Thanks for responding Lizabeth. I guess that’s the hard part. Nobody close to me understands. Gambling is a completely foreign subject to my wife and most of my friends. To them I have complete control, I’m just being irresponsible and stupid. I’ve gone to counseling for a little over a year but it’s not helpful. My wife is tired of acting like my mother. I don’t know how much more she can take. I’m just at a loss for words and ideas now. The negative emotions just keep building. I know I’m a good person but more and more I’m starting to not believe it. Idk if it’s a deeper issue that’s causing the self destruction or maybe I am just irresponsible and reckless and don’t care about anyone else.
