadályokat állítson fel, hogy védve legyen, ha pénze vagy lehetősége van szerencsejátékra. Ezek veszélyesek *****, és készen kell állnod rájuk, mivel ez a függőség rád fog lopakodni, és bármennyire is erősnek hiszed magad, ha jön a késztetés, ha gátaid felemelkednek, akkor képes átjutni rajtuk.
Megkérheted lakótársadat, hogy segítsen neked, esetleg tartsd a kártyáidat vagy a csekkfüzetedet, hogy ne férhess hozzá a pénzhez? Gratulálok, hogy elment a Gordon House -ba, ez a döntés biztosan javítani fogja az életét.
Folytasd a posztolást, az angolod sokkal jobb, mint gondolnám, és nagyon könnyen érthető.
Remélem még hallani fogok felőled,
Vigyázz, szia, Kathryn xxxx Élni, ez nagy kaland lenne – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

*****,
Καλώς ήρθατε, χαίρομαι που μπορείτε να καταγράψετε τις σκέψεις σας, αυτό είναι ένα μέρος όπου δεν θα κριθείτε και είναι υπέροχο να σας βλέπω να γράφετε τόσο τα θετικά όσο και τα αρνητικά στη ζωή σας. Καταλαβαίνω όταν λες ότι δεν μπορείς να θυμηθείς τον εαυτό σου, ένιωσα κι εγώ έτσι, το άτομο που είμαι θάφτηκε κάτω από αυτόν τον εθισμό. Καθώς περνάει ο καιρός, τα μικρά πιπεράκια αρχίζουν να τσακίζονται και το πρόσωπο που είσαι και πάντα ήσουν θα αποκαλυφθεί.
Είναι σημαντικό να βάζετε εμπόδια, ώστε να προστατεύεστε όταν είτε έχετε χρήματα είτε έχετε την ευκαιρία να παίξετε. Αυτά είναι επικίνδυνα ***** και πρέπει να είστε έτοιμοι για αυτά, καθώς αυτός ο εθισμός θα σας μπει κρυφά, και ανεξάρτητα από το πόσο δυνατός πιστεύετε ότι είστε, όταν έρθει η παρόρμηση, αν τα εμπόδια σας είναι επάνω, θα είστε ικανή να τα περάσει.
Μπορείτε να ζητήσετε από τον συγκάτοικό σας να σας βοηθήσει, ίσως να κρατήσει τις κάρτες ή το βιβλίο επιταγών σας, ώστε να μην έχετε πρόσβαση σε χρήματα; Σας συγχαίρω που πηγαίνετε στο Gordon House, μια απόφαση που είμαι σίγουρος ότι θα αλλάξει τη ζωή σας προς το καλύτερο.
Συνεχίστε να δημοσιεύετε, τα αγγλικά σας είναι πολύ καλύτερα από ό, τι νομίζω ότι πιστεύετε και είναι πολύ εύκολα κατανοητά.
Ελπίζω να ακούσω περισσότερα από εσάς,
Φροντίστε, αντίο προς το παρόν, Κάθριν xxxx Για να ζήσετε, θα ήταν μια μεγάλη περιπέτεια – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

*****,
Dobro došli, sretan sam što možete zapisati svoje misli, ovo je mjesto na kojem nećete biti osuđivani, i super je vidjeti vas kako pišete i pozitivne i negativne stvari u svom životu. Razumijem kad kažete da se ne možete sjetiti, i ja sam se tako osjećao, osoba koja sam je pokopana ispod ove ovisnosti. Kako vrijeme odmiče, mali začini počinju se uklanjati, a osoba koja ste i uvijek ste bili bit će otkrivena.
Važno je postaviti prepreke kako biste bili zaštićeni kad imate novca ili imate priliku kockati. To su opasni ***** i morate biti spremni na njih, jer će vam se ta ovisnost prišuljati, i bez obzira na to koliko vjerujete da ste jaki, kad dođe potreba, ako su vam prepreke podignute, bit ćete u stanju proći kroz njih.
Možete li zamoliti svog stanara da vam pomogne, možda da zadrži vaše kartice ili čekovnu knjižicu kako ne biste imali pristup novcu? Pohvaljujem vas na odlasku u Gordon House, odluci koja će vam sigurno promijeniti život na bolje.
Nastavljajte objavljivati, vaš engleski je mnogo bolji nego što mislite da vjerujete i vrlo je jednostavan za razumjeti.
Nadam se da ću čuti više od vas,
Čuvaj se, doviđenja za sada, Kathryn xxxxDa bi živio, to bi bila velika avantura – Petar Pan

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