[kathryn]

I don’t know anything about crypto currency, or poker for that matter.
I am a compulsive gambler. When I start, I can’t stop until it’s gone, I could win win win and would stay until I have blown the lot and then some.
I guess you have to weigh up what you have to lose here.
And it’s not just money we are talking about. It’s self esteem, self worth and self control ( the hardest of all)
I can see how you are tossing up what to do.
In saying that, it doesn’t sound to me like poker and crypto have done you any favours lately?
I can’t tel you what to do, it’s your life and your decision.
I can never gamble again, I know that. ( mind you it took me 15 years and the loss of my Home to get it through my head!)
Only you can make the choice. May I suggest to read some other posts here, you may get more perspective that could help you.
I wish you all the very best and hope to read more of your story.
Love K x

[kathryn]

Glad you have found the forum, reaching out for help is a great step. Life is a bit easier with support so it’s great to read your wife is on board with you through this.
The gym…….great time filler and you will feel amazing for it!
You’re definitely on the right path…..keep it up!
Look forward to hearing more from you,
Love K x

[kathryn]

Happy to read you are doing well.
Wishing you a happy Christmas, not gambling makes it a bit easier for sure!
After 15 years of gambling, scrounging every Christmas it is so nice to not have the stress or worry. I hope you enjoy it!
Keep up the good work,
Love K x

[kathryn]

Just sending you a little cheer from across the water.
I miss chat, my computer is still not fixed (I’m lazy as hell) and and it difficult on my Phone .
When I went o. My trip everyone told me the coffee was terrible over there. Well, I loved the coffee from the pot! Delish !!!!!
I’m saving again, so you never know, a couple of years and we might just get there!!!!
Love ya girl, k xxxx

[kathryn]

Welcome to the forum,
Well done on your gamble free time, seems you are doing everything you can to keep your marriage, and indeed your life together.
Gambling is such a secretive addiction, I’m sure all of us have tried to stop on our own, I know I certainly did.
I don’t know if it can be done. I’m happy to say that the support and advice I took when I found GT have helped me for a long time now. I’m not without slip ups….but I’ve learnt that becoming complacent is just not worth it.
I’m so happy your wife is supporting you, and I’m looking forward to hearing more from you.
Take care, love K xx

[kathryn]

Well done on telling your partner. I know all too well how hard that is. So now, the aftermath.
My husband had good and bad days.
I forced him to handle the money, I could no longer be trusted and I didn’t want any temptation. It helped me a lot.
It’s so difficult for a non CG to understand this addiction.
Let’s face it, I barely understand it myself, so trying to explain it to someone who hasn’t been there is pretty difficult.
Tina, you have to keep working your recovery.
This is actually about looking after yourself .
Time is the only healer.
You can only do what you can do. You can’t go back, hell if we had of known what would happen things would have been different.
But they are not. It is what it is.
He’s going to have crappy days. It will pass. He’s there, he loves you and he is willing to help. Take it.
Keep looking after you. It’s a sensitive time for both of you right now, and being on edge would not be helping one little bit. You made a MASSIVE step in your recovery.
That, my friend is something to be truly proud of.
You kicked that addiction in the guts!!!!
Just take each day as it comes. You’re going to be ok.
Love K xxx

[kathryn]

Hope you got heaps of bargains and finished your shopping off!!!
I’m done. Thankfully.
I get stressed every year. Of course, when I was gambling my stress was about a million times higher. I guess it’s kind of a good stress now, if there is such a thing lol.
Obviously your back is feeling much better to be able to go for a little shop, and I’m soooo happy for you. It’s the little things that are really the best.
Tomorrow I’m going to decorate mums new room in the high care wing. Then my family Christmas party tomorrow night, I’m really looking forward to that. Sunday will be lazy. I only have 7 more days of work then we close for the holidays…Dames and I are going camping for a week! There’s others coming too so it should be a whole lotta fun!!!
Lots to look forward to!
Love K xxx

[kathryn]

One year I gambled all the money I had put away for the kids Christmas presents. I lied to my mother and told her my purse had been stolen out of my car. She ‘lent’ me the money. Of course, I only bought minimal stuff for the kids and gambled the rest.
To read that back gives me a hot flush and makes me feel physically ill.
Not this year.
Love K xxx

[kathryn]

I really liked that post, I could almost hear you breathing out when you wrote it.
Have a good weekend, love K xxx

[kathryn]

I’m on a bit of a posting roll.
Saw on another post you’re not in a great place at the moment, and I’m sorry for that.
I just wanted to drop you a line to say I think of you often, In my work I do a lot of standing around, it’s amazing what one can think about…..although lately I’m either walking through Central Park or over the Brooklyn bridge!!!
Take care, love K xxx

