[kathryn]

Hi,
Im sorry i missed my group last night, i didnt even realise id missed it until just now, and its 27hrs later. My mum is in the hospital, its not life threatning, but possibly life changing.  Im not coping so well right now, im exhausted and scared, and so is my poor mammy.
Ill be in touch when i know more,
KathrynTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hi All,
Not a lot to report.  Ive been spending time with the kids over the holidays.  I did take them by train to Melbourne on Sunday to meet up with a friend i havent seen for a very long time.  We had a great day, it was lovely seeing my friend, we had a good catch up, coffee, and our kids played together.  The weather was lovely, and i was sad to say goodbye to her.  The trainride home was one of the most relaxing hours ive had for a long time.  I do love riding on a train.
This week im only working MOnday and Tuesday and i have the rest of the week off.  Im plannning on doing something with the kids,not sure what yet, their sister is taking them to the pool/waterslides tomorrow which should be great, not to mention they will be in bed early!
I hope you are all well and happy,
Love Kathryn xxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

You can do it B!
Each day you dont smoke your body will thank you. 
After 48hrs the nicotine is out of your system completely!
I remember you saying you would never be able to stop gambling…….
We know how thats gone so far!! (woohoo by the way)
This time next year you will be saying that about the smokes.
This is a new life for you girl, and its just beginning!
Love ya, K xxxxxxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Well, i survived the night, skin intact…
I do however think that this boy is the lovechild of Darth Vader…im not sure how much sleep i got, but i have never heard such heavy breathing in my life!!!  Yes, he did have a cold, but this was unbelieveable!
So we are here this morning, Dora the Explorer on the tv, me bleary eyed and skulling coffee.
I think a nanna nap will be in order this afternoon!!!
Love Kathryn xxxxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hi All,
Well, im sitting at my besties place, babysitting her 2 boys.  I have just put master 3 to bed and im praying he stays there….he is a pretty good sleeper so fingers crossed.
Master 4 and i are watching some fire truck cartoon thing,,,,,,he is sleeping with me tonight in the big bed!!  Very exciting.  From all accounts he is a rubber…..rubs your arm, your face etc.  I always thought it was cute, but apparently he nearly rubs your skin off! 
Not much else happening in my life, the kids are on school hols for 2 weeks and im having 3 days off each week.  Im planning on doing a few things with them, although im not quite sure what yet.  Im looking forward to a few days off too.  It will be nice not to have to rush in the mornings.
In terms of my addiction, i had to go and do a bit of shopping after work on Friday night.  What was interesting was that i realised driving home that going to gamble did not even register in my brain for 1 single second.  I had means and opportunity, but the self exclusion ensured i couldnt enter a venue.  Oh, what a nice feeling!!!! It still amazes me that i have come so far in my recovery, i honestly didnt think i could ever stop.  I remember coming here for the first time and thinking that i would never be one of those people, you know, the ones that actually managed to stop for a decent period of time?  It was so daunting back then.
I like my life.
Love Kathryn xxxxx  To live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hiya B,
The smoking issue….ugh.  Every day i say to myself that i should stop..usually when i am having a smoke!!!
I suppose we will be ready like we were ready to stop gambling.  I imagine it is like that.  Perhaps you could set a goal to cut down, its a start.  Putting too much pressure on yourself cant be good for your health either.
As for me, my girls at work sent me to get beautiful acryllic nails for my birthday.  I have never had fingernails in my life, i am a horrid biter.  I feel that flash, but i have to say, i have hit backspace soooo many times typing this little post that i could scream!!!!!
Love ya girl, hope to see you on the weekend xxx
 To live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Good evening,
Another week down, they are flying!!! Busy week at work, a few issues last night that i wont elaborate on except to say be careful what you say because someone is always listening!!
I had the boys school concert last night, which was, of course, brilliant!!  The boys were awesome, i was really proud of them. 
Dames has gone away for the night, perhaps 2.  He missed the concert last night as he had a work thing.  Turns out he wiped himself out and guess where he ended up?  With the keycard?  Yep, out at my gambling venue.  To say i was unimpressed was an undertatement.  Proboably a good thing that he’s gone away!!!!
Anyway, hope to see a few of you on chat on the weekend,
Love Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Thanks RG, i had a lovely day today.
I am currently typing on my new laptop (birthday prezzie) after a lovely lunch with my family, my bestie and her family.  It was a lovely day, i was spoilt rotten!!!
Back to work tomorrow, im sure the stress of the past week will be gone (thankfully) and we can get back to some normality.  We had sad news this week, a young girl of 12 who has been our patient for a long time was diagnosed with leukemia.  Makes you realise just how precious your family is.  Thankfully it is treatable, but she will have to go through the wringer first.  Her and her mum were sobbing, and we were all sobbing right along with her.  Its impossible, in a sitation like that to not feel anything. It could just have easily been one of us standing on the other side of that counter. 
Anyway, Im grateful that i have made another birthday gamble free.  As Larry says, its my belly button birthday…LOL.
Love to you all,
Kathryn xxxxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Good Morning,
