[kathryn]

Hey everyone,
Day off today, havent done much as ive been a cleaning machine, it is satisfying though when its all done and dusted!
I am off to the Australian open tomorrow with my sister for 2 nights of luxurious living, not to mention the tennis to which i think is going to be amazing.  It will make life much easier not having to go outside for a cigarette, no more lepers corner for me!!!!  I did always feel uncomfortable trying to find a place to have a smoke, so i guess thats a plus…..i have been finding it soooo hard, and even as i type i feel i would like nothing more on this glorious day to sit on my balcony with a cigarette…..sigh.
In saying that, i am not going to have a smoke, my gambling addiction has taught me a lot of valuable lessons in coping with urges and im applying them to my cigarette smoking as well.
I suppose i should go and start packing, im not sure what to take, and i tend to procrastinate on packing, i always panic that i have missed something…
I hope you all have a good weekend,
Love K xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hi All,
Hope, thanks for bringing me back, yes, i have been slack slack slack!!! 
So ive not much to report really, ive been working of course, thats still same old same old, ive had a few days off with the kids to which i really did nothing except take them shopping. 
I worked this weekend, which was good, and when i got home today we took the boys to the theme park for a little while, they loved it so i feel much better knowing that ive done something with them.
Im off to the tennis this weekend coming, with my sister.  I cant wait,  i need a relax and i will certainly have that there.  On the gambling front i have nothing to report, and im happy to say i have nothing to report on the smoking front either!!  Im a month smoke free tomorrow but i have to say, it has been sooooo hard, much harder than i anticipated.
Ive havent started my journal yet, i have managed to buy one, so its a matter of giving myself the time to do it, making the time, which isnt always easy.
I hope you are all well and happy,
Love Kathryn xxxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Oh B, im so so sorry, i hope Jen is ok, i am sending my biggest hugs to you both, i could cry, in fact, i am.
Nothing can make this better, for either of you, but perhaps some comfort will come from the thought that there are hundreds of people around the world who have you in their thoughts.  You will be on my mind, tonight, tomorrow and the next day, you and Jen.  My friends father died many years ago and i found this small saying, it spoke to me.  I put it in the paper for her dad and even now she talks of it……
Not all things can be explained
Some things just are.
Love you girl,
K xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

B,
My heart is with you, my thoughts are with you, you are stronger than you imagine yourself to be.
K xxxxxxxxxxxxxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hi Twilight,
I wish you a very happy New Year.  You cant change your dad, you can only change yourself, but you already know that….
I too am embarking on what i am going to call "the quest" in 2012.  i am going to be happy.  Im not too sure how im going to do that apart from the usual exercise (i have stopped smoking so thats a start)….but im looking to do something more.  I feel im going through the motions of life and its passing me by.  Time to take the reins and really do something, if only i could work out what that something was…lol.
Anyway, wanted you to know i read your post and i wish you every happiness.  I look forward to reading what 2012 will bring to your life.
Lots of love, Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

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^ laughing with my family
> getting the house ready for a 41c day (toooo hot!!!)
v how did you celebrate NYE?

[kathryn]

So happy to read that you got through Grace,
I hope you had a good new years, i cant quite believe another year has gone, just like that.  Its going way too fast for my liking, time to stop and smell the roses!
Keep going Grace, each day is another great gamble free day, no matter how difficult it is to get through it.  Maybe if you push yourself to get ‘out there’, that feeling of being socially awkward will start to disappear.  Practice makes perfect!!!
Take care, Kathryn xx
 To live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

I just got an iphone,
What was one of my first apps?  Yep, gambling help.
Brilliant idea, now i can be in touch wherever i am.
Kathryn x