[kathryn]

Sajnálok mindent, amit gyerekkorodban átéltél. Ezek a dolgok megváltoztatnak minket, mint embereket, és kis embernek lenni még rosszabb, ha nem tudunk olyan dolgokat megérteni, mint egy felnőtt. Gyerekkoromban nem bántalmaztak, így amit elképzelni látok, valószínűleg ezredrésze annak, amit érzel, nem fogok úgy tenni, mintha tudnám. Azt akarom mondani, hogy az egyetlen ember, aki boldoggá tehet téged, az te vagy. Ha ez azt jelenti, hogy nincs karácsony a családoddal, tedd meg. Rendben van, hogy nem akar ezzel az egésszel foglalkozni. Nem tudom, mit mondjak anyukádról. Nincsenek szavak. Lizbeth, gyönyörű, kedves, gondoskodó, együttérző nő lettél. Te csináltad! Senki más!!! Ne hagyd, hogy bárki megváltoztassa azt, aki vagy. Szerelem K xxx

[kathryn]

Jeg beklager alt, hvad du har været igennem som barn. Disse ting ændrer os som mennesker, og at være en lille person er endnu værre, ikke at kunne forstå ting som en voksen kunne. Jeg blev ikke misbrugt som barn, så det jeg forestiller mig er sandsynligvis en 1000th af, hvordan du har det, jeg vil ikke lade som om jeg ved det. Det, jeg vil sige, er, at den eneste person, der kan gøre dig glad, er dig. Hvis det ikke betyder nogen jul med din familie, gør det. Det er ok ikke at ville beskæftige sig med det hele. Jeg ved ikke, hvad jeg skal sige om din mor. Ingen ord. Lizbeth, du har vist sig at være en smuk, venlig, omsorgsfuld, medfølende kvinde. Det gjorde du! Ingen andre!!! Lad ikke nogen ændre, hvem du er. Elsker K xxx

[kathryn]

Çocukken yaşadığın her şey için üzgünüm. Bu şeyler bizi insan olarak değiştirir ve küçük bir insan olmak daha da kötüdür, bir yetişkin gibi şeyleri anlayamamak. Çocukken istismara uğramadım, bu yüzden muhtemelen hissettiklerinizin 1000'de biri olduğunu hayal ediyorum, biliyormuş gibi yapmayacağım. Söylemek istediğim şey, seni mutlu edebilecek tek kişi sensin. Bu, ailenizle Noel olmayacaksa, yapın. Hepsiyle uğraşmak istememekte sorun yok. Annen hakkında ne diyeceğimi bilmiyorum. Hiçbir kelime. Lizbeth, güzel, kibar, sevecen, Şefkatli bir kadın olduğun ortaya çıktı. Bunu sen yaptın! Başka hiç kimse!!! Kimsenin kim olduğunuzu değiştirmesine izin vermeyin. aşk k xxx

[kathryn]

Lamento todo lo que pasaste cuando eras niño. Estas cosas nos cambian como personas, y ser una personita es aún peor, no poder entender las cosas como lo haría un adulto. No fui abusado cuando era niño, así que lo que imagino es probablemente una milésima parte de cómo te sientes, no voy a fingir que lo sé. Lo que quiero decir es que la única persona que puede hacerte feliz eres tú. Si eso significa que no hay Navidad con su familia, hágalo. Está bien no querer lidiar con todo. No sé qué decir de tu mamá. Sin palabras. Lizbeth, has resultado ser una mujer hermosa, amable, cariñosa y compasiva. ¡Tu hiciste eso! ¡¡¡Nadie más!!! No dejes que nadie cambie quién eres. El amor k xxx

[kathryn]

Es atvainojos par visu, ko jūs piedzīvojāt bērnībā. Šīs lietas maina mūs kā cilvēkus, un būt mazam cilvēkam ir vēl sliktāk, nespējot saprast lietas kā pieaugušais. Bērnībā mani neizmantoja, tāpēc tas, ko es iztēlojos, iespējams, ir 1000. daļa no tā, kā tu jūties, es neizlikšos, ka zinu. Es gribu teikt, ka vienīgā persona, kas var padarīt jūs laimīgu, esat jūs. Ja tas nenozīmē Ziemassvētkus kopā ar ģimeni, dariet to. Tas ir labi, ja nevēlaties ar to visu tikt galā. Es nezinu, ko teikt par tavu mammu. Nav vārdu. Lizbeta, tu esi izrādījusies skaista, laipna, gādīga, līdzjūtīga sieviete. Jūs to izdarījāt! Neviens cits!!! Neļauj nevienam mainīt to, kas esi. Mīlestība K xxx

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