Vera, you have a great memory….accreditation was yesterday, i was a little nervous, fear of the unknown i suppose, but it went really well.  I answered all the questions and the woman doing it seemed satisfied with my answers.  I had to show her around the clinic, how we do things, sterilising, immunisations etc.
There was also a doctor there doing the GP side of things, he was nice too.  They arrived about 9am, and by 1.30 they said they were ready with their report…..i think thats when i became the most nervous, i didnt want to let the boss down, but i got a really good report and there were no issues within the clinic, meaning that we have passed!
So now we have 3 years to relax…lol.
I am planning a very quiet weekend, not doing much at all, for 1, im exhausted from the week, and 2nd the weather is horrific, wind, rain, storms etc…a good weekend to stay warm at home.
So im hoping to catch up with a few of you on chat,
I hope you are all well and happy,
Love Kathryn xxxxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hiya B,
It has been way to long since we have caught up. 
While you have been caught up in Gardens of Time, ive been playing Words with Friends…..i do love a good game of scrabble!!!  Unfortunately i have only won 1 game out of about 12…LOL..I need to buy a big fat dictionary.
Anyway, hope to see you on the weekend,
Love lots,
Kathryn xxxxxxxxxxx
 To live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hi All,
I had a brilliant weekend.  It was full of laughter (me falling down the stairs of the train on arrival was just the start!) 
I have arrived home to a surprisingly clean house (a miracle!) and my mil is also here (hmm, yet to be determined if this is a good or bad thing).  Back to work and reality tomorrow. 
Sydney is absolutely beautiful, the weather was amazing, couldnt have asked for better.  We shopped till we dropped!
Not a minute to think of gambling, even though i am not banned from any venues in sydney at all. 
Cant wait to catch up with you all,
Love Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hey everyone,
Wow, i havent posted on my thread for a week
In truth, i havent had a lot to tell, just working and coming home and working, it seems a never ending cycle during the week. We do have accreditation at work in a few weeks, making it a very stressful time.  Fail accreditation and we lose a massive amount of funding from the government.  Need i say more?
My life in general is going pretty smoothly.  A bit more money coming in would be welcomed, but i suppose in life thats just normal, there just never seems to be enough, well, im so used to having none so i seem to be in the frame of mind of hanging on to everything i get!
I am however going away this weekend coming, to Sydney with my best friend.  We are having a girls weekend of shopping, a show perhaps, or sitting down at the quay watching the world go by (that sounds good too).  I am soooo looking forward to it, we have had it booked for months.
So, im only doing a 3 day week this week, we leave on Friday, but im taking Thursday off as well, it will be great to be able to get organised at home, get some grocery shopping done, and get packing!!!
I hope you are all well and happy, i have had no real urges to gamble, i was sad to see that P had closed her thread, and ecstatic at Betties 1 year mark.  Both keep my resolve strong.
Take care my lovely friends,
Kathryn xxxxxxxxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hiya B,
I was teary eyed as i read your post.  My god…what an achievement.  I cannot be prouder of you, Bettie, not only are you a ‘sister in arms’, but you are my friend, you have seen me through so much, you have always always supported me and you my friend deserve every acolade.
You know i have to do it…….
WOOOOOOHOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!
The biggest congratulations to you my friend.  I hope you are proud of yourself, you bloody well should be!!!!!!
Love coming to you across the ocean,
Kathryn xxxxxxxxxxxxxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hey everyone,
Wow, what a great weekend i had. Last night i went to the Sound of Music singalong.  We had planned to dress up but our costume hire didnt go to plan.  So, in plain clothes (i did wear black, as close to a habit as i could get) we went to the show.  It was amazing.  There was a compare, we were given a little goody bag of props, and we were told what to do with them.  It was brilliant.
I sang like no one was listening, as did the other 1000 something people in the room.  It would have to be one of the most different, enjoyable nights ive had in a long time.  Today we went to the market in Melbourne, and although i didnt buy anything it was a relaxing morning.
Its lovely to be able to go away for a night, and not have the thoughts of gambling hanging over my head.
Its wonderful to spend time with my sister and neices and not have the thoughts of gambling lingering in the background.
Today i am really grateful for what i have, and how far i have come.  To enjoy life, without those thoughts, those urges, making me want to shut out the world.  Now this is living!!!!
Love Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hello everyone,
I am going to the accountant tomorrow to get hubby’s tax done.  This last financial year i have been brutal and anal about keeping every possible reciept for us to claim back.  We have got quite the pile of reciepts which is great.  What is even better is that we got a letter from the tax department listing our debt payments and it turns out that we will be out of debt in only 1 more year.  I am so excited.  I thought it would take 5 years but it will only be 3. What a relief and what an opportunity to start planning out what we will do when this debt is paid. 
I will finally feel free when this debt is paid.  It felt impossible at the time but now the light is at the end of the tunnel…woohoo!!!
HOpe you are all well and happy,
Love Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

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