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I might lien it to jumping off a very high bridge. It is or isn’t. You’ve jumped off the bridge and you know it hurts and can potentially kill you. There’s the bridge… Do you want to jump again?

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good job. Let your feelings out. That’s a good thing. But just focus on the last line you wrote. I will not gamble today. Say it enough and it just is.
Anytime I’m even around gambling I just don’t entertain it. Gambling seems like a sure way to ruin a good time or any time for that fact. My brother wanted to bet $1 on miniature golf the other day… I said that I don’t gamble anymore. Lets just play for fun. 🙂 And we did and it was…
All the thoughts, questions, and theories go out the window when you just decide that you aren’t gong to gamble anymore. If you can’t do it then you don’t. It’s not a game with rules. It is or isn’t. Does that make sense?

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good job. Let your feelings out. That’s a good thing. But just focus on the last line you wrote. I will not gamble today. Say it enough and it just is.
Anytime I’m even around gambling I just don’t entertain it. Gambling seems like a sure way to ruin a good time or any time for that fact. My brother wanted to bet $1 on miniature golf the other day… I said that I don’t gamble anymore. Lets just play for fun. 🙂 And we did and it was…
All the thoughts, questions, and theories go out the window when you just decide that you aren’t gong to gamble anymore. If you can’t do it then you don’t. It’s not a game with rules. It is or isn’t. Does that make sense?

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Day 310

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Awesome news! Right on… Things are starting to take a turn for the better. Gambling/the action/the rush is a bad and negative thing. Love and family is where it’s at! Woot!!

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Hi Monica, Thanks. I actually got a call yesterday and a job offer today. It’s a bit below my normal rate so I am thinking about it. But I’d rather be busy than not. For me, doing nothing is hard, it drives me crazy. I kind of do want to hold out and wait but what if the phone doesn’t ring again until the new year. I’ll just be sitting on my hands. Need to consider it a bit more. I might just take it and if something better comes along jump. Not my normal MO but has crossed my mind. Today is day 307.

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I love that post. It’s time to get it going… Once you get your health in check you’re going to be feeling better. Baby steps is the way to go. You seem to know what your basic issues are. You’re going to get back on your feet and find a great job that appreciates you and challenges you. Now it’s time to get mentally and physically in shape to be able to tackle that opportunity when ready and it presents itself.

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I feel a little down but have been doing some pushups, pull-ups, walks, and talking to friends. I was thinking about working on a webpage for a blog and a business I wanted to start. I need to brush myself off, lick my wounds, and get back in to the game. I really appreciate you asking Monicau. Since I haven’t gambled in a while and saved every cent I made I was able to save a little. That with unemployment I can survive for a few months without working. But I’m trying to remain positive and am hopeful the phone will ring.

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Hi 3racer – Another day gamble free? Don’t give into the rush/gamble. It’s a falsehood.

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Hope you come back and aren’t continuing to gamble.

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Hi Dotti,

The only answer is to quit gambling. It seems to be you are a sensitive person and the emotions of life have overwhelmed you. What you truly needed was most likely counseling. You found that gambling helped suppress these feelings better than anything else. And isn’t it great that you can just keep gambling and feel a little better until…. the next spiral of pain sets in… like you said you loose quality time with loved ones, you chase loses, you get depressed thinking about the losses.
You need to give all control of finances over to someone that you can trust and that you can confide in. If you have access to no money guess what? You can’t gamble…. It’s really that simple. No money = no gambling. Have 20 bucks available at all times or set up a joint savings ac***** that your friend can then add $20 to when you spend the first 20. This makes you ac*****able for every cent. It’s this point where you can start the healing process. Start your day gamble free ***** on here so we can track your progress. I would also suggest seeking some help. Life coach, counselor, psychologist, etc. If your not in debt then you can afford it. You lost 4k last month. If you went an saw an awesome doctor twice a week you wouldn’t;t have spend 4k on it. So what Im saying is invest that some money in your personal growth. make sense?

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Day 305

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You gambling again rainmen?

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Hi Monicau,
Good question… I’m sot sure what scares me exactly… I get worried about the next 20 years. You just seem to be hurting so bad and it seems scary. I know what I’ve gone through would most likely seem scary to anyone reading it as well.
Having that MBA is great. Wow – You have a great education. I’m guessing you can find a job once you get your health in check. I’ve been really wanting to go back to school and get my MBA.
I’m sorry to hear that about the state of affairs in UK. I don’t think either of know to much to go and get a basic job that pays some bills. I was telling my brother the same thing earlier when he told me he is down to his last $100. I know he is asking me for money again but hasn’t actually asked. He is just letting me know that he is dire straights. I’ve loaned him money over and over again throughout my whole life. He doesn’t gamble but he does look to drink and is basically a very lazy guy. He has never had a real job and sells his art on the street.

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What happened at 8 months that made you want to gamble again?

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