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Happy New Year everyone,
Yes, the clock has struck 12 here in Oz, i didnt think i would be awake to see it, we took the kids to a theme park today, we were there all day, it was fabulous, but i was so exhausted when i got home.  Anyway, i made it, Bailey has been like a cat on a hot tin roof watching the fireworks on the balcony so at 5 mins to 12 i threw him in the car and we went down to the beach. There were lots of fireworks so i think he was pretty happy.
I dont make new years resolutions, too much pressure for me!  I will however say, that 2012 is going to be my year.  My year for health, my year for happiness. I am going to do what i have to to not only look good but to feel good about myself.  Not a resolution, but a promise to myself.
I hope you are all well and happy,
Love Kathryn xxxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Gosh , i havent posted on my thread for a long time.
Heaps has happened, some good, some stressful.  Ive been living day by day, nothing so bad that i cant cope, nothing so good i want to scream from the rooftop.
My daughter is moving out.  I have to go and help her re arrange her new house.  She is moving back with her b/f, after a 5 month separation,  they have been back together for a few months now. 
Christmas was great.  I had lunch here, and i thoroughly enjoyed putting it on, although my mother was less than impressed, she has had christmas lunch at her place forever.  She wouldnt sit at the table, too hot she said, so she sat 3 feet away….LOL. After lunch she sat ‘near’ me (not at the table) with her arms crossed, giving me the evil eye.  It was extremely funny.  This wasnt the Alzheimers talking, this was her purely being nasty because she didnt get her own way!!!!!
Anyway i just thought id better update as its been a while.  Im doing good.
Take care all,
Kathryn xxxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hiya B,
Well, sounds like the card arrived just when you needed it…
Ive said it once, and ill say it again, i wish you could see yourself like i see you. 
You have helped me through some dark times B, and perhaps that card was the start of a little light for you.
You are going to be a nanna, and a wonderful one at that!  Its almost a new year, ive decided to make a few changes, for me.  Next year is my year B…let it be yours too.  Find that inner beauty you posess and push it outwards.  Then you will notice that its always been there, the only person who couldnt see it is you!
Love you girl, wishing you the merriest of Christmases,
Kathryn xxxxxxxxxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

My fellow Americans (yes, i know im not american but ive always wanted to say that)
Your dates are the reverse of Australian dates……so 11/6/11 is actually 11th June, 2011, not 6th November, 2011.  You say 9/11, we say 11/9.  Capice??? (ive always wanted to sound like a mob boss too!!!)
Hope that cleared it up, i just realised what you were thinking….
Love K xxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

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Just to clarify, my 2 years was 11.06.11, but i totally totally love that you have posted that to me….thanks.
On a more sombre note, my mum was diagnosed with Alzheimers today, i took her to the appointment.  Its been a long hard day and im pretty tired.  I knew there was something wrong, but it is totally different when a professional says the words.  Mum was pretty upset and i managed to hold it together,thankfully.  We went out for lunch and on the way home she turned to me and said "well, i had a lovely day"…bless her, she had forgotten already!!!!!  LOL.  As Laura pointed out….small blessings…..
Bailey is going to his orientation day tomorrow at high school.  He has to catch the bus.  I, am beside myself.  I know he will be fine, but i am his mum after all and cant help but worry.
Too much stress for me today, but gambling was never an option i was willing to take.
Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

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Thank you Velvet, you always say the most amazing things…..
I never for one moment thought about gambling.  My only fear was of his reaction. 
I find that a bit interesting really. 
Love Kathryn xxxx
 To live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[kathryn]

Hi Bettie,
You know what, im not sorry you broke that ornament, because if it was meant to happen for you to remember something wonderful about your father, it cant be a bad thing.  I know what thats like B, Christmas makes me think of my Dad too, he made my Christmases wonderful, magical.  He is on my mind a lot this time of year.
I hope your daughter is ok.  It would be nice if we could choose the men for our daughters, although maybe that way we would chose them more for us, not them.  Like us, they need to learn their own lessons and we can be the shoulder they cry on.  Of course, im sure you want to snot the little so and so and i for one wouldnt mess with you!!!
My thoughts are with you my friend, it seems i havent seen you for such a long time, and i miss you…
Love Kathryn xxxxx
 To live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

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